Hello World.....
This one popped in my head right before I closed my eyes to head to lala land...enjoy!
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Final Destination
I hear the key in the lock, a smile on my face as I look at the clock..
A "Hey Babe" as I check the skillets and pots on the stove brings a quiver from the top of my head to my toes...
My man is home at the end of the day, time to switch hats from corporate life to husband/wife time and play..
I love this dude and he's all I need and I want...
My heart skips a beat because I know when it's all said and done, I'm his final destination...
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**Third Installment by Nissa K**
Created by Nissa K
Friday, August 31, 2012
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Oneness...
Hello World...
so my day ended with an invitation from a good friend of mine to experience a type of sisterhood meeting at her church Hillside International Truth Center. It's a meditation meeting, allowing those in attendance to close off the world for a few moments and quiet the noise in your head and become one with yourself. To be able to think clearly...and for the first time in a looooong time i was able to talk myself out of hearing the noise. I jokingly speak of having a reset button because I want to start some things over in my life BUT as we know there is no such button...however if you continue to live and go forward, you can enhance and correct some things. it's just that simple. Oh man it was a beautiful thing! And I was thinking back to how it normally is with like a revival service, where you experience this short-lived euphoria but this is feeling different. Apparently people have these meditation services throughout the city and I'm thinking I need to find and join one. There's no $$ involved, it's just people who care about your soul/spirit and your relationship with God.
I'm so glad I went, it has created some newness in my Oneness. :-D
So anyway, I just wanted to share...
*peace and blessings*
so my day ended with an invitation from a good friend of mine to experience a type of sisterhood meeting at her church Hillside International Truth Center. It's a meditation meeting, allowing those in attendance to close off the world for a few moments and quiet the noise in your head and become one with yourself. To be able to think clearly...and for the first time in a looooong time i was able to talk myself out of hearing the noise. I jokingly speak of having a reset button because I want to start some things over in my life BUT as we know there is no such button...however if you continue to live and go forward, you can enhance and correct some things. it's just that simple. Oh man it was a beautiful thing! And I was thinking back to how it normally is with like a revival service, where you experience this short-lived euphoria but this is feeling different. Apparently people have these meditation services throughout the city and I'm thinking I need to find and join one. There's no $$ involved, it's just people who care about your soul/spirit and your relationship with God.
I'm so glad I went, it has created some newness in my Oneness. :-D
So anyway, I just wanted to share...
*peace and blessings*
Monday, August 27, 2012
After the praise dance...
Hello World...
Well it's Monday and I'm still drawing breath. As the old folks say my bed wasn't my cooling board and I appreciate that but still have some anxious thoughts. I talked about Tradewinds in my last post (Sunday aug 26th) and went to a church service where the two ministers that got up and spoke a Word pretty much about what I'm dealing with behind my closed doors. I never take events like that for granted or as coincidence. Yes there a billion people in the world and we all deal with the same issues behind closed doors, even though we try not to share it, but I just tend to take stuff seriously, especially if i've been praying about it.
The first thing was: practical application of the Word. I'd just talked about that in my blog and one of the ministers spoke on it in the same area I was thinking and touching on. so that was confirmation that God still hears me in my prayers.
The second topic came when the Pastor got up for his sermon. He was finishing a segment on a woman's role in her marriage. and one thing he stepped on my bunion with was - the woman is the manager of the relationship...she must know how to manage the household effectively and efficiently.
As a single woman, I must be, should have been learning how to manage my household effectively and efficiently. I do recall a time period in my life where that was true. My budget was tight and my credit was good. At some point that quit being my life truth and i've been a bad manager ever since. So i've been a bad manager longer that i've been a good manager. (sadness) A successful man does not want a bad manager for a wife, therefore i'm not ready to be in anybody's relationship. (truth and sadness)
Now after the praise dance and you've received the Word and allowed your emotions to well up and overflow and all of the "thank god, thank jesus, hallelujah" exclamations have stopped you have to deal with your man in the mirror. What do you do after the praise dance? You allow yourself to be human for about 3 to 5 seconds and be angry or sad or whatever and then you start looking for solutions. Positive solutions. How did it effect me you ask? Well i'm glad you asked. I'm not ashamed. I was pissed, sad, angry for not fixing what i already knew was an issue. And at 40 with no kids and just now making a transition into what i really want to do in life, that information (which i already knew) being brought up again was a splash of cold water to bring me back to reality. The reality that you can't roll around living paycheck to paycheck all your life and have a happy, no stress life. It's so many other things that happen in life that give you stress; why bring stress on yourself? So after i got thru being mad..I realized that I'd already started turning stuff around. It's amazing how you lose sight of the positive stuff as long as you stay mad at the negative. LOL!! You get tunnel vision on the wrong stuff.
Anyway...after the praise dance for that Sunday or Wednesday or whenever you have your emotional spill over...you figure out a new plan and you keep dancing as you Praise Him in advance!! *BOOM*
*peace and blessings*
Well it's Monday and I'm still drawing breath. As the old folks say my bed wasn't my cooling board and I appreciate that but still have some anxious thoughts. I talked about Tradewinds in my last post (Sunday aug 26th) and went to a church service where the two ministers that got up and spoke a Word pretty much about what I'm dealing with behind my closed doors. I never take events like that for granted or as coincidence. Yes there a billion people in the world and we all deal with the same issues behind closed doors, even though we try not to share it, but I just tend to take stuff seriously, especially if i've been praying about it.
The first thing was: practical application of the Word. I'd just talked about that in my blog and one of the ministers spoke on it in the same area I was thinking and touching on. so that was confirmation that God still hears me in my prayers.
The second topic came when the Pastor got up for his sermon. He was finishing a segment on a woman's role in her marriage. and one thing he stepped on my bunion with was - the woman is the manager of the relationship...she must know how to manage the household effectively and efficiently.
As a single woman, I must be, should have been learning how to manage my household effectively and efficiently. I do recall a time period in my life where that was true. My budget was tight and my credit was good. At some point that quit being my life truth and i've been a bad manager ever since. So i've been a bad manager longer that i've been a good manager. (sadness) A successful man does not want a bad manager for a wife, therefore i'm not ready to be in anybody's relationship. (truth and sadness)
Now after the praise dance and you've received the Word and allowed your emotions to well up and overflow and all of the "thank god, thank jesus, hallelujah" exclamations have stopped you have to deal with your man in the mirror. What do you do after the praise dance? You allow yourself to be human for about 3 to 5 seconds and be angry or sad or whatever and then you start looking for solutions. Positive solutions. How did it effect me you ask? Well i'm glad you asked. I'm not ashamed. I was pissed, sad, angry for not fixing what i already knew was an issue. And at 40 with no kids and just now making a transition into what i really want to do in life, that information (which i already knew) being brought up again was a splash of cold water to bring me back to reality. The reality that you can't roll around living paycheck to paycheck all your life and have a happy, no stress life. It's so many other things that happen in life that give you stress; why bring stress on yourself? So after i got thru being mad..I realized that I'd already started turning stuff around. It's amazing how you lose sight of the positive stuff as long as you stay mad at the negative. LOL!! You get tunnel vision on the wrong stuff.
Anyway...after the praise dance for that Sunday or Wednesday or whenever you have your emotional spill over...you figure out a new plan and you keep dancing as you Praise Him in advance!! *BOOM*
*peace and blessings*
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Tradewinds of our times...
Hello World...
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I woke up this morning with a song in my head that is on repeat which is a good thing..it's a great song, great artist, great lyrics. The words definitely fit my outlook on life, describes a lot of what i'm looking at, feeling like.
Here i stand looking, looking around me
While all around me what do I see
unhappy faces, behind a painted smile
heartache and lonliness dressed in modern style
unhappy people living in sin and shame
reflections of myself, life is no easy game
we're caught in the tradewinds..the tradewinds of our time....
Thank you to Randy Crawford for recording this one. I think several other artists recorded it but Randy had my attention. These words stuck in my brain back in the 80s and from time to time when I need to calm down and meditate this is one of the artists I can listen to for inspiration. I'm not really sure what my content is supposed to be today, maybe just to talk something out and maybe somebody somewhere reading this is needing to talk out the same thing. Who knows *kanye shrug*.
Those lyrics above and the first song playing in your theme music describes what i've been dealing with all my life. Seems like i've never fit in anywhere i think from birth i've felt like an outcast. Born to two college students and left by myself (for the most part) to figure life out and even though i had no true teachers for certain things, when i didn't figure stuff out, i'd get ridiculed and/or made fun of...by adults...really? oh don't get it twisted, it's very easy to be in a HUGE family/group and feel lonely. How does one grow into a confident adult when your foundation is laced with ridicule? And then at school to be ridiculed because you didn't look like every other girl...yep i was the tall, skinny (90 pounds wet), dark skinned girl, the only thing that saved me was my talent (singing, playing piano) and the fact that was related to all of Brenham in some sort of way. It was in high school that I learned to develop walls and tough skin. You've got to learn to laugh it off when someone makes fun of you because your mother takes you to Houston (the city) to get your hair braided and nobody in your small town is wearing their hair like that. So you get made fun of for the fact that in the winter time, instead of a regular coat everybody else is wearing in the winter, you got Ugg boots with fur, a leather pant suit and floor length rabbit fur to keep you warm...i should mention this was in the 80s. Yep I was different...how dare i be different...and if i'd just stuck with my stubborness of being different i'd be in a whole different world right now. but at some point, my will broke and became somewhat like everybody else...well i tried to be. It was at this point that i realized i'm not like everybody else...at all.
The tradewinds of my life right now is that i'm still trying to fit a square peg into a circle. I'm slowly inching myself over to the right square opening but at this age, I'm feeling a tad vexed and upset at myself because I took so freakin' long to do it. I worked with one of my fave ATL bands last night Gurufish ..working the merch table and when i got home last night, I had added $$ to my pocket versus spending $$ on drinks or admission or whatever. and i'm thinking this morning, you know that's exactly what i'm supposed to be doing...adding $$ to my pockets at the end of the night versus spending $$..this just adds to the motivation to keep going in the route i'm going..i'm talking about school/sound engineering or wherever this degree takes me. i'm connected to toooooooo many industry/entertainment/musician people as true friends to not be about to do some damage in my old age. one thing that saddens me is that i've let my internal confusion take too much time and i won't get to be a mommy. i didn't think it would effect me as much as it does..but it does. yep my first marriage was a bust and i've seen a lot of infidelity but the deepest part of me still believes in one love, being the apple of "his" eye, one family unit versus the new baby mama/daddy thing that's happening. Not sure what's going to happen there but that's too emotional to deal with right now.
Wow i'm sharing some stuff right now...whomever is need of this let me close out by saying..don't let life drag you down...don't let your circumstances, your current circumstances drag you down and make you count yourself out of the game of life. Keep fighting, keep your passion alive, do it..do NOT leave this earth without experiencing what it's like to do your thing! And don't EVER tell yourself you're not good enough, that in itself will knock you out of the running when opportunity comes up. You'll talk your own self out of the game...DON'T do it!! Stay in there...God will send you friends that are there for you to keep you uplifted..listen to them and store what they tell you in your spiritual mind/ear. When you need it, it'll come back and even though i don't have one here in the "A"..find a ministry that can be your foundation in the Word. Find a place that will show you how to read, study and apply those scriptures to your life. That's really what God wants us to do anyway..learn and apply. all of the other pomp and circumstance is fluff and should be ignored. (but that's a WHOLE nother story)
So......i need to go get dressed now..i've told myself we are going to church today and i will not do a self-sabotage move and be late. So thank you for traveling with me..and remember to stay motivated and cherish the love you have, every moment as long as you shall live...
*peace and blessings*
*click here for your theme music*
I woke up this morning with a song in my head that is on repeat which is a good thing..it's a great song, great artist, great lyrics. The words definitely fit my outlook on life, describes a lot of what i'm looking at, feeling like.
Here i stand looking, looking around me
While all around me what do I see
unhappy faces, behind a painted smile
heartache and lonliness dressed in modern style
unhappy people living in sin and shame
reflections of myself, life is no easy game
we're caught in the tradewinds..the tradewinds of our time....
Thank you to Randy Crawford for recording this one. I think several other artists recorded it but Randy had my attention. These words stuck in my brain back in the 80s and from time to time when I need to calm down and meditate this is one of the artists I can listen to for inspiration. I'm not really sure what my content is supposed to be today, maybe just to talk something out and maybe somebody somewhere reading this is needing to talk out the same thing. Who knows *kanye shrug*.
Those lyrics above and the first song playing in your theme music describes what i've been dealing with all my life. Seems like i've never fit in anywhere i think from birth i've felt like an outcast. Born to two college students and left by myself (for the most part) to figure life out and even though i had no true teachers for certain things, when i didn't figure stuff out, i'd get ridiculed and/or made fun of...by adults...really? oh don't get it twisted, it's very easy to be in a HUGE family/group and feel lonely. How does one grow into a confident adult when your foundation is laced with ridicule? And then at school to be ridiculed because you didn't look like every other girl...yep i was the tall, skinny (90 pounds wet), dark skinned girl, the only thing that saved me was my talent (singing, playing piano) and the fact that was related to all of Brenham in some sort of way. It was in high school that I learned to develop walls and tough skin. You've got to learn to laugh it off when someone makes fun of you because your mother takes you to Houston (the city) to get your hair braided and nobody in your small town is wearing their hair like that. So you get made fun of for the fact that in the winter time, instead of a regular coat everybody else is wearing in the winter, you got Ugg boots with fur, a leather pant suit and floor length rabbit fur to keep you warm...i should mention this was in the 80s. Yep I was different...how dare i be different...and if i'd just stuck with my stubborness of being different i'd be in a whole different world right now. but at some point, my will broke and became somewhat like everybody else...well i tried to be. It was at this point that i realized i'm not like everybody else...at all.
The tradewinds of my life right now is that i'm still trying to fit a square peg into a circle. I'm slowly inching myself over to the right square opening but at this age, I'm feeling a tad vexed and upset at myself because I took so freakin' long to do it. I worked with one of my fave ATL bands last night Gurufish ..working the merch table and when i got home last night, I had added $$ to my pocket versus spending $$ on drinks or admission or whatever. and i'm thinking this morning, you know that's exactly what i'm supposed to be doing...adding $$ to my pockets at the end of the night versus spending $$..this just adds to the motivation to keep going in the route i'm going..i'm talking about school/sound engineering or wherever this degree takes me. i'm connected to toooooooo many industry/entertainment/musician people as true friends to not be about to do some damage in my old age. one thing that saddens me is that i've let my internal confusion take too much time and i won't get to be a mommy. i didn't think it would effect me as much as it does..but it does. yep my first marriage was a bust and i've seen a lot of infidelity but the deepest part of me still believes in one love, being the apple of "his" eye, one family unit versus the new baby mama/daddy thing that's happening. Not sure what's going to happen there but that's too emotional to deal with right now.
Wow i'm sharing some stuff right now...whomever is need of this let me close out by saying..don't let life drag you down...don't let your circumstances, your current circumstances drag you down and make you count yourself out of the game of life. Keep fighting, keep your passion alive, do it..do NOT leave this earth without experiencing what it's like to do your thing! And don't EVER tell yourself you're not good enough, that in itself will knock you out of the running when opportunity comes up. You'll talk your own self out of the game...DON'T do it!! Stay in there...God will send you friends that are there for you to keep you uplifted..listen to them and store what they tell you in your spiritual mind/ear. When you need it, it'll come back and even though i don't have one here in the "A"..find a ministry that can be your foundation in the Word. Find a place that will show you how to read, study and apply those scriptures to your life. That's really what God wants us to do anyway..learn and apply. all of the other pomp and circumstance is fluff and should be ignored. (but that's a WHOLE nother story)
So......i need to go get dressed now..i've told myself we are going to church today and i will not do a self-sabotage move and be late. So thank you for traveling with me..and remember to stay motivated and cherish the love you have, every moment as long as you shall live...
*peace and blessings*
Sunday, August 19, 2012
If Only For a Moment....
Hello World...
my inner voice started talking to me again, so i need to get this out quickly....
*i wanna give a shout-out to my ATL homette Tina ATL..lemme tell you, if you EVER wanna get drenched in some poem erotica, if you ever want to go to a unique date night/romantic event...this is who you need to take heed to. This lady is the truth! My next installment is not all the way on her level erotica but is done in the spirit of intmacy and romance which is erotica's foundation. enjoy.*
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*peace and blessings*
(2nd installment by Nissa K)
Created/Owned by Annissa K Elliott
my inner voice started talking to me again, so i need to get this out quickly....
*i wanna give a shout-out to my ATL homette Tina ATL..lemme tell you, if you EVER wanna get drenched in some poem erotica, if you ever want to go to a unique date night/romantic event...this is who you need to take heed to. This lady is the truth! My next installment is not all the way on her level erotica but is done in the spirit of intmacy and romance which is erotica's foundation. enjoy.*
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If Only For a Moment
If only for a moment...
the feel of the strength in your arms
If only for a moment...
the light headedness that hits me as i inhale your cologne
If only for a moment...
the feel of the light kisses on my neck and shoulders
If only for a moment...
the support felt by knowing you are in my corner
If only for a moment...
the warm fuzzies felt just by your presence
If only for a moment...
the school girl giddiness I feel by your voice on the other line
If only for a moment...
the way my whole body responds to you
As a woman...any woman out there can testify...i'd like to experience all of that even if only for a moment.
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*peace and blessings*
(2nd installment by Nissa K)
Created/Owned by Annissa K Elliott
Saturday, August 18, 2012
What I wouldn't do....
Hello World....
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My eyes were closed by my internal voice was like "hey we up..open the eyes..." so at 6am, i was up. LOL! And the theme music you are jammin' to was playing in my mind so I started thinking about the lyrics. Basically the song is speaking about people falling in love, singers singing about love versus people just making $$. It's true love is not spread throughout all genres like it used to be. And the version presented to the newer generations is so warped, it's scary. Being tatted up, speaking incorrectly, being a baby mama or a fiancee for 20 years but never a wife with multiple kids, being called a bitch or a whore, being hit upside the head, doing drugs, wearing a bunch of jewelry all in the name of money and being a stripper...like this is what love is for these kids and they have bringing babies into this. When you sit there a smoke weed with your kid in the room, your kid is also smoking weed, it's called contact smoke. "HELLO!!!" So don't be surprised when your kid is pointed out as having behavioral issues later in life..you started it!
But I digress, life used to be about being happy, being loved, being a wife/husband, raising a family. Now...not so much. What I wouldn't do to somehow go back to that feeling...it's bananas! There are artists out there trying to do things to talk to the kids to show 'em a better path but for some reason the evil side seems to be winning. But maybe not. Anyway...my original idea for this post for on a romantic level but it has morphed into something else. LOL! enjoy this emotional ride with me...i'm almost done.
So I would like to know what it feels like to be in love and be the apple in some guy's eye. 3 things I need for him to do, besides us needing to be compatible, I need him to - provide, protect, cherish...those three things cover a whole gambit of things in a relationship. It's nice to be considered a man's ultimate treasure/gift. It's beautiful to know the feeling of being loved...the smell of his cologne..the strength of his arms as they wrap around you....mmph! sorry i zoned out for a hot second. HA!! but it is a beautiful thang! LOL...anyway...enjoy your weekend. If you are in the ATL there a few big thangs happening this weekend so have fun. I was supposed to be in Texas celebrating with my family this weekend but some thangs fell thru so i'm in the "A". But it is what it is..............................................................................
*Enjoy life.....peace and blessings*
*click here for your theme music*
My eyes were closed by my internal voice was like "hey we up..open the eyes..." so at 6am, i was up. LOL! And the theme music you are jammin' to was playing in my mind so I started thinking about the lyrics. Basically the song is speaking about people falling in love, singers singing about love versus people just making $$. It's true love is not spread throughout all genres like it used to be. And the version presented to the newer generations is so warped, it's scary. Being tatted up, speaking incorrectly, being a baby mama or a fiancee for 20 years but never a wife with multiple kids, being called a bitch or a whore, being hit upside the head, doing drugs, wearing a bunch of jewelry all in the name of money and being a stripper...like this is what love is for these kids and they have bringing babies into this. When you sit there a smoke weed with your kid in the room, your kid is also smoking weed, it's called contact smoke. "HELLO!!!" So don't be surprised when your kid is pointed out as having behavioral issues later in life..you started it!
But I digress, life used to be about being happy, being loved, being a wife/husband, raising a family. Now...not so much. What I wouldn't do to somehow go back to that feeling...it's bananas! There are artists out there trying to do things to talk to the kids to show 'em a better path but for some reason the evil side seems to be winning. But maybe not. Anyway...my original idea for this post for on a romantic level but it has morphed into something else. LOL! enjoy this emotional ride with me...i'm almost done.
So I would like to know what it feels like to be in love and be the apple in some guy's eye. 3 things I need for him to do, besides us needing to be compatible, I need him to - provide, protect, cherish...those three things cover a whole gambit of things in a relationship. It's nice to be considered a man's ultimate treasure/gift. It's beautiful to know the feeling of being loved...the smell of his cologne..the strength of his arms as they wrap around you....mmph! sorry i zoned out for a hot second. HA!! but it is a beautiful thang! LOL...anyway...enjoy your weekend. If you are in the ATL there a few big thangs happening this weekend so have fun. I was supposed to be in Texas celebrating with my family this weekend but some thangs fell thru so i'm in the "A". But it is what it is..............................................................................
*Enjoy life.....peace and blessings*
Friday, August 17, 2012
Am I Ugly?
Am I ugly to you? Because weave is not flowing from my head, held on by some glue or some thread?
You seem to think a black woman like me, should be ashamed of my natural crown because it's kinky.
Am I ugly to you? Would you prefer I go get a relaxer? You see the problem with that is that I'll have no hair after.
You see the one thing that you don't seem to understand, is that I'd rather be single with a head full of healthy hair than bald with relaxer burns and a man.
Am I ugly to you? Because you feel like hawaiian silky is better? It seems that you are more concerned with aesthetics than making our people's minds better.
You see a long time ago slave masters put us against each other by making their own mixed kids, putting them in the house and telling them they were better people, telling them that the ones with the kinky hair outside were not their equal.
And it's sad to say that it worked because as a people we haven't been the same sense. Instead of embracing our uniqueness we strive to copy others. Not realizing that an entire people kill themselves daily with plastic surgeries to look like us.
Am I ugly to you? Because I don't do what everyone else does? Well that's kinda good to hear because I like being different and going my own course.
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see...how 'bout you fix your own shit and stop taking it out on me!
(created/owned By Nissa K)
*The End*
~the first poetic installment of hello world~
You seem to think a black woman like me, should be ashamed of my natural crown because it's kinky.
Am I ugly to you? Would you prefer I go get a relaxer? You see the problem with that is that I'll have no hair after.
You see the one thing that you don't seem to understand, is that I'd rather be single with a head full of healthy hair than bald with relaxer burns and a man.
Am I ugly to you? Because you feel like hawaiian silky is better? It seems that you are more concerned with aesthetics than making our people's minds better.
You see a long time ago slave masters put us against each other by making their own mixed kids, putting them in the house and telling them they were better people, telling them that the ones with the kinky hair outside were not their equal.
And it's sad to say that it worked because as a people we haven't been the same sense. Instead of embracing our uniqueness we strive to copy others. Not realizing that an entire people kill themselves daily with plastic surgeries to look like us.
Am I ugly to you? Because I don't do what everyone else does? Well that's kinda good to hear because I like being different and going my own course.
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see...how 'bout you fix your own shit and stop taking it out on me!
(created/owned By Nissa K)
*The End*
~the first poetic installment of hello world~
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Follow The Signs...
Hello World...
This past week and weekend have been somewhat emotional on a very very very different level! OH yes, i'm sorry i'm almost forgot about your theme music click here and enjoy!
ok back to the blog..this week has been very emotional on a whole different level for me. I have had some recent interesting events to happen, very sudden, very powerful. Almost like God showing me the picture of the fork in the road and saying "you see your blessings happening right now, follow the path from this incident and you'll go left but if you follow this path over here you'll go right" and you know the Word speaks about wanting to do right but having the thoughts to do wrong in several places but the NIV version of Galatians 5:17 hit me best "For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want."
My spiritual background is that I was raised in a Christian household, AME (Afr Methodist Episcopal) church. My family has other spiritual giftings intertwined in our DNA that causes one to have a close link to God to understand some of the things we "know", can see and feel. We have to humble ourselves and make sure to bring things to people's attention without seeming arrogant or a know-it-all. Sometimes the opposition is so strong, it will stop us or damage us to the point of us seeing giving up as the easiest solution but I know for a fact that if you keep alert and follow the signs, your positive solution will show up! If you keep waking up, the solution will come along.
I have been in the great City of Atlanta for 8 years and i've been connected to positive, spiritual beings. It's crazy! All connected somehow to part two of Nissa K! For those that don't me, I started out early in life playing piano (age 3) and singing. My immediate talent for hearing harmonies didn't become something I was aware of until i was in my late teens and still singing in church choirs. You gave me the melody and I gave you everything else immediately. However, with no real musical mentors to guide me I had no idea what to do with this talent. So I kept on in life and felt a little lost and allowed life to steer me off course and have just now come back on the path about 20 years later and at this point I have continuously asked God to show me the big picture and He is keeping me. My church folks know what i mean by that. My biggest part and problem is my Word life has fallen off. There was a time I continuously stayed in my bible and my gift of "knowing" was strong. I could look at a person and immediately tell them something that they needed to hear...i found out later because they had been praying on it or it was just something in their spirit that they needed to hear. As my discipline slipped there, it has effected my life in general and the forces i'm fighting now are powerful but God..... Part two of Nissa K has to do with sound engineering. With this late transition and no practical applications under my belt..part of me just wants to jump into it but another part of me is overwhelmed because it's a lot of information. But I have a feeling that as soon as I submerge myself in it, it will come naturally. There was a time in my young life that I made it a point to learn something to the point of mastery because that's the standard I carried myself on...at some point my spirit was damaged and I began to give up. Now comes the time for mediocrity to be a thing of the past.
There is an Atlanta musician that I have become acquainted with that has turned his journey from young boy playing drums to a full fledged non-profit organization that helps youngsters learn the music business and also hands out scholarships to help them to the next level. I'm sure you know who I"m talking about. One of my good friends here that met thru another friend (these connections are crazy) took me to one of his annual birthday gatherings because all of my friends know how I like to celebrate my birthday and my sign (Aries stand up!) and this guy brings together real musicians and "sangers" to bring his fans real music. Well once I got connected on social network I started following this young man and his ministry is pow-er-ful! He and his other half (or as we say better half..LOL) are a grinding team. Ba-bay any event that this guy is a part of his wife is right there doing whatever needs to be done, street team, ticket seller whatever. Team J Fly is what i'm talking about. He also does an annual free (yep free) music festival in his hometown of Waycross, Ga..always the last weekend of September, this year 9-22-12 is the date to save. He has a bus that travels from Atlanta or you can drive your own car (about 3 hours) and get a room and chill-ax! Yeah so I nickname all of my fellow Aries folks "Aries" because we are very proud of our sign! LOL! (Rams stand up!) So this is one of my Aries friends and another person connected to what will be my part 2. We had a conversation recently and he found out i had NOT purchased his CD Hypnotic...i felt about 2 inches high and he didn't even talk bad to me. People work hard and deserve true support. Therefore, i went to iTunes today to find it to purchase and ended up also finding two podcasts from a jazz talk radio on-line show where J had been interviewed twice and he got a chance to give his background and tell the world why he was doing what he was doing. And by him following his dreams and enhancing his talents, he can't stop working even if he wanted to. People refer him to any and everybody that needs a drummer. Word of mouth is a powerful thang! I don't even know if he's keeping a list of the artists he's working with somewhere because listening to interviews it goes from Bootsie Collins to Kirk Franklin to Rick Ross to R. kelly to Kelly Price to Peabo Bryson...do you see the genre differences in those few names? I didn't even name the jazz artists...of which there are many! So anyway besides a shameless Aries plug for my brudda, the reason I brought this guy up is because I found out he doesn't and has never had a drink or smoke of any mood altering substances...NEVER. Very surprising for a human period (in my mind) but also for someone in the entertainment business. And I know I am a libation lover and recently hookah (haven't lit mine up yet) mainly because it makes me temporarily forget my troubles and enjoy the moment. This dude says well when i'm dealing with something that troubles me, I just pray and/or read a scripture in the bible that settles my spirit down. (what?) again I felt real reminded of my spiritual background and where I'd allowed myself to go. and i told him that shows that you are very comfortable in your skin and it immediately reminded me that apparently I am not...comfortable in my own skin. Not that an occasional glass of wine is horrible but just the fact that this guy is THAT disciplined in life just really made me re-think some of my choices. And then as I was watching the Harry Potter marathon, one of the characters had a line that spoke volumes to me. Professor Dumbeldorf told Harry Potter "it's not our abilities that create who we are but our choices" or something to that effect and that just rang loud to me in my current walk.
Two things I need to...no three things I need to immediately do:
The purpose of today's entry is to encourage those out there that are going through trials..ask God to show you the big picture and ask him to remind you who He is and whose You are and He will! I'm a living witness. And then when he shows you...Follow The Signs! Follow the signs to greatness! You'll feel yourself being pulled and the right decisions will come to you. Now I will tell you that sometimes you are put in situations that will test you immediately, especially if you've allowed yourself to become attached to an act or habit that is no good for you. Pray your way out of those situations and ask God to move you out of the way of that type of stuff and THEN stop going back to them. Feeling good is not always the main objective. Enhancing your gifts and learning should be your main objective at all times! If you are in a situation and you are NOT enhancing your gifts then you need to get out of it! Period.
So Follow The Signs!
*peace and blessings*
This past week and weekend have been somewhat emotional on a very very very different level! OH yes, i'm sorry i'm almost forgot about your theme music click here and enjoy!
ok back to the blog..this week has been very emotional on a whole different level for me. I have had some recent interesting events to happen, very sudden, very powerful. Almost like God showing me the picture of the fork in the road and saying "you see your blessings happening right now, follow the path from this incident and you'll go left but if you follow this path over here you'll go right" and you know the Word speaks about wanting to do right but having the thoughts to do wrong in several places but the NIV version of Galatians 5:17 hit me best "For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want."
My spiritual background is that I was raised in a Christian household, AME (Afr Methodist Episcopal) church. My family has other spiritual giftings intertwined in our DNA that causes one to have a close link to God to understand some of the things we "know", can see and feel. We have to humble ourselves and make sure to bring things to people's attention without seeming arrogant or a know-it-all. Sometimes the opposition is so strong, it will stop us or damage us to the point of us seeing giving up as the easiest solution but I know for a fact that if you keep alert and follow the signs, your positive solution will show up! If you keep waking up, the solution will come along.
I have been in the great City of Atlanta for 8 years and i've been connected to positive, spiritual beings. It's crazy! All connected somehow to part two of Nissa K! For those that don't me, I started out early in life playing piano (age 3) and singing. My immediate talent for hearing harmonies didn't become something I was aware of until i was in my late teens and still singing in church choirs. You gave me the melody and I gave you everything else immediately. However, with no real musical mentors to guide me I had no idea what to do with this talent. So I kept on in life and felt a little lost and allowed life to steer me off course and have just now come back on the path about 20 years later and at this point I have continuously asked God to show me the big picture and He is keeping me. My church folks know what i mean by that. My biggest part and problem is my Word life has fallen off. There was a time I continuously stayed in my bible and my gift of "knowing" was strong. I could look at a person and immediately tell them something that they needed to hear...i found out later because they had been praying on it or it was just something in their spirit that they needed to hear. As my discipline slipped there, it has effected my life in general and the forces i'm fighting now are powerful but God..... Part two of Nissa K has to do with sound engineering. With this late transition and no practical applications under my belt..part of me just wants to jump into it but another part of me is overwhelmed because it's a lot of information. But I have a feeling that as soon as I submerge myself in it, it will come naturally. There was a time in my young life that I made it a point to learn something to the point of mastery because that's the standard I carried myself on...at some point my spirit was damaged and I began to give up. Now comes the time for mediocrity to be a thing of the past.
There is an Atlanta musician that I have become acquainted with that has turned his journey from young boy playing drums to a full fledged non-profit organization that helps youngsters learn the music business and also hands out scholarships to help them to the next level. I'm sure you know who I"m talking about. One of my good friends here that met thru another friend (these connections are crazy) took me to one of his annual birthday gatherings because all of my friends know how I like to celebrate my birthday and my sign (Aries stand up!) and this guy brings together real musicians and "sangers" to bring his fans real music. Well once I got connected on social network I started following this young man and his ministry is pow-er-ful! He and his other half (or as we say better half..LOL) are a grinding team. Ba-bay any event that this guy is a part of his wife is right there doing whatever needs to be done, street team, ticket seller whatever. Team J Fly is what i'm talking about. He also does an annual free (yep free) music festival in his hometown of Waycross, Ga..always the last weekend of September, this year 9-22-12 is the date to save. He has a bus that travels from Atlanta or you can drive your own car (about 3 hours) and get a room and chill-ax! Yeah so I nickname all of my fellow Aries folks "Aries" because we are very proud of our sign! LOL! (Rams stand up!) So this is one of my Aries friends and another person connected to what will be my part 2. We had a conversation recently and he found out i had NOT purchased his CD Hypnotic...i felt about 2 inches high and he didn't even talk bad to me. People work hard and deserve true support. Therefore, i went to iTunes today to find it to purchase and ended up also finding two podcasts from a jazz talk radio on-line show where J had been interviewed twice and he got a chance to give his background and tell the world why he was doing what he was doing. And by him following his dreams and enhancing his talents, he can't stop working even if he wanted to. People refer him to any and everybody that needs a drummer. Word of mouth is a powerful thang! I don't even know if he's keeping a list of the artists he's working with somewhere because listening to interviews it goes from Bootsie Collins to Kirk Franklin to Rick Ross to R. kelly to Kelly Price to Peabo Bryson...do you see the genre differences in those few names? I didn't even name the jazz artists...of which there are many! So anyway besides a shameless Aries plug for my brudda, the reason I brought this guy up is because I found out he doesn't and has never had a drink or smoke of any mood altering substances...NEVER. Very surprising for a human period (in my mind) but also for someone in the entertainment business. And I know I am a libation lover and recently hookah (haven't lit mine up yet) mainly because it makes me temporarily forget my troubles and enjoy the moment. This dude says well when i'm dealing with something that troubles me, I just pray and/or read a scripture in the bible that settles my spirit down. (what?) again I felt real reminded of my spiritual background and where I'd allowed myself to go. and i told him that shows that you are very comfortable in your skin and it immediately reminded me that apparently I am not...comfortable in my own skin. Not that an occasional glass of wine is horrible but just the fact that this guy is THAT disciplined in life just really made me re-think some of my choices. And then as I was watching the Harry Potter marathon, one of the characters had a line that spoke volumes to me. Professor Dumbeldorf told Harry Potter "it's not our abilities that create who we are but our choices" or something to that effect and that just rang loud to me in my current walk.
Two things I need to...no three things I need to immediately do:
- Self-esteem/character building
- Read and/or listen to the Word on a weekly (probably daily) basis
- Remove self-doubt from my mental rolodex
The purpose of today's entry is to encourage those out there that are going through trials..ask God to show you the big picture and ask him to remind you who He is and whose You are and He will! I'm a living witness. And then when he shows you...Follow The Signs! Follow the signs to greatness! You'll feel yourself being pulled and the right decisions will come to you. Now I will tell you that sometimes you are put in situations that will test you immediately, especially if you've allowed yourself to become attached to an act or habit that is no good for you. Pray your way out of those situations and ask God to move you out of the way of that type of stuff and THEN stop going back to them. Feeling good is not always the main objective. Enhancing your gifts and learning should be your main objective at all times! If you are in a situation and you are NOT enhancing your gifts then you need to get out of it! Period.
So Follow The Signs!
*peace and blessings*
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
There comes a time in every [wo]man's life...
Hello World.....
There comes a time in everybody's life that he/she knows when to sit yo azz down! (click here for theme music) You've got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run...
And after tonight, I shall continue to run like Forrest Gump shaking off his shackles! I am going to stick with my current plan and concentrate on my new promotion at work and school and getting some connections in the sound engineering world so I can transition smoothly. So I'll be zooming alright and concentrating on the right thangs!
I encourage each and everyone of you to look at your current situation, measure it by peace of mind versus the "piece" you have in mind and ask yourself "am i happy?". If your instant reaction isn't a wicked smile and a resounding "YES!" then you may need to re-think your situation and work on fixing what isn't making you happy. Bottomline, communicate with those around you to make it right, don't make assumptions and make them read your mind. Nobody knows what you are thinking but YOU! And don't play "read between the lines" either, tell people what is really, truly on your mind.
There comes a time in every [wo]man's life that they demand to be happy!
Everyone stay true, stay positive and stay optimistic!! you can win as long as you keep your head to the sky..be optimistic
*peace and blessings*
There comes a time in everybody's life that he/she knows when to sit yo azz down! (click here for theme music) You've got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run...
And after tonight, I shall continue to run like Forrest Gump shaking off his shackles! I am going to stick with my current plan and concentrate on my new promotion at work and school and getting some connections in the sound engineering world so I can transition smoothly. So I'll be zooming alright and concentrating on the right thangs!
I encourage each and everyone of you to look at your current situation, measure it by peace of mind versus the "piece" you have in mind and ask yourself "am i happy?". If your instant reaction isn't a wicked smile and a resounding "YES!" then you may need to re-think your situation and work on fixing what isn't making you happy. Bottomline, communicate with those around you to make it right, don't make assumptions and make them read your mind. Nobody knows what you are thinking but YOU! And don't play "read between the lines" either, tell people what is really, truly on your mind.
There comes a time in every [wo]man's life that they demand to be happy!
Everyone stay true, stay positive and stay optimistic!! you can win as long as you keep your head to the sky..be optimistic
*peace and blessings*
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
One Day at a time......
Hello World....
(side note: watching Vh1's Hollywood Exes and all this talk of crab cakes and lobster has me hungry! Closest thing in my kitchen to seafood right now is tunafish...so i'm eating me a tunafish sammich! LOL)
So I have been just taking everything one day at a time (sweet Jesus). My old school gospel folks know that song. I saw an article the other day of an athlete that had been injured and was recovering and training and he pulled up in front of his old high school and killed himself. (sigh) I really hate when i hear stories like that mainly because I feel like as long as you stay here one more day a solution will appear. The key is to let your "friends" know the problem OR heck just contact your bill collectors and work something out. Whatever the problem is it can be solved. One day at a time.
So in that same thought. I've dealt with some self-esteem issues and everytime i say or type that word I think about Katt Williams who discusses "esteem of you mu*****kn self" HA!! He's a little harsh BUT he's so right! self-esteem is something controlled ultimately by the individual. You can't let an outside source change you. So I've been getting my head right in that area lately. Especially in the love/romance department..it's amazing how that first man, first love of your life, your father can either make or break you. A-freakin'-mazin! It makes me understand a lot but it also irritates me...especially when your first love ignores you. It trains you to scramble for the attention of future potential suitors and try harder when they ignore you. Not a good thing. That area should only be reserved for those that want to protect and provide and love, no other types should be permitted. So I encourage EVERYone to continue to take life one day at a time. Don't rush to judgement or a decision. Take the time to sleep on it. So anyway yesterday a lot of stuff just rushed to a boil for me and I was feeling real real crazy, I thank God for the real "Friends" i have in my life that i can vent/rant to and that's as far as the information goes. So at the end of the day, our Division VP comes up to me and basically tells me that i'm getting a promotion and someone is going to be hired in to do what i'm doing now. So now I got to take a big girl pill and get ready to be a trainer/manager and finally act 40. Yeah chic you 40 and you need to be doing some stuff differently. (that's me talking to myself) See had I taken a different route I would've never seen the end of the day and I would've missed the job promotion. More funds, at a time when i'm getting my budget together to get ready to do some other stuff in another year. God truly works in mysterious ways. Love it!
Anyway..enjoy your life, your day, your week, your year...enjoy everything one day at a time!
*peace and blessings*
(side note: watching Vh1's Hollywood Exes and all this talk of crab cakes and lobster has me hungry! Closest thing in my kitchen to seafood right now is tunafish...so i'm eating me a tunafish sammich! LOL)
So I have been just taking everything one day at a time (sweet Jesus). My old school gospel folks know that song. I saw an article the other day of an athlete that had been injured and was recovering and training and he pulled up in front of his old high school and killed himself. (sigh) I really hate when i hear stories like that mainly because I feel like as long as you stay here one more day a solution will appear. The key is to let your "friends" know the problem OR heck just contact your bill collectors and work something out. Whatever the problem is it can be solved. One day at a time.
So in that same thought. I've dealt with some self-esteem issues and everytime i say or type that word I think about Katt Williams who discusses "esteem of you mu*****kn self" HA!! He's a little harsh BUT he's so right! self-esteem is something controlled ultimately by the individual. You can't let an outside source change you. So I've been getting my head right in that area lately. Especially in the love/romance department..it's amazing how that first man, first love of your life, your father can either make or break you. A-freakin'-mazin! It makes me understand a lot but it also irritates me...especially when your first love ignores you. It trains you to scramble for the attention of future potential suitors and try harder when they ignore you. Not a good thing. That area should only be reserved for those that want to protect and provide and love, no other types should be permitted. So I encourage EVERYone to continue to take life one day at a time. Don't rush to judgement or a decision. Take the time to sleep on it. So anyway yesterday a lot of stuff just rushed to a boil for me and I was feeling real real crazy, I thank God for the real "Friends" i have in my life that i can vent/rant to and that's as far as the information goes. So at the end of the day, our Division VP comes up to me and basically tells me that i'm getting a promotion and someone is going to be hired in to do what i'm doing now. So now I got to take a big girl pill and get ready to be a trainer/manager and finally act 40. Yeah chic you 40 and you need to be doing some stuff differently. (that's me talking to myself) See had I taken a different route I would've never seen the end of the day and I would've missed the job promotion. More funds, at a time when i'm getting my budget together to get ready to do some other stuff in another year. God truly works in mysterious ways. Love it!
Anyway..enjoy your life, your day, your week, your year...enjoy everything one day at a time!
*peace and blessings*
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