Hello World....
I'm really really really psyched about some new things that are under way in my life...Totally new mindset, new attitude, new actions...no more fear, no more failure due to "what-if I don't..."what-if I can't" - it's crazy because if I never do it I'll never know! I'll be 42 in a few months and I feel like I am in a repeated vicious cycle. Yep, it's like I've been here before. Making some crazy azz decisions leading to some crazy azz events..some have happened, some have not...i don't even wanna know what's about to happen!!
HAA!! Well the other day as I was listening to one of my fave line dancing/happy-go-lucky songs by Ne-yo "Champagne Life" I heard part of the lyrics in a different light for the first time ever "addicted to life, where dreams and reality are one-in-the same.." I realized that I'd lost my zeal, my addiction for life, my light was starting to fade and to be real about it, I was starting to look for a way out. A permanent one. This is going to be a new transition, a good pace though, nothing too fast and nothing slow.
I have my "Hello World" blog(which you are reading now) that i try to log into on a somewhat consistent basis just as an outlet to verbalize thoughts. Sometimes to help me, sometimes to help others. I also NOW have a new dining blog which you can check out at http://eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com - I also have a FB page of the same name. Feel free to check me out..i hope to take this blog to the next level. Two things i love to do, eat and then write about it! LOL!
I am still entertaining "Mr. Man" but I'm still playing this by ear. You know how it is when you've dealt with stupidity in past relationships? This wall goes up and then you either turn bitter or take a break and then jump back in with your fingers crossed and hope for the best. Well I'm the latter, my fingers are crossed and I'm hoping that I don't overlook signs and end up staying in something that needs to end. I think i'm just hoping that my meter isn't broken when it comes to my own relationship. I'm hoping that a part of me isn't just desperate to be with someone. I'd honestly rather be alone than bored and/or miserable. We all know what happens when you hold onto something past expiration...it gets ugly.
So my question is "What is 2014 going to be like" for me? *sigh* I don't know but I am again excited to find out! No more looking at the successes of my friends and associates and being exasperated NO it will now be a push for me in a positive manner to continue with my dreams. I'd lost my drive a few years ago and have been struggling to get it back and I think I finally got it....YES...i think i finally got it back. It's going to take a while to get away from the sarcastic response that I'm so used to automatically going to in my mind, but i am truly truly trying and I need to REALLY get a feel for jumping into my ambitions again.
No more being bored....no more hiding in the laughter...no more not letting people in...although I am going to still keep it playing safe on the romance side. So we'll see if 2014 comes in with the same Mr. Man or heck maybe no Mr. Man at all. LOL! We shall see...
My lesson today:
Stay confident and don't talk yourself out of your own blessing!! YOU are the only one stopping YOU!
~Peace and Blessings~
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
Is it the way??
Hello World...
I have a bad habit of not being consistent with this blog...
There have been a lot of craziness happening in my life that make sense to my current actions...my title says "Is it the way" and it makes me think about Jill Scott's song to a certain extent.
The new guy is still there and it's been 5 months...i'm a tad giddy....
I've been hanging with some friends that keep me active in my "walk" but i've not been as active as I should be at all! Ugh!
But now there is a strange incident happening in my personal space that I'm not sure how to judge. An individual I only have a business friendly connection with has been reaching out for assistance that is on a personal friendly level and it's striking me as a tad strange. My personality is such that I will assist those that are in need, maybe sometimes to a fault. I pray I never run into someone that will attempt to take advantage of me. Is it the way I'm living? Is it the vibes I'm throwing out? I tell you what God has my back no matter how crazy I tend to act so in the words of Mr. T, I pity the fool that tries to mess with me.. LOL!
So to my audience..be careful of how you live your life, the vibes you give off are the same vibes you attract..
Keep your head up and be encouraged!
~Peace and Blessings~
I have a bad habit of not being consistent with this blog...
There have been a lot of craziness happening in my life that make sense to my current actions...my title says "Is it the way" and it makes me think about Jill Scott's song to a certain extent.
The new guy is still there and it's been 5 months...i'm a tad giddy....
I've been hanging with some friends that keep me active in my "walk" but i've not been as active as I should be at all! Ugh!
But now there is a strange incident happening in my personal space that I'm not sure how to judge. An individual I only have a business friendly connection with has been reaching out for assistance that is on a personal friendly level and it's striking me as a tad strange. My personality is such that I will assist those that are in need, maybe sometimes to a fault. I pray I never run into someone that will attempt to take advantage of me. Is it the way I'm living? Is it the vibes I'm throwing out? I tell you what God has my back no matter how crazy I tend to act so in the words of Mr. T, I pity the fool that tries to mess with me.. LOL!
So to my audience..be careful of how you live your life, the vibes you give off are the same vibes you attract..
Keep your head up and be encouraged!
~Peace and Blessings~
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Listen to the Word around you...
Hello World...
(click here) for song
This has been an interesting time for me. I've been doing some reflecting about choices I've made and getting upset about it and between the Word that my Pastor (Bishop Jackson) has been ministering "The Big Picture" - [today Matt 5:13] then the Word that we got today during the service "Spiritual Alignment" [Matt 3:7] I'm getting the right direction to go forward. Bishop Jackson has been speaking on using our gifts and our daily lives to spread the Word and then today Pastor Johnson of Christ Point of View Ministries spoke about getting aligned with God and having the power to endure anything and how once we align with God there are certain things that will not/cannot bother us. I got a Word to continue to follow the vision and yearning of entrepreneurship that has been in my spirit. Thanks to some Atl connections I've been once again connected to and pulled into a situation that motivates me to use my/stir up my gifts... (click here) for song...
Two weeks ago a new ATL friend (by way of New Awlins be-be) put out a request for some singers for an evening service. I put my name in the hat..I started taking voice lessons last month but was unable to continue beyond July due to lack of $$..i'll pick back up soon though...so anyway we had successful rehearsal last night for today which is something that happens when you have a group of folks together because they love to do something versus there because they have to...so as SOON as we get started (after prayer of course) my friend starts us on vocal warmups..LOL..little did she know the one exercise she had us doing is one that I had the most trouble with when I started in July. LOL!! But I can do 'em now! What is it you ask? Lip Drills....lawd have mercy...my voice coach had a happy time trying to teach me how to do that...LOL! But who'd a thunk it that I'd need to know how to do this later. HA! love it! So another connection showing me that I'm still on the right path, no need to be frustrated. (click here) for song...All I have to do is listen to the Word around me...
Even if you don't believe in the same ideology that I do, everyone understands karma and signs and being in the right group of people. That's a beautiful thing. Positive vibes are always good. Negativity exists in every group/crowd/mindset and it's all about going with your gut/stepping out on faith/listen to the vibes (in the words of Zhane). When your mind is open and you are ready to follow your heart beautiful things happen.
The objective is to listen to the Word around you....Stay focused, hone your skills and let your gifts make room for you, keep your dream alive and always be around people that will allow you to go to the next level. The folks that try to hinder you should not be in your personal space...keep away from them...
Keep your head up...
*Peace and Blessings*
Credit:
Youtube.com
John P Kee
Colorado Mass Choir
Zhane
(click here) for song
This has been an interesting time for me. I've been doing some reflecting about choices I've made and getting upset about it and between the Word that my Pastor (Bishop Jackson) has been ministering "The Big Picture" - [today Matt 5:13] then the Word that we got today during the service "Spiritual Alignment" [Matt 3:7] I'm getting the right direction to go forward. Bishop Jackson has been speaking on using our gifts and our daily lives to spread the Word and then today Pastor Johnson of Christ Point of View Ministries spoke about getting aligned with God and having the power to endure anything and how once we align with God there are certain things that will not/cannot bother us. I got a Word to continue to follow the vision and yearning of entrepreneurship that has been in my spirit. Thanks to some Atl connections I've been once again connected to and pulled into a situation that motivates me to use my/stir up my gifts... (click here) for song...
Two weeks ago a new ATL friend (by way of New Awlins be-be) put out a request for some singers for an evening service. I put my name in the hat..I started taking voice lessons last month but was unable to continue beyond July due to lack of $$..i'll pick back up soon though...so anyway we had successful rehearsal last night for today which is something that happens when you have a group of folks together because they love to do something versus there because they have to...so as SOON as we get started (after prayer of course) my friend starts us on vocal warmups..LOL..little did she know the one exercise she had us doing is one that I had the most trouble with when I started in July. LOL!! But I can do 'em now! What is it you ask? Lip Drills....lawd have mercy...my voice coach had a happy time trying to teach me how to do that...LOL! But who'd a thunk it that I'd need to know how to do this later. HA! love it! So another connection showing me that I'm still on the right path, no need to be frustrated. (click here) for song...All I have to do is listen to the Word around me...
Even if you don't believe in the same ideology that I do, everyone understands karma and signs and being in the right group of people. That's a beautiful thing. Positive vibes are always good. Negativity exists in every group/crowd/mindset and it's all about going with your gut/stepping out on faith/listen to the vibes (in the words of Zhane). When your mind is open and you are ready to follow your heart beautiful things happen.
The objective is to listen to the Word around you....Stay focused, hone your skills and let your gifts make room for you, keep your dream alive and always be around people that will allow you to go to the next level. The folks that try to hinder you should not be in your personal space...keep away from them...
Keep your head up...
*Peace and Blessings*
Credit:
Youtube.com
John P Kee
Colorado Mass Choir
Zhane
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Another Legend Gone...Be Productive...
Hello World...
Sad news just in...a sad day in the music world! We have lost funk/jazz great Mr.George Duke!! http://www.eurweb.com/2013/08/we-remember-george-duke-dies-at-67/
No matter what age you are, if you wanted to hear or were looking for real music or if you were just raised around real music his tunes graced your ear drums!
Mr. Duke has been blessing us with tunes (studio/live/film composition) since the 1960s and had just released a new album entitled "Dream Weaver" (click here) which is dedicated to his wife who passed away last July from cancer.
Enjoy one of my fave Duke Tunes by clicking here...
Our lesson today: As we enjoy this new day, use your time, every breath wisely and be productive because your next second is not promised!!
On a personal/professional note: I will be ministering with Christ Point of View Ministries Sunday, Aug 18th in Commerce GA. Shouts out to a new good friend, Meryl Lain, for creating this opportunity and a shouts out to International Choreographer Ursula Kendall for being a great friend and networking fiend! :-) It's good to connect with productive people who operate on a professional level, they allow you to connect with the right people! Hone your craft, have a plan and be ready to GO!!
Peace and Blessings.....
Credit:
Eurweb.com
Youtube.com
George Duke Online
Sad news just in...a sad day in the music world! We have lost funk/jazz great Mr.George Duke!! http://www.eurweb.com/2013/08/we-remember-george-duke-dies-at-67/
No matter what age you are, if you wanted to hear or were looking for real music or if you were just raised around real music his tunes graced your ear drums!
Mr. Duke has been blessing us with tunes (studio/live/film composition) since the 1960s and had just released a new album entitled "Dream Weaver" (click here) which is dedicated to his wife who passed away last July from cancer.
Enjoy one of my fave Duke Tunes by clicking here...
Our lesson today: As we enjoy this new day, use your time, every breath wisely and be productive because your next second is not promised!!
On a personal/professional note: I will be ministering with Christ Point of View Ministries Sunday, Aug 18th in Commerce GA. Shouts out to a new good friend, Meryl Lain, for creating this opportunity and a shouts out to International Choreographer Ursula Kendall for being a great friend and networking fiend! :-) It's good to connect with productive people who operate on a professional level, they allow you to connect with the right people! Hone your craft, have a plan and be ready to GO!!
Peace and Blessings.....
Credit:
Eurweb.com
Youtube.com
George Duke Online
Monday, July 1, 2013
???
Hello World...
May 15th to July 1st...the honeymoon stage is slowly wearing off. Not that anything crazy is happening but I think, even though I haven't done a one on one situation in quite sometime my non-single mode expects/looks for something specific that I'm not getting. And I'm trying to not be the "friend" that controls the situation and that lets the chips fall where they may. This may be my "test" to see how I now handle one-on-one situations. If I let the chips fall where they may, maybe it'll be a great thing versus me controlling how I want it to go. LOL...stubborn Aries I am. I don't know..we'll see. Right now I'm just..ugh...mad about the fact that I have to even deal with these emotions. I'm an emotional being but I don't really like emotions. Emotions, to me, mean that people can hurt you. I don't like being hurt....so right now... ??? is where I am.
I hope everyone else has a peace and blessed type of evening.
May 15th to July 1st...the honeymoon stage is slowly wearing off. Not that anything crazy is happening but I think, even though I haven't done a one on one situation in quite sometime my non-single mode expects/looks for something specific that I'm not getting. And I'm trying to not be the "friend" that controls the situation and that lets the chips fall where they may. This may be my "test" to see how I now handle one-on-one situations. If I let the chips fall where they may, maybe it'll be a great thing versus me controlling how I want it to go. LOL...stubborn Aries I am. I don't know..we'll see. Right now I'm just..ugh...mad about the fact that I have to even deal with these emotions. I'm an emotional being but I don't really like emotions. Emotions, to me, mean that people can hurt you. I don't like being hurt....so right now... ??? is where I am.
I hope everyone else has a peace and blessed type of evening.
Monday, June 24, 2013
As the heart speaks...
Hello World...
It has been umpteen days since my last post and a lot of stuff has happened. So let's get to it.
First update:
My new friend and I are trudging along BUT i'm noticing I may have attracted yet another hard working entrepreneur who may have bitten off more than he can chew. Either that or the Lord is trying to tell me to be patient. Business owners have crazy schedules and have to be on alert at all times. The step is to get the business up and eventually get staff that can effectively and efficiently run it..but until then he/she has to be there everyday. I'm more hands on, like to date, not every weekend but some quality time is needed. And not a quick hour here or there after work/on the way home. *sigh* I don't know...but I'm not stressing about it either. I know how to remove myself from something when I start feeling unwanted. One day you see me, the next day you don't. Simple as that. So we'll see how that goes.
Next update:
My homegirl is still here and this is kinda cool! I've done roommate situations before and those were okay but after those two and then had to move back with mom and my younger siblings for awhile, i vowed to never do it again. But I have to retract that statement. When you share a space with someone that knows how to respect the space, it's works out very well. We are both used to having our own space so we give each other that respect and meet in the middle for girl talk. I'm going through a pair down/downsizing of "stuff" that I have including cable. I'm going to check on what's needed for regular TV, I think I have to get some sort of box or something for regular channels. *shrug* i'll check it out. I didn't think I'd be able to make it without DirecTV. LOL! I don't miss that bill either. I need to contact them to come and get their boxes and remotes.
Hmmmm what's next?
I got a call from a past flame...how "past" you ask? Kinda recent....I thought I was cool, I was over "it" and with this new guy that just appeared that it was a sign that it was truly time to release. So when i got this call and my heart rate increased and as our conversation continued a tear drop found it's way down my face, I knew I was somewhat healed but not 100%. Man oh man.....it's definitely sometimes hard to say goodbye to yesterday. Especially when that yesterday has had your heart in his hands for so long..man! BUT the present is working out well so no long standing heart ache over here. *whew* I think the Lord knew that call was coming and knew I needed to be ready for it. Thanks God, once again! LOL!
On the professional front:
I'm signing myself up for voice lessons with Premier Vocal Coaches. I just registered, I hope I did it right so I'm waiting to hear back from them. The church media group took a tour of AIBTV studios. It's the studio that airs our church broadcast. It reignited my audio engineering fire bug AND I spoke with the Audio guy there and gave him my information and he suggested that I look into being foley. Takes me back to what my first film professor said. So I think I'm going to look into it. Contact her and see what other information she can give me. Next step is legalzoom.com for this LLC. I keep saying I'm gonna do it and don't.
Not so good update. I got back in the world of pay day loans and currently have 3 out for a total of about $300. That's $300 dollars more I could have in my pocket. Here I got again stepping backwards. *sigh* Anyway, I'll be handling that soon. Ok...oh yeah, I didn't go to my reunion this year. Just didn't feel like it. Im starting to feel like I put more energy into being around my own DNA connected folks than they do so i'm just not going to put out the extra effort or energy like I used to. If they don't really care, neither do it. point blank..period. No harm no foul...
End of the day..As the world turns, the heart speaks...and my heart says "Continue to live..." and first lady spoke yesterday on winning souls for Christ. You don't have to do anything extra just live like you have some sense. When you do that it draws people to you and THEN you can share your testimony and then invite them to your ministry. Don't pull folks from other churches, there are plenty of folks out there with no covering. So with all of that said, I need to update the way i'm living. I'm on it.
I thank God for this day, I didn't have to be here. I will be more vigilant on doing what i need to do before I leave.
*Peace and Blessings*
p.s. found out that Bobby Blue Bland passed away yesterday (Sunday, June 23rd) to honor his memory, I end with this song. RIP....
It has been umpteen days since my last post and a lot of stuff has happened. So let's get to it.
First update:
My new friend and I are trudging along BUT i'm noticing I may have attracted yet another hard working entrepreneur who may have bitten off more than he can chew. Either that or the Lord is trying to tell me to be patient. Business owners have crazy schedules and have to be on alert at all times. The step is to get the business up and eventually get staff that can effectively and efficiently run it..but until then he/she has to be there everyday. I'm more hands on, like to date, not every weekend but some quality time is needed. And not a quick hour here or there after work/on the way home. *sigh* I don't know...but I'm not stressing about it either. I know how to remove myself from something when I start feeling unwanted. One day you see me, the next day you don't. Simple as that. So we'll see how that goes.
Next update:
My homegirl is still here and this is kinda cool! I've done roommate situations before and those were okay but after those two and then had to move back with mom and my younger siblings for awhile, i vowed to never do it again. But I have to retract that statement. When you share a space with someone that knows how to respect the space, it's works out very well. We are both used to having our own space so we give each other that respect and meet in the middle for girl talk. I'm going through a pair down/downsizing of "stuff" that I have including cable. I'm going to check on what's needed for regular TV, I think I have to get some sort of box or something for regular channels. *shrug* i'll check it out. I didn't think I'd be able to make it without DirecTV. LOL! I don't miss that bill either. I need to contact them to come and get their boxes and remotes.
Hmmmm what's next?
I got a call from a past flame...how "past" you ask? Kinda recent....I thought I was cool, I was over "it" and with this new guy that just appeared that it was a sign that it was truly time to release. So when i got this call and my heart rate increased and as our conversation continued a tear drop found it's way down my face, I knew I was somewhat healed but not 100%. Man oh man.....it's definitely sometimes hard to say goodbye to yesterday. Especially when that yesterday has had your heart in his hands for so long..man! BUT the present is working out well so no long standing heart ache over here. *whew* I think the Lord knew that call was coming and knew I needed to be ready for it. Thanks God, once again! LOL!
On the professional front:
I'm signing myself up for voice lessons with Premier Vocal Coaches. I just registered, I hope I did it right so I'm waiting to hear back from them. The church media group took a tour of AIBTV studios. It's the studio that airs our church broadcast. It reignited my audio engineering fire bug AND I spoke with the Audio guy there and gave him my information and he suggested that I look into being foley. Takes me back to what my first film professor said. So I think I'm going to look into it. Contact her and see what other information she can give me. Next step is legalzoom.com for this LLC. I keep saying I'm gonna do it and don't.
Not so good update. I got back in the world of pay day loans and currently have 3 out for a total of about $300. That's $300 dollars more I could have in my pocket. Here I got again stepping backwards. *sigh* Anyway, I'll be handling that soon. Ok...oh yeah, I didn't go to my reunion this year. Just didn't feel like it. Im starting to feel like I put more energy into being around my own DNA connected folks than they do so i'm just not going to put out the extra effort or energy like I used to. If they don't really care, neither do it. point blank..period. No harm no foul...
End of the day..As the world turns, the heart speaks...and my heart says "Continue to live..." and first lady spoke yesterday on winning souls for Christ. You don't have to do anything extra just live like you have some sense. When you do that it draws people to you and THEN you can share your testimony and then invite them to your ministry. Don't pull folks from other churches, there are plenty of folks out there with no covering. So with all of that said, I need to update the way i'm living. I'm on it.
I thank God for this day, I didn't have to be here. I will be more vigilant on doing what i need to do before I leave.
*Peace and Blessings*
p.s. found out that Bobby Blue Bland passed away yesterday (Sunday, June 23rd) to honor his memory, I end with this song. RIP....
Sunday, June 16, 2013
What today means to me...
Hello World...
My last two posts dealt with me having a temper tantrum. LOL! Literally, my mindset just goes to the left sometimes. And then when i snap back, I'm like "what the hell was I thinking?"
Today..well this weekend was my 2013 Turknett Reunion - I didn't go. I couldn't do it this year. I could've bought a plane ticket a few months ago but didn't and then I said "oh i'll drive" but the closer it came, I knew my heart/soul/body was not into that 24 hour drive. Plus everything happens for a reason, if I'd left I wouldn't have been here for a friend. Sometimes friends just need to know they have support, nothing extravagant just some stability. Peace of mind is a beautiful thing. And as I type this I pray that God continues to supply that and put keep me on the mindset of stability.
Today is also Fathers day. I don't have the greatest relationship with mine but I like the fact that a connection exists. I used to try to hold onto yesteryear anger but it only held me hostage. At one point after i moved here I wrote my father a letter and told him that I forgave him and I did. I will call him once i think he's up, it's 8am in Texas right now, and tell him Happy Fathers Day.
Everything with the new "friend" is going well. Still in "getting to know/honey moon" stages so we're still giddy. i'm not saying i want it to wear off but I know it will eventually. Then again, I don't know he's such an intriguing guy, maybe it won't. I don't know but we'll see. *tee hee*
One cool thing I found out while dining out yesterday is a chef that I know, now has a cooking school which I plan on taking courses in and his classes include - How to Smoke/BBQ. OMG! That's the one thing i've always wanted to know how to do! I can do a lil something something in the kitchen but i've never been allowed near the pit when my cousins and uncles do their thang. I'm excited, I can't wait!
So what does today mean to me? It means regeneration, it means new life, it means excitement, it means....
~peace and blessings~ ;-)
My last two posts dealt with me having a temper tantrum. LOL! Literally, my mindset just goes to the left sometimes. And then when i snap back, I'm like "what the hell was I thinking?"
Today..well this weekend was my 2013 Turknett Reunion - I didn't go. I couldn't do it this year. I could've bought a plane ticket a few months ago but didn't and then I said "oh i'll drive" but the closer it came, I knew my heart/soul/body was not into that 24 hour drive. Plus everything happens for a reason, if I'd left I wouldn't have been here for a friend. Sometimes friends just need to know they have support, nothing extravagant just some stability. Peace of mind is a beautiful thing. And as I type this I pray that God continues to supply that and put keep me on the mindset of stability.
Today is also Fathers day. I don't have the greatest relationship with mine but I like the fact that a connection exists. I used to try to hold onto yesteryear anger but it only held me hostage. At one point after i moved here I wrote my father a letter and told him that I forgave him and I did. I will call him once i think he's up, it's 8am in Texas right now, and tell him Happy Fathers Day.
Everything with the new "friend" is going well. Still in "getting to know/honey moon" stages so we're still giddy. i'm not saying i want it to wear off but I know it will eventually. Then again, I don't know he's such an intriguing guy, maybe it won't. I don't know but we'll see. *tee hee*
One cool thing I found out while dining out yesterday is a chef that I know, now has a cooking school which I plan on taking courses in and his classes include - How to Smoke/BBQ. OMG! That's the one thing i've always wanted to know how to do! I can do a lil something something in the kitchen but i've never been allowed near the pit when my cousins and uncles do their thang. I'm excited, I can't wait!
So what does today mean to me? It means regeneration, it means new life, it means excitement, it means....
~peace and blessings~ ;-)
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