I'm THAT girl....

Hello World...

The content of this blog post carried me through may dreams last night...well gave me at least an idea.  I've been blessed to experience some wonderful times and have created some memories that will forever bring a sly smile to my lips. (Click here to jam with me while you read...) and to put you in my mindset.

It started me to thinking MORE about the type of guy that would connect and vibe with me.  So I started thinking about what type of person am I?  Folks ask "so what's your type" all the time but it really depends on what energy YOU are giving out.  So I started to recall my upbringing.  I'm a country girl from a small Texas German town....hmmmm yes let that marinate.  I grew up on ALL music genres I LOVE it all.  I got baptized in the music world at an early age (age 3 to be exact, thanks Granny). Thanks to my Granny Clara Elliott, I can read music and was able to develop my ear.  My granny was the oldest of 10 and had her own brood.  My mom is one of 10 with older and younger siblings that I loved to hang out with.  Wisdom and Fun and that includes my older cousins who were more like big brothers and sisters.  So now...what was I exposed to?

• Music
• Cars
• Electronics
• Tree Climbing
• 10 acres to roam/run/ride
• Free flowing country living
• Fishing
• Some girly stuff (which I didnt really latch onto...i'm not a prissy, shopping chic)

So as a grown azz woman what type of person did I grow into?  A lady that likes to be around positive, open-minded, focused people.  When I hang around guys, my immediate thought is NOT oooo he's boyfriend material...I grew up kicking with the male people so I'm just kicking it like everybody else.  GREAT bodyguards when/if the time comes. LOL!  I'm that girl that can be cute, hang with the guys, jam to music, can talk cars and a few other hobbies and things.  I like it ALL!  Yes I'm THAT girl.  I don't need the labels, I don't need the purses.  Give me a good quality made piece of luggage or purse that will last while I roam.

Now, I've grown to appreciate my curves since they aren't going anywhere so, uuuh yeah there's that (Shamless less plug: The Lyngale Agency for models 40 & Over).  And shouts out to my trainer - Curtis Supreme Fitness for keeping me right! (if i can just stay obedient and consistent. LOL)

I'm that girl that can go camping and knows to pack the off spray, a can opener, soup, a pop-up tent will do and can do a survival stint if need be...thanks to my military training (Shouts out USAF - 610th SPS).  What type of girl am I?  One that enjoys it ALL.

NOW....what type of dude appeals to me?  One that can flow and vibe with me and keep me interested.  My Aries sign seems to reiterate that and I'm finding that same personality trait with fellow Aries!  I can't deal with someone that is looking to lock me down and stifle my creativity, hell I do enough stifling on my own with my few bouts of self-doubt I don't need assistance in that area.  I don't do controlling dudes, I've experienced that and it's not fun!  What trips me out is that there are guys out there who plot to control women due to their lack of proper upbringing.  What a scary thing!  No, what I need is someone that will inspire me to do something else.  Give me some ideas with what to do with my current skillset AND do MORE!!  I'm THAT girl and I'm waiting on THAT dude!  Oh man it's going to be SO freakin' awesome when we finally link up!  I'm excited!  Lemme tell you I've come in contact with some that are VEEEEEEEERY nice.  So I know I'm up for something great!

My words of wisdom today ladies and gents....think about who you are and what you've grown into and instead of looking for the best looking specimen and always thinking you need a certain look based on status.  You'd be REAL surprised at what REALLY works for your personality.  Get with who is GREAT for YOU!  I promise you that you will enjoy life when that puzzle piece connects.

So whoever you are SIR...I'm thinking of YOU...and I'll be enhancing my skillset and living the luxury brown until you find me...and then we can continue living and loving life together! :-D

Continue to enjoy life!!  Peace and Blessings....

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Look around and check out life..

Hello World...

It's been a minute..I haven't neglected ya, there have been a few moments that I've needed to stop and make a post but life has been moving at a fast pace these days with some interesting results.

I am more active in my meetup groups (Foodies Rock, Travel Abroad, Atlanta Food Bloggers Alliance) and yesterday I was at a meet up with Foodies Rock at Seabass Kitchen in Sandy Springs, GA.  Very interesting group of people.  It was a huge group - 30 people and we all showed I think we made the staff a little nervous.  I sat in between some of the seasoned members which held for interesting conversation.

I sat and talked to a psychologist who I probably needed to make an appointment with, an immigration lawyer who is hard of hearing and kept calling me "Anita", a recent divorcee whose hubby took her for 6 figures and screwed up her credit and she's the care giver for her parents who've been married 68 years, a married couple from new york and new england area, a recovering alcoholic who I didn't know was recovering before I ordered my Stella Artois (oops), a lady that kept me laughing who happens to be a commitment-phobe and who is now living with her guy of 6 months (good luck), an engineering student who dates around (hilarious sense of humor), another funny lady who would make any event/trip a hoot and our group moderator is British.  Bottom line: I had an interesting night coupled with good food!

Make sure to visit my site for the food review. www.annissakaye.wix.com/eatandrinkwithme

We are heading to New Orleans in September, I can't wait!!

We sit around and look at our problems and think we are doomed for life.  I know I did.  But when you take a look around and check out life, one tends to realize that their problems aren't as serious as it really seems.

I am on a whole new level of an interesting life.  It's a giant shift.  And I'm about to take a HUGE step in the right direction to do some awesome stuff.  I've run from it long enough.  I can't wait!

Word of the day....
Look around and check out life...you'll find some happiness...

Peace and Blessings!

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Happy New Year!!!

Hello World...

Happy New Year!!!

The sermon at our celebration service was "How can I get you to stretch?", Bishop preached out of Isaiah 55:15-20.    Bottom line, instead of living life in the mediocre...stretch out your faith and live life in the supernatural overflow.  Let that be your normal way of living.  I had been praying about just this! Nothing like getting confirmation!!

I ran across a sign on FB that says something about having 365 pages to write a new story. I brought it in celebrating life and then my day one started with me cooking a meal and taking it to "Mr. Man" at work and sat down and chit chatted with him at his store. :-) Yep, my first time cooking for Mr. Man...going into 8 months...he ate it all...pages 3-365 will be off tha chain!  Page 2: I launched my website last night, annissakaye.wix.com/eatandrinkwithme - honest food reviews only. I'll tell ya if I like it or not.  Service AND food. Check out the blog too - eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com.

I vow to stretch...starting with tithing with no thought....and trusting God to do the rest. that's it.  Bishop mentioned how simple it was to receive blessings when we were either broke with no job or getting paid very little. Our faith was SOOOO BIG!  Then when we get blessed, we forget and start doing stuff our way and then wonder why things go wrong.

I vow to physically stretch too.  I've actually stopped and I can FEEL the difference!  My poor muscles are all bunched up!  I will definitely do better!

No longer living in the mediocre - Not anymore...not over here!

Moral of this story:  Happy New Year - S-T-R-E-T-C-H out your faith....don't question the Universer/God/Allah...just do it!!

Peace and Blessings...

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We gon' see...

Hello World:

Well it's the new year! And i know people always come out with resolutions and stuff! Weight loss, better attitude or just the "This is my year" statement! LOL!

I always pop up with the "better attitude" statement.  I usually make a HUGE statement about what i'm going to do and be positive and a WHOLE bunch of stuff.  You don't believe me? Checkout my early 2013 posts. LOL!  Yep I was determined to be positive all throughout the year I was determined...yup but still making not so smart decisions....and by the latter part of 2013, I could tell shit might not be good at some point.

WELL guess what?  2014 is around the corner and to my naked eye, shit ain't looking good!!  Now on one side, I have recorded a couple of songs...but i didn't do ANY open mic performances. I never got the courage. At one point, i took a few voice lessons but couldn't continue them due to lack of $$.  I even did a few audio engineer type sessions but it was an hour away and so due to distance that didn't continue.  I'm sure dude will contact me again soon, I have his microphone. He let me use it to record songs. I even did a voice workshop with one of the industry's baddest vocalist, Keisha Jackson. Yup daughter of Millie Jackson and a sanging beast in her own right. Yup, I did but uuuh that didn't go anywhere.  I did join a church and celebrated a year there. I'm part of the Media Ministry.  I don't study the equipment like I need to since I'm no longer at school...oh yes, I didn't mention that part.  I found out that I no longer have student loan $$ available for school, so my journey at Ga State in the Film and Video program is definitely on pause, could be permanent pause.  I'm not sure but i DO know that I now have to start paying back loans..for me it's waaaay ahead of schedule.  On top of that the 9 to 5 that has been part of Atlanta life since my move here is starting to bore me.  Have I told 'em yet? Yep, kinda. So 2014 may also include a job change.  I'm slipping on taking care of my vehicle. And it's not even major stuff, just need to get the front brakes done and get a couple of new tires.  I did some research this last week and front & back brakes (with a mechanic putting own) plus two tires would cost me about $200.  An amount I'd easily have had I not gotten back into the payday loan rat race.  Oh I didn't mention that yet did I? Yep, like I said shit ain't looking good for me.

One good thing, I took my love for food review to a different level.  I now have a logo and food blog for my company Eat and Drink With Me.  Consumers can get to it via social media (FB, Twitter, Instagram) and I'm launching the official website 1-1-14.  I'm still working out how to get paid for reviewing food. LOL. Paying for it out of the pocket isn't going to work for too much longer.  So I do have at least one ray of sunshine in my life..something that I haven't messed up.

I often wonder if I'd had a kid by now, if that would have forced me to do better since someone else's life was depending on me.  I'm not sure. Sometimes I think "yes" sometimes "no". Since I haven't one yet (at 41) I couldn't tell ya.  I do know one thing, at 41, $$ definitely ain't like it should be. Hell my life isn't anything like I'd planned. I used to dream in color and literally I was singing with some group that I could never figure out who they were, but the harmony was so beautiful....I haven't had that type of dream in a long time!  I think it's finally too late.

You see the title of my post?  Yep that's where I am now.  I'm going to keep pushing forward but to my naked eye shit don't look good.  But because there is still a part of me that has mustard seed faith, I don't think I'll ever "end it all" and that little part of me also just keeps pushing forward.  Hope resides there.  Faith resides there.  Just that lil glimmer is there.  And that part of me is saying "We gon' see".  We gon' see, we gon' see, oh wait that's some country slang. We are going to see what happens, we are going to see what happens, we are going to see what happens.  There is still a special someone in my life but uuuuh with my decision-making skills being the way that they are, it's very possible that he'll back away slowly.  It's been 7 months and now comes the getting to see the real person part of it.  He may not like the real me...hell I may not like what I find out about him.  But as the title of my post says We gon' see!

Normally I have a positive ending to inspire YOU (the reader) but that's not going to happen this time.  I can tell you Happy Kwanzaa and that today's celebration point is:

Ujamaa (Cooperative Economics): To build and maintain our own stores, shops, and other businesses and to profit from them together.

Hmmmmm maybe I did just uplift.  If not you, definitely myself.  I am going to try my damndest to keep it together for 2014.  To make the right decisions and be a better Me. (oops i did it!) LOL!  But I'm serious though.  Do you ever have those moments where you see yourself making a decision and part of you is saying "uuuh you're going to regret this later..." and then you do regret it later. Yup. Those moments...I've had them a lot!  

I need you Father, I need you in my life, in my spiritual ear at all times! Lord I need you to guide me in the right direction! In Jesus name, amen!

Ok this is it! Oh speaking of "This Is It" - I will be doing a food review at This Is It BBQ and Seafood - Campcreek location for New Years!  Feel free to join me on that #dineandreview adventure!  ;-)  (see how quick i came out of that funk?)  LOL! And that's what I'm talking about. I think about all of the crazy ass decisions I've made and start getting depressed and then I remind myself of the positive decisions I've made and life looks better.  I don't know.  I do know that I've set some things in motion that may not have the greatest turn out so uuum just stay tuned to what the hayal is about to happen in my world. LOL..but not really if you know what I mean.  Oh I didn't even get started on my crazy family and what they are doing or should I say not doing about the land that my grandparents left "us".  I tell ya what, money or the lack thereof, brings out the best in people.  Geesh! O_o

Thank you for entertaining "Hello World".

I wish.....

Hello World:

Craziness:
I wish I was that girl that used my common sense back in the day to make better choices...I wish I was that girl that didn't get stuck in crazy ruts and feeling like I was in the movie "Groundhog Day"...I wish I was that girl that took advantage of the great and exciting opportunities that have been presented to me....I wish I wasn't going to be that woman that spoke about "could-a", "should-a", would-a"...but alas as I look at my upcoming 42nd birthday in a few months, it looks like I am.  I did not take advantage of the time given me to do the very best I could.  My life has been mediocre at best. Yes. I have been blessed to be around people who are actively "doing it" that keep me encouraged but I haven't truly stepped out on faith and used my talents.  My singing voice has dwindled and my spirit is fading....ever so slowly.  I continuously put myself into crazy financial situations...almost like a constant self-sabotage.  I continuously fight against this demon by speaking prosperity and faith and happiness in the universe and I don't let myself wallow in any type of pity BUT the truth is the truth...I have NOT done well with the gift of life that the Lord has given me.  I think I even allow myself to be taken advantage of by people even though I know from the beginning that they don't mean well simply out of punishment.  Some part of me feels like I don't deserve a full blown happiness.  How crazy is that?  I'm not sure why that is or where it came from...but it's there. *shrug*

Happiness:
I'm loving hanging out with "Mr. Man"...I'm currently working on a food blog - eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com ....it's starting off great! I'm excited about it. I'm working on the official website, I have my logo.  I'm doing three things I like...be around people, eat and tell people about it. LOL!  I grew up painfully shy but I love to be around people and events.  How oxymoronish is that?? (yup new word)   I feel like two different people..one that wants to be happy and stable and one that is on a mission of self-rampage. (hashtag) crazy.

Moral of this story:
Continue to work on doing the right thing....pay your bills on time...pay your tithes...be nice to people...smile and the world will smile with you..tell yourself how great you are versus how less than...and don't trust anyone that your spirit tells you not to trust aka don't be naive...never trust people that over-encourage; why? they are up to something.  Yup.  There are folks out there that will take you for EVERYthing you have, even if it's not that much.  sad but true.  Encourage yourself.  As you end this read, click here to be further blessed on this day!

Peace be with you....peace be multiplied...

Nissa Kaye...

A change gone come...

Hello World!!

Whew!!  A lot has happened and I have not been able to get to my blog page.

I thought my "bullshit" radar was working but apparently I still have a soft naive heart when it comes to people.  I don't have it in my heart to use people so I choose to believe that people act the same way.  Welp! I got "GOT" as we say via slang.  What was supposed to be a short 2 weeks turned into over a month stay.  Several broken $$ promises to this day, still nothing close to what was to be paid.  Why would you promise to pay by a certain date if you know you don't really have it.  Why even offer? Now I know how vendors feel when we don't pay on time. O_o  And at this point not trying to be friends.  Hey, I'm not a full asshole so if you say "hi" I'll speak back, I was raised old school southern and in that same aspect you show me your ass one time and you have just subtracted yourself out of my personal space.  While I didn't really expect the $$ it would've been nice to have for my Thanksgiving travels..just a lil extra to have.  I guess as a Believer, i should pray that they are overly successful and all monies are received. It's not that I'm praying bad stuff happen, i'm just not praying at all.  BUT I also know I have to forgive so i'm working on that.  Forgive but NEVER forget! I love the Lord but I ain't no fool!

NEXT topic:
I now have a new food blog!  Check out the blog at eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com and you can follow me on facebook.com/eatandrinkwithme and twitter.com/dineandreview .  My mission with this blog is to visit different eateries and give a true, honest dining review.  I know there are some places out there that hype up their food with major PR and then we foodies get there and have disappointing meals.  My adventures are called "Dine and Reviews".  This upcoming holiday I will be doing a special "Home for the Holidays" Dine and Review and already have the breakfast klub on my list.  I want to add at least two more.  It should be fun!

Ok the title post is "A change gone come" and in the words of Sam Cook - "its been a long time coming but i know a change gone come.."  I've made some dumb azz mistakes but I think I've finally learned my lesson.  Oh yes, Mr. Man is still in the picture.  I don't know how to feel about this one.  A part of me is just aching to be full force, full heart in a relationship but then another part of me is like "Guard your heart Nissa"!  I wasn't created with the spirit of fear so I'm working on that as well.

Alright keep ya head up and don't let your visual outweigh your spiritual!

What is 2014 going to be like?

Hello World....

I'm really really really psyched about some new things that are under way in my life...Totally new mindset, new attitude, new actions...no more fear, no more failure due to "what-if I don't..."what-if I can't" - it's crazy because if I never do it I'll never know! I'll be 42 in a few months and I feel like I am in a repeated vicious cycle.  Yep, it's like I've been here before.  Making some crazy azz decisions leading to some crazy azz events..some have happened, some have not...i don't even wanna know what's about to happen!!

HAA!! Well the other day as I was listening to one of my fave line dancing/happy-go-lucky songs by Ne-yo "Champagne Life" I heard part of the lyrics in a different light for the first time ever "addicted to life, where dreams and reality are one-in-the same.." I realized that I'd lost my zeal, my addiction for life, my light was starting to fade and to be real about it, I was starting to look for a way out.  A permanent one.  This is going to be a new transition, a good pace though, nothing too fast and nothing slow.

I have my "Hello World" blog(which you are reading now) that i try to log into on a somewhat consistent basis just as an outlet to verbalize thoughts.  Sometimes to help me, sometimes to help others.  I also NOW have a new dining blog which you can check out at http://eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com - I also have a FB page of the same name.  Feel free to check me out..i hope to take this blog to the next level.  Two things i love to do, eat and then write about it! LOL!

I am still  entertaining "Mr. Man" but I'm still playing this by ear.  You know how it is when you've dealt with stupidity in past relationships?  This wall goes up and then you either turn bitter or take a break and then jump back in with your fingers crossed and hope for the best.  Well I'm the latter, my fingers are crossed and I'm hoping that I don't overlook signs and end up staying in something that needs to end.  I think i'm just hoping that my meter isn't broken when it comes to my own relationship.  I'm hoping that a part of me isn't just desperate to be with someone.  I'd honestly rather be alone than bored and/or miserable.  We all know what happens when you hold onto something past expiration...it gets ugly.

So my question is "What is 2014 going to be like" for me?  *sigh* I don't know but I am again excited to find out!  No more looking at the successes of my friends and associates and being exasperated NO it will now be a push for me in a positive manner to continue with my dreams.  I'd lost my drive a few years ago and have been struggling to get it back and I think I finally got it....YES...i think i finally got it back.  It's going to take a while to get away from the sarcastic response that I'm so used to automatically going to in my mind, but i am truly truly trying and I need to REALLY get a feel for jumping into my ambitions again.

No more being bored....no more hiding in the laughter...no more not letting people in...although I am going to still keep it playing safe on the romance side.  So we'll see if 2014 comes in with the same Mr. Man or heck maybe no Mr. Man at all. LOL! We shall see...

My lesson today:
Stay confident and don't talk yourself out of your own blessing!! YOU are the only one stopping YOU!

~Peace and Blessings~