Hello World....
I hope your year/month/week/day is going well. This weekend is bittersweet. I am heading to celebrate the life of a cousin who was more like a big brother to me and my other cousins. He "is" part of our village and I use present tense because he will always be a part of our memories and our lives. There is a saying "It takes a village to raise a child"...and see the way our family is setup we were born into a village. My Granny, Clara Elliott, ended up having her children in sets of two and my aunt Bennie Mae was the only daughter in that first group and she got married and started having her own family which ironically coincided with my Granny's 2nd set of kids. So Aunt Bennie Mae became mom, big sister and aunt all in one and so her children became sons, daughter, niece, nephews, cousins AND surrogate big brothers and sister. (oooo lawd I'm trying to write this blog and the rush of memories are causing my eyes to uuum water....uuugh no not right now...who cries in the middle of the airport??) So I was part of the group that was born to a daughter in the second set of Elliott kiddos and even though my mom didn't have anymore babies I came into the world with big brothers and sisters thanks to our village.
(unfinished...this was started in 2016 and i never came back to finish it..it's 2020 now...)
i miss my cousin.
Love on your friends and family...always...
peace and blessings.
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Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Home for the Holidays...
Hello World!!
I went home for the Thanksgiving holidays and I had a blast!! My original plan was to drive through my home state and visit with my mom and sissies and the rebels and then proceed further north to visit with more family. But I got to my mama's house and my body said otherwise. LOL! And I took heed. We had a great time! My little people brought that extra joy as only they can and then I sent them home to their parents when it was time. LOL! We even did a family movie! We went to see Frozen, I didn't think I'd like it but it was really cool!
This one is going to be short and sweet because it was a cool time at home. I ate but not as much as I thought I would. My Nanny cooked all of the Thanksgiving faves (sweet potate pie, chess pie, pecan pie, seafood dressing, fried turkey, ham, boiled shrimp, mac and cheese) i think that's it. The only thing missing was the chocolate pecan pie. Loved it! I got to see my highschool football team win a playoff game, really cool!
I drove so I was able to do my fave stop in Mississippi...along highway 90 along the coastal waters. just beautiful! I love that part.
What's the moral of this story? No matter what, there's no place like home. ;-D
I went home for the Thanksgiving holidays and I had a blast!! My original plan was to drive through my home state and visit with my mom and sissies and the rebels and then proceed further north to visit with more family. But I got to my mama's house and my body said otherwise. LOL! And I took heed. We had a great time! My little people brought that extra joy as only they can and then I sent them home to their parents when it was time. LOL! We even did a family movie! We went to see Frozen, I didn't think I'd like it but it was really cool!
This one is going to be short and sweet because it was a cool time at home. I ate but not as much as I thought I would. My Nanny cooked all of the Thanksgiving faves (sweet potate pie, chess pie, pecan pie, seafood dressing, fried turkey, ham, boiled shrimp, mac and cheese) i think that's it. The only thing missing was the chocolate pecan pie. Loved it! I got to see my highschool football team win a playoff game, really cool!
I drove so I was able to do my fave stop in Mississippi...along highway 90 along the coastal waters. just beautiful! I love that part.
What's the moral of this story? No matter what, there's no place like home. ;-D
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
What does 2013 hold?
Hello World....
*click for theme music*
I made a trip home that i do on a regular basis. At least twice a year i'll get in my vehicle and use 12 hours each way (not including time used to visit) of my life to go see people that i'm connected to via DNA. I can tell you that it can be a hard drive BUT as a kid that did family road trips it's not hard. ANd being raised as pretty much a loner (only child for 15 years) I can do stuff by myself easier than having someone else tagging along. Stopping for gas only since I pack snacks in a cooler. I can sleep where i wanna and when i get to my destination when I can go visit whomever i want without having to worry about someone else being comfortable.
Does that make me sound cold and uncaring?
I don't think so because I'm always loving and caring to all of those around me. I always go out of my way to make sure EVERYone around me is taken care of.....in my days of lowliness and depression I simply duck out of the way of the spotlight and keep it to myself..because honestly no one REALLY wants to help. Right? or Wrong? I don't know I just sometimes feel disconnected from what's happening...people around me have ALL-ways seemed like they knew, have known what they have wanted to do in life and just picked a path and did it. Even with my skills in voice and music that I used to have, there was no REAL push or motivation in that direction besides me knowing i had to be at church. There were high schools that concentrated totally on music but no one saw fit to register me and put me in that. As a minor, how was I supposed to know about ANYthing? Especially after spending a HUGE portion of my life in a small country town.I was about as big as a toothpick and had a nice face back in the day but no one ever told me "hey! you should be a model!" *sigh*
I have two sides. 1. that loves the people that I'm connected to as DNA. i'm an only child and a lot of days in the country with my elderly granny were lonely. i cherished everyday i spent with any cousins. 2. a side that didn't really care for people because i always felt like the butt of some joke that I wasn't privy to. So i spent my life conforming to whatever everybody else was doing. Never felt like whomever i was, was good enough. It wasn't until I got waaaay older that i finally started figuring out my own personality. i have a sense of humor, a dry one. I do have a love for music, i still like to sing, i wish i hadn't let my classical piano training and flute training go to waste. I think (at the age of 40) I have finally figured out what i want to do in life. I've been in a mediocre fog just doing enough to make it through the day and pay bills and enjoy a few things here and there. At the age of 16, something in me gave up and i'd love to go back to that day and re-tap into me and get my motivation back up where it was. There was a time that i said i can do anything and no one could stop me and that's what i did. i don't like being mediocre...i don't like it at all...when i moved here i was about 200 pounds or more and I had some extra extra motivation to do something differernt, first thing was to lose weight. And i got my big, wide ass up and lost the weight AND toned up. that was 8 years ago. i've gained a little back but lost the tone. i keep saying i'm going to lose it, i start up and i don't finish. i have DVDs, i have exercise equipment, I position myself around motivational people that are consistent to try to jump start myself back into being fit. I maintain..but the true motivation is hidden somewhere in this dark muck. I can't stand it. I look in the mirror and see someone that is trying desperately to get her shit together. I just turned 40 and i'm sitting in a college classroom with babies that get it. I JUST now got it. *sigh*
I'm trying to make myself do the right thing! I don't wanna be 46 and still "trying". I like audio engineering stuff..i work with the media ministry at church (gospel tabernacle), i volunteer and hang around musicians who are actually well-known, i got software on my computer that i use to create background vocals to show my skills. i LOVE background singing, I have an ear for harmony and would love to just sing in that capacity and be on the sound board when I'm not singing. I see myself in a condo somewhere kicking it with a husband..wouldn't even mind a kid and a few doggies. (i'm a dog person) i just don't know when/where/how to get there. As a woman that has been scarred by crazy ass, controlling relationships I see relationships as a trap. that's just another issue i'm working thru. one of my biggest objectives is an apartment complex for those that are trying to get back on their feet to give them 6 mos to a year of a roof over their head and a connection back to the work force and/or school. something in me has forgotten because i've gotten bogged down with some other mental bullshit! I gotta get outta this! If i don't 2013 will not be good! i'm just saying. I will be a freakin' zombie! (i hate those movies) I gotta get back to the real Nissa and it's gotta happen soon.
I believe in God the Father Almighty, maker of heaven and earth and in Jesus Christ the only son of our Lord who was conceived by the Holy Spirit born to the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate was crucified, dead and buried. the 3rd day he arose from the dead and ascended into Heaven and sitteth on the right head of God the Father Almighty........
my fellow AME brethern/sisters recognize that statement above. I believe that God has my back but I also know that if I get in the way He can't do His part. I need to get out of my own way! I have a task to do and I neeeeeeeeed to do it!
2013 will hold me doing more for me. this trip home was less of of people hurrying to greet me and more of me moving around from place to place to greet them. the closeness and the one family unit feel is gone. No one wants to be a one unit anymore. EVERYbody is in it for themselves and effective immediately that means me too. do i miss the old family feel? yep. do i dislike the new individual feel? yep. can i control others? nope. can i control myself? yep. do i have common sense? yep. and i'm going to use it. next stop getting Nissa truly sane. 2013 will be the time of getting my saneness back and love some folks along the way but they won't be my full focus. I always try to put courage and strength in front of me, hence my Aries sign and acknowledgment. as a matter of fact, before 2012 ends, i'll have a tat of my zodiac...my first and last.
I won't be sharing this entry like I do the others, so if you're reading it you were meant to read it. Anybody that doesn't want to be in my personal space or that doesn't want them in mine..consider yourselves released. i can't do it. I won't do it. I release you with no malice towards you (makes sign of the cross). You'll have to now find someone else to laugh about in your spare time, i am no longer the butt of your cosmic joke. KK, Nissa K, Nissa, Annissa, that girl, whatever you called me is o-u-t .....out!
** I'm Okay**
Thank you Father what has happened and what is about to happen. In Jesus name...Amen!
*click for theme music*
I made a trip home that i do on a regular basis. At least twice a year i'll get in my vehicle and use 12 hours each way (not including time used to visit) of my life to go see people that i'm connected to via DNA. I can tell you that it can be a hard drive BUT as a kid that did family road trips it's not hard. ANd being raised as pretty much a loner (only child for 15 years) I can do stuff by myself easier than having someone else tagging along. Stopping for gas only since I pack snacks in a cooler. I can sleep where i wanna and when i get to my destination when I can go visit whomever i want without having to worry about someone else being comfortable.
Does that make me sound cold and uncaring?
I don't think so because I'm always loving and caring to all of those around me. I always go out of my way to make sure EVERYone around me is taken care of.....in my days of lowliness and depression I simply duck out of the way of the spotlight and keep it to myself..because honestly no one REALLY wants to help. Right? or Wrong? I don't know I just sometimes feel disconnected from what's happening...people around me have ALL-ways seemed like they knew, have known what they have wanted to do in life and just picked a path and did it. Even with my skills in voice and music that I used to have, there was no REAL push or motivation in that direction besides me knowing i had to be at church. There were high schools that concentrated totally on music but no one saw fit to register me and put me in that. As a minor, how was I supposed to know about ANYthing? Especially after spending a HUGE portion of my life in a small country town.I was about as big as a toothpick and had a nice face back in the day but no one ever told me "hey! you should be a model!" *sigh*
I have two sides. 1. that loves the people that I'm connected to as DNA. i'm an only child and a lot of days in the country with my elderly granny were lonely. i cherished everyday i spent with any cousins. 2. a side that didn't really care for people because i always felt like the butt of some joke that I wasn't privy to. So i spent my life conforming to whatever everybody else was doing. Never felt like whomever i was, was good enough. It wasn't until I got waaaay older that i finally started figuring out my own personality. i have a sense of humor, a dry one. I do have a love for music, i still like to sing, i wish i hadn't let my classical piano training and flute training go to waste. I think (at the age of 40) I have finally figured out what i want to do in life. I've been in a mediocre fog just doing enough to make it through the day and pay bills and enjoy a few things here and there. At the age of 16, something in me gave up and i'd love to go back to that day and re-tap into me and get my motivation back up where it was. There was a time that i said i can do anything and no one could stop me and that's what i did. i don't like being mediocre...i don't like it at all...when i moved here i was about 200 pounds or more and I had some extra extra motivation to do something differernt, first thing was to lose weight. And i got my big, wide ass up and lost the weight AND toned up. that was 8 years ago. i've gained a little back but lost the tone. i keep saying i'm going to lose it, i start up and i don't finish. i have DVDs, i have exercise equipment, I position myself around motivational people that are consistent to try to jump start myself back into being fit. I maintain..but the true motivation is hidden somewhere in this dark muck. I can't stand it. I look in the mirror and see someone that is trying desperately to get her shit together. I just turned 40 and i'm sitting in a college classroom with babies that get it. I JUST now got it. *sigh*
I'm trying to make myself do the right thing! I don't wanna be 46 and still "trying". I like audio engineering stuff..i work with the media ministry at church (gospel tabernacle), i volunteer and hang around musicians who are actually well-known, i got software on my computer that i use to create background vocals to show my skills. i LOVE background singing, I have an ear for harmony and would love to just sing in that capacity and be on the sound board when I'm not singing. I see myself in a condo somewhere kicking it with a husband..wouldn't even mind a kid and a few doggies. (i'm a dog person) i just don't know when/where/how to get there. As a woman that has been scarred by crazy ass, controlling relationships I see relationships as a trap. that's just another issue i'm working thru. one of my biggest objectives is an apartment complex for those that are trying to get back on their feet to give them 6 mos to a year of a roof over their head and a connection back to the work force and/or school. something in me has forgotten because i've gotten bogged down with some other mental bullshit! I gotta get outta this! If i don't 2013 will not be good! i'm just saying. I will be a freakin' zombie! (i hate those movies) I gotta get back to the real Nissa and it's gotta happen soon.
I believe in God the Father Almighty, maker of heaven and earth and in Jesus Christ the only son of our Lord who was conceived by the Holy Spirit born to the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate was crucified, dead and buried. the 3rd day he arose from the dead and ascended into Heaven and sitteth on the right head of God the Father Almighty........
my fellow AME brethern/sisters recognize that statement above. I believe that God has my back but I also know that if I get in the way He can't do His part. I need to get out of my own way! I have a task to do and I neeeeeeeeed to do it!
2013 will hold me doing more for me. this trip home was less of of people hurrying to greet me and more of me moving around from place to place to greet them. the closeness and the one family unit feel is gone. No one wants to be a one unit anymore. EVERYbody is in it for themselves and effective immediately that means me too. do i miss the old family feel? yep. do i dislike the new individual feel? yep. can i control others? nope. can i control myself? yep. do i have common sense? yep. and i'm going to use it. next stop getting Nissa truly sane. 2013 will be the time of getting my saneness back and love some folks along the way but they won't be my full focus. I always try to put courage and strength in front of me, hence my Aries sign and acknowledgment. as a matter of fact, before 2012 ends, i'll have a tat of my zodiac...my first and last.
I won't be sharing this entry like I do the others, so if you're reading it you were meant to read it. Anybody that doesn't want to be in my personal space or that doesn't want them in mine..consider yourselves released. i can't do it. I won't do it. I release you with no malice towards you (makes sign of the cross). You'll have to now find someone else to laugh about in your spare time, i am no longer the butt of your cosmic joke. KK, Nissa K, Nissa, Annissa, that girl, whatever you called me is o-u-t .....out!
** I'm Okay**
Thank you Father what has happened and what is about to happen. In Jesus name...Amen!
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Blue Collar vs White Collar
Hellooooooo Nurse! I mean World..I had a yacko, wacko, dot flashback for a second..LOL
We have some work happening over here in our business park so the construction workers take breaks at certain times for breakfast and lunch and I seem to keep walking in the same time they do. Yesterday on accident, yep today on purpose. *tee hee* So at lunch, i look up and there's this Shemar Moore (criminal minds shemar) look-alike in line with his construction clothes on and an inner smile appeared. (never let 'em see you checkin' them out) It's something about a hard working man that butters my parsnips and I'll tell you why.
So growing up in my family was interesting i learned some good and bad habits but the most important thing I learned by watching the men and women is that hard work and good work ethics pay off. I didn't get a chance to meet my grandpa John Elliott nor his twin Thomas Elliott. My grandpa died before his last child was born back in the 50s and his twin died in a drowning accident when they were teens but I saw and have benefited from his work ethics. My family has a nice piece of acreage in our hometown and my granny Clara (Turknett) Elliott made sure it stayed kept up and fit for living. She was the eldest of 10 and then had 10 of her own so taking care of others was her job, I kind of wish she'd used the same ethics towards her own health but that's another story/blog.
One thing she showed all of her kids (men especially) was to cook, clean, work hard! All of my uncles (RIP uncle john thomas, uncle theodore "brother", uncle l.c.) could cook and I mean COOK, clean a house, take care of a kid by themselves and the majority of them were/are mechanics. I didn't have to take my car to a mechanic shop until I was in my mid-twenties. All are military vets and came out with degrees, certifications, $$ investments. So guess what type of man catches my eye...yes that blue collar worker that also has that book sense to know how to take care of his family. My one uncle (and i won't put his name out there but any immediate fam will know who i'm speaking of) that didn't take the "blue collar" route is sitting so pretty due to sensible $$ investments it's ridiculous. He passed that on to his child and she's sitting pretty on her own recognizance. Common sense/book sense is GREAT combination. I digress...
So what I was saying is it's something about the man that can produce some stuff with his hands. Change my oil and then throw some meat on the grill?? I got the sides babe, no worries. and some here lemme rub your temples for you, relax daddy i gotcha.. *ahem* sorry got carried away. LOL!! It's a respect thing, really. You respect what i (the woman) bring to the table and step to the table with your part and let's do this thang! Now I'm not saying someone that is strictly white collar is a bad thing, I'm just telling you what floats my boat. Because of my upbringing, it's abnormal to me when a man would immediately call AAA if I need my tire changed. Hell, I know how to change a tire. Unless the car has some crazy, complicated tire storage/removal system...i'm getting the jack and handling it. One thing my uncles taught ALL of the ladies of the family is how to do the basics (check oil, check tire, change tire) and I thank ALL of them for that!
Blue Collar vs White Collar - based on the examples I've been shown by the men in my family..I'll take blue collar everytime. Ladies, please do you and NEVER (men too), NEVER (are you listening) settle and NEVER let someone talk you into being with someone that you know you aren't feeling or connected to. NEVER live a miserable life...it's too short. Ain't nothing like a good man!
*a moment of silence for Clara (Turknett) Elliott, John Elliott, Thomas Elliott, John Thomas Elliott, Theodore Elliott, Bennie Mae (Elliott) Hutchinson, Dr. Rev. LC Elliott.....from the bottom of my heart I thank you for your gifts into my life....thank you*
Welcome to my world and thank you for sharing...peace and blessings!
~Aries Rule~ ;-)
We have some work happening over here in our business park so the construction workers take breaks at certain times for breakfast and lunch and I seem to keep walking in the same time they do. Yesterday on accident, yep today on purpose. *tee hee* So at lunch, i look up and there's this Shemar Moore (criminal minds shemar) look-alike in line with his construction clothes on and an inner smile appeared. (never let 'em see you checkin' them out) It's something about a hard working man that butters my parsnips and I'll tell you why.
So growing up in my family was interesting i learned some good and bad habits but the most important thing I learned by watching the men and women is that hard work and good work ethics pay off. I didn't get a chance to meet my grandpa John Elliott nor his twin Thomas Elliott. My grandpa died before his last child was born back in the 50s and his twin died in a drowning accident when they were teens but I saw and have benefited from his work ethics. My family has a nice piece of acreage in our hometown and my granny Clara (Turknett) Elliott made sure it stayed kept up and fit for living. She was the eldest of 10 and then had 10 of her own so taking care of others was her job, I kind of wish she'd used the same ethics towards her own health but that's another story/blog.
One thing she showed all of her kids (men especially) was to cook, clean, work hard! All of my uncles (RIP uncle john thomas, uncle theodore "brother", uncle l.c.) could cook and I mean COOK, clean a house, take care of a kid by themselves and the majority of them were/are mechanics. I didn't have to take my car to a mechanic shop until I was in my mid-twenties. All are military vets and came out with degrees, certifications, $$ investments. So guess what type of man catches my eye...yes that blue collar worker that also has that book sense to know how to take care of his family. My one uncle (and i won't put his name out there but any immediate fam will know who i'm speaking of) that didn't take the "blue collar" route is sitting so pretty due to sensible $$ investments it's ridiculous. He passed that on to his child and she's sitting pretty on her own recognizance. Common sense/book sense is GREAT combination. I digress...
So what I was saying is it's something about the man that can produce some stuff with his hands. Change my oil and then throw some meat on the grill?? I got the sides babe, no worries. and some here lemme rub your temples for you, relax daddy i gotcha.. *ahem* sorry got carried away. LOL!! It's a respect thing, really. You respect what i (the woman) bring to the table and step to the table with your part and let's do this thang! Now I'm not saying someone that is strictly white collar is a bad thing, I'm just telling you what floats my boat. Because of my upbringing, it's abnormal to me when a man would immediately call AAA if I need my tire changed. Hell, I know how to change a tire. Unless the car has some crazy, complicated tire storage/removal system...i'm getting the jack and handling it. One thing my uncles taught ALL of the ladies of the family is how to do the basics (check oil, check tire, change tire) and I thank ALL of them for that!
Blue Collar vs White Collar - based on the examples I've been shown by the men in my family..I'll take blue collar everytime. Ladies, please do you and NEVER (men too), NEVER (are you listening) settle and NEVER let someone talk you into being with someone that you know you aren't feeling or connected to. NEVER live a miserable life...it's too short. Ain't nothing like a good man!
*a moment of silence for Clara (Turknett) Elliott, John Elliott, Thomas Elliott, John Thomas Elliott, Theodore Elliott, Bennie Mae (Elliott) Hutchinson, Dr. Rev. LC Elliott.....from the bottom of my heart I thank you for your gifts into my life....thank you*
Welcome to my world and thank you for sharing...peace and blessings!
~Aries Rule~ ;-)
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