What is 2014 going to be like?

Hello World....

I'm really really really psyched about some new things that are under way in my life...Totally new mindset, new attitude, new actions...no more fear, no more failure due to "what-if I don't..."what-if I can't" - it's crazy because if I never do it I'll never know! I'll be 42 in a few months and I feel like I am in a repeated vicious cycle.  Yep, it's like I've been here before.  Making some crazy azz decisions leading to some crazy azz events..some have happened, some have not...i don't even wanna know what's about to happen!!

HAA!! Well the other day as I was listening to one of my fave line dancing/happy-go-lucky songs by Ne-yo "Champagne Life" I heard part of the lyrics in a different light for the first time ever "addicted to life, where dreams and reality are one-in-the same.." I realized that I'd lost my zeal, my addiction for life, my light was starting to fade and to be real about it, I was starting to look for a way out.  A permanent one.  This is going to be a new transition, a good pace though, nothing too fast and nothing slow.

I have my "Hello World" blog(which you are reading now) that i try to log into on a somewhat consistent basis just as an outlet to verbalize thoughts.  Sometimes to help me, sometimes to help others.  I also NOW have a new dining blog which you can check out at http://eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com - I also have a FB page of the same name.  Feel free to check me out..i hope to take this blog to the next level.  Two things i love to do, eat and then write about it! LOL!

I am still  entertaining "Mr. Man" but I'm still playing this by ear.  You know how it is when you've dealt with stupidity in past relationships?  This wall goes up and then you either turn bitter or take a break and then jump back in with your fingers crossed and hope for the best.  Well I'm the latter, my fingers are crossed and I'm hoping that I don't overlook signs and end up staying in something that needs to end.  I think i'm just hoping that my meter isn't broken when it comes to my own relationship.  I'm hoping that a part of me isn't just desperate to be with someone.  I'd honestly rather be alone than bored and/or miserable.  We all know what happens when you hold onto something past expiration...it gets ugly.

So my question is "What is 2014 going to be like" for me?  *sigh* I don't know but I am again excited to find out!  No more looking at the successes of my friends and associates and being exasperated NO it will now be a push for me in a positive manner to continue with my dreams.  I'd lost my drive a few years ago and have been struggling to get it back and I think I finally got it....YES...i think i finally got it back.  It's going to take a while to get away from the sarcastic response that I'm so used to automatically going to in my mind, but i am truly truly trying and I need to REALLY get a feel for jumping into my ambitions again.

No more being bored....no more hiding in the laughter...no more not letting people in...although I am going to still keep it playing safe on the romance side.  So we'll see if 2014 comes in with the same Mr. Man or heck maybe no Mr. Man at all. LOL! We shall see...

My lesson today:
Stay confident and don't talk yourself out of your own blessing!! YOU are the only one stopping YOU!

~Peace and Blessings~