Every moment counts...

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You see this picture?  This was me yesterday!  YEP As I walked across in the crosswalk WITH the right of way, a driver not paying attention, turning left just gunned  his way to the middle of the cross walk where I just happened to be at that moment.  I saw the car in my peripheral so I turned to look the driver in the eye and see this guy just looking up (probably from texting) and his wife now berating him because he wasn't looking.  **side eye**

I didn't even try to take a pic of the car I just kept walking and thanking God that I didn't get hit.

This is a short one....

My message today is Make Every Moment Count....because you NEVER know when that moment is your last.  oh yes AND

STOP TEXTING WHILE DRIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace and Blessings.....

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On a Mission...

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This thought came to me during my morning commute.  I work in Midtown Atlanta and my route includes a large pedestrian walk that stops traffic at will.  Yes, the push of a button activates flashing lights and the pedestrian walks across and the cars HAVE to stop. Luckily it's the state law that cars have to stop if a pedestrian is in a streeet crosswalk (not the crosswalks at the intersections of traffic signals. don't get run over and blame me. wait your turn! LOL).   Anywho as I was strolling taking my time as these 2 and 3 ton machines (and their drivers) had to wait until I got across, I thought about the type of power one has when they are walking in their destiny and on that straight path.  No need to hurry...no need to speed up because of someone else's emergency or negative energy.  Take your time and get to your goal in the allotted time...because a hurried action on someone else's part means consequences for THEM.

Moral of this story....

In the words of the infamous SOS Band "you can do it take your time do it right...." (click SOS and jam)

You only get this life ONCE...have fun...do what you were born to do and LIVE!!!

Peace and Blessings...

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I wish.....

Hello World:

Craziness:
I wish I was that girl that used my common sense back in the day to make better choices...I wish I was that girl that didn't get stuck in crazy ruts and feeling like I was in the movie "Groundhog Day"...I wish I was that girl that took advantage of the great and exciting opportunities that have been presented to me....I wish I wasn't going to be that woman that spoke about "could-a", "should-a", would-a"...but alas as I look at my upcoming 42nd birthday in a few months, it looks like I am.  I did not take advantage of the time given me to do the very best I could.  My life has been mediocre at best. Yes. I have been blessed to be around people who are actively "doing it" that keep me encouraged but I haven't truly stepped out on faith and used my talents.  My singing voice has dwindled and my spirit is fading....ever so slowly.  I continuously put myself into crazy financial situations...almost like a constant self-sabotage.  I continuously fight against this demon by speaking prosperity and faith and happiness in the universe and I don't let myself wallow in any type of pity BUT the truth is the truth...I have NOT done well with the gift of life that the Lord has given me.  I think I even allow myself to be taken advantage of by people even though I know from the beginning that they don't mean well simply out of punishment.  Some part of me feels like I don't deserve a full blown happiness.  How crazy is that?  I'm not sure why that is or where it came from...but it's there. *shrug*

Happiness:
I'm loving hanging out with "Mr. Man"...I'm currently working on a food blog - eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com ....it's starting off great! I'm excited about it. I'm working on the official website, I have my logo.  I'm doing three things I like...be around people, eat and tell people about it. LOL!  I grew up painfully shy but I love to be around people and events.  How oxymoronish is that?? (yup new word)   I feel like two different people..one that wants to be happy and stable and one that is on a mission of self-rampage. (hashtag) crazy.

Moral of this story:
Continue to work on doing the right thing....pay your bills on time...pay your tithes...be nice to people...smile and the world will smile with you..tell yourself how great you are versus how less than...and don't trust anyone that your spirit tells you not to trust aka don't be naive...never trust people that over-encourage; why? they are up to something.  Yup.  There are folks out there that will take you for EVERYthing you have, even if it's not that much.  sad but true.  Encourage yourself.  As you end this read, click here to be further blessed on this day!

Peace be with you....peace be multiplied...

Nissa Kaye...

What would you do for a klondike bar?

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You see the post title? LOL! Got your attention didn't it? Well i'm glad your curiousness got the best of you.  At this point in my life, I feel like I'm still not making the best choices.  My free will is turning into brick walls instead of free will type choices to set me free.  I'm trapping myself in a box instead of freeing myself with ALL of the possibilities that my talents and gifts have given me. I see other people around me that have used their talents the right way that are achieving that are achieving that are achieving....

I feel like i'm failing, failing, flailing flailing...and in a few minutes i'm about to make a "lesser of two evils" decision to escape the results of yet another error in judgement on my behalf.  At 40, you'd think i would've figured out how not to get on the hamster wheel but it's slowly starting to feel that way.  You see i'm damaged goods in more ways than one.  Nice to look at but poisonous to the touch...  So what do you do when you keep fucking up? How and why would God continue to help me when my latitude/longitude is due to my mindless wandering.

At this point, i'm out of undergrad student loan money..i did have the two classes picked for the Spring 2013 semester and I was about to start looking for the additional funds I'll need after using the very last $$ I have available and then last Wednesday, I get a text that my Spring bill was available to look at and then it showed a credit balance which alarmed me.  I had to pay out of pocket for the Fall 2012 semester so I knew i'd have to do the same next semester.  The second class that was perfect (friday - 1pm) for my work schedule was cancelled.  So now i have to look for another evening/weekend class.  evenings...a few..weekend...not at all.  Film/Video major/Music minor - i'm a senior at GSU and so now truly the majority of my classes are during the day.  *what to do?* i mean all faith stepping stones led me to GSU, now what? i'm writing scholarship letters and applying so it's not like i'm sitting on my hands. I do seem to have more connections in the Audio world that will pickup soon.  I've been approached more than once about doing "marketing" work which scared me because that word always equated to frustration to me.  Mainly because it includes something else i don't care for, that's research.  But as I take this faither walk guess what i have to do ..research. I don't know, i'm not trying to sound perfect, holy and sanctimonius, this is me...this is it. I'm flawed. BIG time.  And at the same time, i'm irritated.  Not to the brink of tears right now but i just feel confused.

The title says "what would you do for a klondike bar?"  My klondike bar is a hypnotist that can take away this crazy ass mindset that I'm less than. yep i said it....a continuous low-level depression state will slowly chip away and make you feel that way.  I feel like my decisions have limited the plans that the Almighty had for me because i KNOW this can't be it. i'm tired of always waving my hand and saying hallelujah everytime a preacher preaches about making out of something and going from broke to rich.  I want to finally wave my hand and say "Lord thank You for bringing me out."  That thang nestled in my brain and has seem to grow almost as thick as the kudzu that plagues Atlanta.  i have too much crap to do to constantly battle over this.

Anyway, what would I do? My honest to blue truth is to keep the faith and make better decisions and trust God to do what He said He'd do.  Like all theories, it sounds great on paper.  But putting it into Action...a different story.  speaking of Action, everytime I go to church - Gospel Tabernacle Church-Atlanta - my Pastor hits it on the head for me and our ministry's motto is: Word in Action.  Everytime I hear that, my mind chuckles and says "we're a verb church". LOL!

As i close, my suggestion to you is to write down your thoughts when you are in crisis.  By the time you get to the end, you'll have a decision.  AND pray and ask God to speak with you even in a dream to get an answer. (is what i'll be doing)

*peace and blessings*

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What are we doing people?

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It has been a moment, a hot minute. There's a part of me that is ready to delve into the world of romance. 

:-)  (enjoy this soundtrack of love as you read) Yes I have a bunch of stuff happening in my world. I work full-time in a career field that has nothing to do with my passion, i just turned 40 and I'm a full-time student at GSU.  On one hand it can be very overwhelming but on the other hand, I get to share in the joy and laughter of the passions of friends I am meeting along the way. It's a beautiful thing!  A friend of mine has an annual event that started as a small house gathering and has morphed into a full event sponsored by Clayton County in Georgia and Microsoft and a few other big-time sponsors.  It pays homage to local ATL talent, adults and kids in the arts by giving to Project A.R.M. and just giving a stage for talent to shine.  It's the Annual Fish Fry and it ended with soul artist Philipia Williams on stage and a huge fireworks show just great!

me and the creator of the Annual Fish Fry - Anthony "AJ " Joiner

So that was a beautiful thing to enjoy with friends and at some point i ended up winning tickets to see some jazz phenomenoms - kim waters, marion meadows and joey sommerville and paul taylor.  I thought I had a date..well..yeah.  So there was this dude, very cute, very articulate, accomplished and during conversation after I'd asked to roll with me to the jazz event, he let me know that he was about 8 years my junior.  uuuh yeah, my spirit kinda deflated...like fa real. LOL!! So when he called to cancel, i wasn't too heartbroken. (whew) So it ended up being a girls night out which was cool de la because we ended up hanging out backstage with some folks my homegirl knew and MAN! I had a baaall... AND there was a second fish fry after the one mentioned above in a different location. A warehouse spot. $10 all you can eat fish/fries and beer. Beautiful! We stopped thru there after the jazz experience. MAN! THAT was a weekend! LOL!! So then the next day (sunday) i ended up at the national black arts festival (NBAF).  Got introduced to a local soul/rhythm and blues artist by the name of Alex Lattimore .  You know how you see somebody and they LOOK like they can sing? This guy had that look. ANd listen, we were outside in 90+ degree weather, no real cover where me and my homette were sitting. WE had our lawn chairs and umbrellas so he needed to BRANG it and make us feel good about baking. LOL! And listen...this guy is the business! i'm purchasing his new CD immediately. He did his thang!

Whoo i'm not sure what else I have forgot but anyway that's the beauty of editing. LOL!  So...uuh...my spirit is in the process of unattaching (yeah i'll say it like that) and so i'm ready for a full bloom of love, romance and intimacy in my life.  Even with the stuff that mentioned above, i'd love to have someone that appreciates that and i can share with and also support in their ventures. (le sigh) Love is a beautiful thing (you may wanna click on the soundtrack again) LOL.  School is about to start for us - Fall 2012 is August 20th and i'm gearing up slowly to get back in that realm.  i can't remember if i mentioned this in another post but i moved from a 2 to a 1 bedroom and believe it or not (i don't care) i still have part of my stuff in totes. i honestly need to purchase some other organizational/storage items.  I still have clothing in my car that needs to be donated (just horrible). I used HUGE boxes to move and oh yes, i'm 3 floors up and so I still have two boxes that are now trash boxes still sitting in my kitchen area. I need to take to dumpster soon but they are HUGE! (argh!)  Ok i'm sure this is quite enough for today.  Oh yes, speaking of today a horrible tragedy happened in the wee hours of the day.  During the midnite showing of "The Dark Knight Rises" a crazed idiot walked in wearing kevlar and a gas mask and dropped a gas canister and started shooting people! The cops now realize he had thousands of rounds of bullets and his home is booby-trapped.  So a part of me is mourning the loss of innocent lives (and of course now no one can dress up anymore; new theater rules) but another part of me is wondering how some people feel that they use so much energy trying to keep "minorities" down (we are still fighting the Treyvon Martin incident) a societal accepted idiot walked into a place and killed a bunch of folks. i don't know maybe...whatever. society will NOT care about the deeper regions of this incident.

Hiphop lost a great pioneer Ms. Melodie passed the other night. She was only 43! I don't know what is happening with my age group but we are dropping like flies!  We are NOT taking our health seriously and then you see pics of 73 year old body building ladies looking younger than us.  We have to take better care of ourselves inside and out!  I try to tell my mother the same thing, she's 23 years my senior but i fear it's too late. she's grown, she's gonna do what she's gonna do. I had the displeasure of watching my paternal grandfather die due to his own choices. he was a severe diabetic and would not follow the doctor's orders so he slowly got stuff amputated and eventually was bedridden, being fed by a tube. Then my grandmother died of a broken heart and in between that my grandmother's sister died (not sure of what). I lost 3 ppl around the same time that i was trying to get to know. One due to medical craziness!  So anyway. What are we doing folks? Why?

Oh yeah, even though i was married before and it went waaaay wrong (found out i was married to a controlling serial marryier - new word; i was wife#4) i'd love to get married again; but guess what? i'm actually thinking of going into a co-parenting situation. No fa real. Like i've discussed it with the guy i have in mind. But a part of that is like "hmmm you're good enough to impregnate me but not enough for me to want to marry?"  I think my issue is that i've gotten very very set in my ways and would and could function in a relationship like that.  OMG! isn't that sad??  I don't know maybe once my mr. right finds me it'll all come together. *kanye shrug*  my biggest thing is that i don't want my mom's biological line to end. my adopted sisters have kiddos but i'd love to be able to see a mini me (or two) my maternal grandfather (john elliott) was a twin i'd love to have twins or even quads and get it over with. LOL! but who knows what my body will do, what the RA will do at 40+ years. Hell i may be heading into "the change" soon, i don't know.

So with ALL of this being said, my prayers go out to families that area dealing with loss and the families of the deceased and wounded of colorado.  Welp! Time for a late night fish sammich and then I'm going nite nite!  :-)

*peace and blessings*