As the heart speaks...

Hello World...

It has been umpteen days since my last post and a lot of stuff has happened. So let's get to it.

First update:
My new friend and I are trudging along BUT i'm noticing I may have attracted yet another hard working entrepreneur who may have bitten off more than he can chew.  Either that or the Lord is trying to tell me to be patient.  Business owners have crazy schedules and have to be on alert at all times.  The step is to get the business up and eventually get staff that can effectively and efficiently run it..but until then he/she has to be there everyday.  I'm more hands on, like to date, not every weekend but some quality time is needed.  And not a quick hour here or there after work/on the way home. *sigh* I don't know...but I'm not stressing about it either.  I know how to remove myself from something when I start feeling unwanted.  One day you see me, the next day you don't. Simple as that.  So we'll see how that goes.

Next update:
My homegirl is still here and this is kinda cool! I've done roommate situations before and those were okay but after those two and then had to move back with mom and my younger siblings for awhile, i vowed to never do it again.  But I have to retract that statement.  When you share a space with someone that knows how to respect the space, it's works out very well.  We are both used to having our own space so we give each other that respect and meet in the middle for girl talk.  I'm going through a pair down/downsizing of "stuff" that I have including cable.  I'm going to check on what's needed for regular TV, I think I have to get some sort of box or something for regular channels. *shrug* i'll check it out.  I didn't think I'd be able to make it without DirecTV. LOL! I don't miss that bill either.  I need to contact them to come and get their boxes and remotes.

Hmmmm what's next?

I got a call from a past flame...how "past" you ask? Kinda recent....I thought I was cool, I was over "it" and with this new guy that just appeared that it was a sign that it was truly time to release.  So when i got this call and my heart rate increased and as our conversation continued a tear drop found it's way down my face, I knew I was somewhat healed but not 100%.  Man oh man.....it's definitely sometimes hard to say goodbye to yesterday.  Especially when that yesterday has had your heart in his hands for so long..man!  BUT the present is working out well so no long standing heart ache over here. *whew*  I think the Lord knew that call was coming and knew I needed to be ready for it. Thanks God, once again! LOL!

On the professional front:
I'm signing myself up for voice lessons with Premier Vocal Coaches.  I just registered, I hope I did it right so I'm waiting to hear back from them.  The church media group took a tour of AIBTV studios.  It's the studio that airs our church broadcast. It reignited my audio engineering fire bug AND I spoke with the Audio guy there and gave him my information and he suggested that I look into being  foley.  Takes me back to what my first film professor said.  So I think I'm going to look into it.  Contact her and see what other information she can give me.  Next step is legalzoom.com for this LLC.  I keep saying I'm gonna do it and don't.

Not so good update.  I got back in the world of pay day loans and currently have 3 out for a total of about $300.  That's $300 dollars more I could have in my pocket.  Here I got again stepping backwards. *sigh*  Anyway, I'll be handling that soon.  Ok...oh yeah, I didn't go to my reunion this year. Just didn't feel like it.  Im starting to feel like I put more energy into being around my own DNA connected folks than they do so i'm just not going to put out the extra effort or energy like I used to.  If they don't really care, neither do it. point blank..period. No harm no foul...

End of the day..As the world turns, the heart speaks...and my heart says "Continue to live..." and first lady spoke yesterday on winning souls for Christ.  You don't have to do anything extra just live like you have some sense.  When you do that it draws people to you and THEN you can share your testimony and then invite them to your ministry.  Don't pull folks from other churches, there are plenty of folks out there with no covering.  So with all of that said, I need to update the way i'm living.  I'm on it.

I thank God for this day, I didn't have to be here. I will be more vigilant on doing what i need to do before I leave.

*Peace and Blessings*

p.s. found out that Bobby Blue Bland passed away yesterday (Sunday, June 23rd) to honor his memory, I end with this song.   RIP....

It's a been a long time...

Hello World:

Copying one of my fave hip hop lyrics "it's been a long time..."

I haven't had anything just really really awesome happen to me...uuh i'm still working at the same company, still worshipping at Gospel Tabernacle and still have no funds or a plan b for school attendance.  I am now having to start paying back Sallie Mae since i'm not in school and all of the scholarships that i applied for via Georgia State went to someone else.

I don't know, it seems like I was supposed to be there, the Lord opened doors to get me into the school of music for the Sound Engineering part and then i look up and the Federal Loan folks are telling me i'm now out of money for school.  Oh yes, they raise tuition but don't give us extra money for the increase so we can finish. well i guess that's what i get for not going to school when i should have.

I'm starting to feel the presence of "not giving a damn". i'm starting to feel boxed into the matrix, so i get to watch my friends "live" and I'm just existing. Not a good feeling.

On a personal level, I met someone.  I was casually running errands when I walked into a store to purchase some items and the cashier caught my eye immediately. I was thinking "ok Nissa, he's really nice to look at." Now the thing was he was standing behind a glass area so i only saw him from the chest up, however the boulders popping out of the shirt he was wearing and his face had my attention. LOL!  So I didn't flirt outright but i struck up a casual conversation and found out he owned the store and lived in Douglasville. i'm thinking "hmm ok..."so I turn to walk out and he gets my attention again and gives me his number. HAAA!! As I was trying to look casual even though i was jumping up and down in my head and get in the car, he just happened to need to come outside to sweep the parking lot and oh my gawd! Yes Lord! Thank you! Loved what I saw!!!!!

that was 2 weeks ago.  The convo is nice and i'm just slowly getting to know him.  He's a single dad and the relationship between he and his son's mom is amicable. I'm noticing that my feelings of dating someone with kids has changed.  At this point, i'm not really concentrating on that part because, hell i've only known him for two weeks and i'm not one of those females that have already picked out the wedding dress and picked a wedding date because I meet someone I like.  Anyway i'm having  good time and we'll see where this goes. *cheese*

So at the end of this blog i normally take the time to encourage the reader along with myself....sooooo I'll say that I will continue to uplift myself mentally and YOU do the same.  My next step to do is voice lessons so I'll get right on that and do better about going to church....ugh..that's another blog all together! HAAAA!!!

Peace and Blessings....

and i'll leave you with this tune...and this one oh yes and this one


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