Hello World:
Craziness:
I wish I was that girl that used my common sense back in the day to make better choices...I wish I was that girl that didn't get stuck in crazy ruts and feeling like I was in the movie "Groundhog Day"...I wish I was that girl that took advantage of the great and exciting opportunities that have been presented to me....I wish I wasn't going to be that woman that spoke about "could-a", "should-a", would-a"...but alas as I look at my upcoming 42nd birthday in a few months, it looks like I am. I did not take advantage of the time given me to do the very best I could. My life has been mediocre at best. Yes. I have been blessed to be around people who are actively "doing it" that keep me encouraged but I haven't truly stepped out on faith and used my talents. My singing voice has dwindled and my spirit is fading....ever so slowly. I continuously put myself into crazy financial situations...almost like a constant self-sabotage. I continuously fight against this demon by speaking prosperity and faith and happiness in the universe and I don't let myself wallow in any type of pity BUT the truth is the truth...I have NOT done well with the gift of life that the Lord has given me. I think I even allow myself to be taken advantage of by people even though I know from the beginning that they don't mean well simply out of punishment. Some part of me feels like I don't deserve a full blown happiness. How crazy is that? I'm not sure why that is or where it came from...but it's there. *shrug*
Happiness:
I'm loving hanging out with "Mr. Man"...I'm currently working on a food blog - eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com ....it's starting off great! I'm excited about it. I'm working on the official website, I have my logo. I'm doing three things I like...be around people, eat and tell people about it. LOL! I grew up painfully shy but I love to be around people and events. How oxymoronish is that?? (yup new word) I feel like two different people..one that wants to be happy and stable and one that is on a mission of self-rampage. (hashtag) crazy.
Moral of this story:
Continue to work on doing the right thing....pay your bills on time...pay your tithes...be nice to people...smile and the world will smile with you..tell yourself how great you are versus how less than...and don't trust anyone that your spirit tells you not to trust aka don't be naive...never trust people that over-encourage; why? they are up to something. Yup. There are folks out there that will take you for EVERYthing you have, even if it's not that much. sad but true. Encourage yourself. As you end this read, click here to be further blessed on this day!
Peace be with you....peace be multiplied...
Nissa Kaye...
Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Thursday, October 31, 2013
What is 2014 going to be like?
Hello World....
I'm really really really psyched about some new things that are under way in my life...Totally new mindset, new attitude, new actions...no more fear, no more failure due to "what-if I don't..."what-if I can't" - it's crazy because if I never do it I'll never know! I'll be 42 in a few months and I feel like I am in a repeated vicious cycle. Yep, it's like I've been here before. Making some crazy azz decisions leading to some crazy azz events..some have happened, some have not...i don't even wanna know what's about to happen!!
HAA!! Well the other day as I was listening to one of my fave line dancing/happy-go-lucky songs by Ne-yo "Champagne Life" I heard part of the lyrics in a different light for the first time ever "addicted to life, where dreams and reality are one-in-the same.." I realized that I'd lost my zeal, my addiction for life, my light was starting to fade and to be real about it, I was starting to look for a way out. A permanent one. This is going to be a new transition, a good pace though, nothing too fast and nothing slow.
I have my "Hello World" blog(which you are reading now) that i try to log into on a somewhat consistent basis just as an outlet to verbalize thoughts. Sometimes to help me, sometimes to help others. I also NOW have a new dining blog which you can check out at http://eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com - I also have a FB page of the same name. Feel free to check me out..i hope to take this blog to the next level. Two things i love to do, eat and then write about it! LOL!
I am still entertaining "Mr. Man" but I'm still playing this by ear. You know how it is when you've dealt with stupidity in past relationships? This wall goes up and then you either turn bitter or take a break and then jump back in with your fingers crossed and hope for the best. Well I'm the latter, my fingers are crossed and I'm hoping that I don't overlook signs and end up staying in something that needs to end. I think i'm just hoping that my meter isn't broken when it comes to my own relationship. I'm hoping that a part of me isn't just desperate to be with someone. I'd honestly rather be alone than bored and/or miserable. We all know what happens when you hold onto something past expiration...it gets ugly.
So my question is "What is 2014 going to be like" for me? *sigh* I don't know but I am again excited to find out! No more looking at the successes of my friends and associates and being exasperated NO it will now be a push for me in a positive manner to continue with my dreams. I'd lost my drive a few years ago and have been struggling to get it back and I think I finally got it....YES...i think i finally got it back. It's going to take a while to get away from the sarcastic response that I'm so used to automatically going to in my mind, but i am truly truly trying and I need to REALLY get a feel for jumping into my ambitions again.
No more being bored....no more hiding in the laughter...no more not letting people in...although I am going to still keep it playing safe on the romance side. So we'll see if 2014 comes in with the same Mr. Man or heck maybe no Mr. Man at all. LOL! We shall see...
My lesson today:
Stay confident and don't talk yourself out of your own blessing!! YOU are the only one stopping YOU!
~Peace and Blessings~
I'm really really really psyched about some new things that are under way in my life...Totally new mindset, new attitude, new actions...no more fear, no more failure due to "what-if I don't..."what-if I can't" - it's crazy because if I never do it I'll never know! I'll be 42 in a few months and I feel like I am in a repeated vicious cycle. Yep, it's like I've been here before. Making some crazy azz decisions leading to some crazy azz events..some have happened, some have not...i don't even wanna know what's about to happen!!
HAA!! Well the other day as I was listening to one of my fave line dancing/happy-go-lucky songs by Ne-yo "Champagne Life" I heard part of the lyrics in a different light for the first time ever "addicted to life, where dreams and reality are one-in-the same.." I realized that I'd lost my zeal, my addiction for life, my light was starting to fade and to be real about it, I was starting to look for a way out. A permanent one. This is going to be a new transition, a good pace though, nothing too fast and nothing slow.
I have my "Hello World" blog(which you are reading now) that i try to log into on a somewhat consistent basis just as an outlet to verbalize thoughts. Sometimes to help me, sometimes to help others. I also NOW have a new dining blog which you can check out at http://eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com - I also have a FB page of the same name. Feel free to check me out..i hope to take this blog to the next level. Two things i love to do, eat and then write about it! LOL!
I am still entertaining "Mr. Man" but I'm still playing this by ear. You know how it is when you've dealt with stupidity in past relationships? This wall goes up and then you either turn bitter or take a break and then jump back in with your fingers crossed and hope for the best. Well I'm the latter, my fingers are crossed and I'm hoping that I don't overlook signs and end up staying in something that needs to end. I think i'm just hoping that my meter isn't broken when it comes to my own relationship. I'm hoping that a part of me isn't just desperate to be with someone. I'd honestly rather be alone than bored and/or miserable. We all know what happens when you hold onto something past expiration...it gets ugly.
So my question is "What is 2014 going to be like" for me? *sigh* I don't know but I am again excited to find out! No more looking at the successes of my friends and associates and being exasperated NO it will now be a push for me in a positive manner to continue with my dreams. I'd lost my drive a few years ago and have been struggling to get it back and I think I finally got it....YES...i think i finally got it back. It's going to take a while to get away from the sarcastic response that I'm so used to automatically going to in my mind, but i am truly truly trying and I need to REALLY get a feel for jumping into my ambitions again.
No more being bored....no more hiding in the laughter...no more not letting people in...although I am going to still keep it playing safe on the romance side. So we'll see if 2014 comes in with the same Mr. Man or heck maybe no Mr. Man at all. LOL! We shall see...
My lesson today:
Stay confident and don't talk yourself out of your own blessing!! YOU are the only one stopping YOU!
~Peace and Blessings~
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
There comes a time in every [wo]man's life...
Hello World.....
There comes a time in everybody's life that he/she knows when to sit yo azz down! (click here for theme music) You've got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run...
And after tonight, I shall continue to run like Forrest Gump shaking off his shackles! I am going to stick with my current plan and concentrate on my new promotion at work and school and getting some connections in the sound engineering world so I can transition smoothly. So I'll be zooming alright and concentrating on the right thangs!
I encourage each and everyone of you to look at your current situation, measure it by peace of mind versus the "piece" you have in mind and ask yourself "am i happy?". If your instant reaction isn't a wicked smile and a resounding "YES!" then you may need to re-think your situation and work on fixing what isn't making you happy. Bottomline, communicate with those around you to make it right, don't make assumptions and make them read your mind. Nobody knows what you are thinking but YOU! And don't play "read between the lines" either, tell people what is really, truly on your mind.
There comes a time in every [wo]man's life that they demand to be happy!
Everyone stay true, stay positive and stay optimistic!! you can win as long as you keep your head to the sky..be optimistic
*peace and blessings*
There comes a time in everybody's life that he/she knows when to sit yo azz down! (click here for theme music) You've got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, know when to run...
And after tonight, I shall continue to run like Forrest Gump shaking off his shackles! I am going to stick with my current plan and concentrate on my new promotion at work and school and getting some connections in the sound engineering world so I can transition smoothly. So I'll be zooming alright and concentrating on the right thangs!
I encourage each and everyone of you to look at your current situation, measure it by peace of mind versus the "piece" you have in mind and ask yourself "am i happy?". If your instant reaction isn't a wicked smile and a resounding "YES!" then you may need to re-think your situation and work on fixing what isn't making you happy. Bottomline, communicate with those around you to make it right, don't make assumptions and make them read your mind. Nobody knows what you are thinking but YOU! And don't play "read between the lines" either, tell people what is really, truly on your mind.
There comes a time in every [wo]man's life that they demand to be happy!
Everyone stay true, stay positive and stay optimistic!! you can win as long as you keep your head to the sky..be optimistic
*peace and blessings*
Monday, February 20, 2012
I'm Normal...
World! Hello...
Just wanted to send a quick note to you at the end of the day. In this blog, You will read motivational stuff that may create the perception that I see the world through rose colored glasses and everything is happy happy joy joy (shout out to ren and stimpy) and I just want you to be aware that this is not true at all! I'm normal with my normal ups and downs like everybody else. But don't we hear enough negativity? Don't we read enough in the news? Heck my own mental negativity that I fight daily would depress the happiest human being on the earth..seriously. So what I have to do to combat that is speak calmness, happiness into the universe to others and it also helps me. So just in case you EVER should get the impression that I'm not living in the real world, I am living in the real world which is why I know that we ALL need inspiration whether we show it or not.
Ok take your left arm and wrap to the right and your right arm and wrap it to the left and hug yourself and have a lovely evening!
*peace and blessings*
Just wanted to send a quick note to you at the end of the day. In this blog, You will read motivational stuff that may create the perception that I see the world through rose colored glasses and everything is happy happy joy joy (shout out to ren and stimpy) and I just want you to be aware that this is not true at all! I'm normal with my normal ups and downs like everybody else. But don't we hear enough negativity? Don't we read enough in the news? Heck my own mental negativity that I fight daily would depress the happiest human being on the earth..seriously. So what I have to do to combat that is speak calmness, happiness into the universe to others and it also helps me. So just in case you EVER should get the impression that I'm not living in the real world, I am living in the real world which is why I know that we ALL need inspiration whether we show it or not.
Ok take your left arm and wrap to the right and your right arm and wrap it to the left and hug yourself and have a lovely evening!
*peace and blessings*
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