This shit is for the birds...

 Hello World.....

If I had the guts....I would....

If I had the guts.... I could....

But I don't... I'm a coward...

There i said it ...I fukkd up my life....

And Im too old to fix it...I'm half of 100....

No kids...no career aspirations....

No great idea or skill .... back single again....

I mean what's better... being single? OR being someone's after thought?

I was stressing for a minute but then I thought..."girl why are you stressing to hurry and be an after thought? To be an option? Saddown."

So I sat my azz down 🤣🙄

I'm still having health issues from the mold but can't find the right legal representation.  I owe people...I'm scraping to pay rent every month. It's crazy!! I'm depressed and"broke " but don't have the capacity to leave this world.... voluntarily.  I had to cut my hair because it was literally coming out in my hands.  Lucky for me talking to my chiropractor, I have it narrowed down to low adrenal and thyroid gland levels. There is a plan in place to handle that. #fingerscrossed 

In the meantime, I'm not a fan of Nissa.....I fukkd up and there's no way to fix it...I made wrong choices. I don't like it here...at all.

In conclusion.....

This shit is for the birds....

hello world.....Divvy Homes

 Hello world....

Update:

08/18/2023

At this point, Divvy Homes have sent the HVAC vendor back to update the AC systems by adding a sensor so that the upstairs was properly ventilated.  So basically because they didn't do the proper inspections, they didn't realize that the AC system was not setup correctly for two-story property.  in my Khaled voice (AND ANOTHER ONE).  They refunded me for the air purifiers by applying the amount to my rent BUT i need to be refunded for all of the extra money that I've had to pay by going to specialists.  I now have a new bronchial issue too?  oh yeah, i'm trying to figure out what attorney to contact.  It's going to happen.  I'ma need to get my whole life back together, i will not forever have to take theraflu and eat cough drops and take puffs of albuteral to survive outside and not cough my damn food up.  Tha FUK????

my face looks back to normal but my hair literally started falling out even more....it's not over.

Update:

6/01/2023

Divvy Homes is so wrong for this. I now have a crazy breathing issue. My throat is always tight, my breathing is always labored and my voice is still not right. I can't do anything without going into a whole breathing attack.  I've NEVER had breathing issues...so whatever this crap is that I inhaled at 122 Hudson bridge court has fukkd me up!!! I gotta make sure I let the allergist know at my follow-up appointment.  This is nuts but they want my $1800 every month though!! I damn near died in that townhouse.  They still need to send someone to clear the AC Vents. I'm so mad right now....every time I take a labored breath I'm mad!  I need to get an attorney to handle everything quick!

Ok... gotta go "make the donuts".

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Update:

4/17/2023 update:

So I was feeling crazy this past week, face still swollen, light headed, coughing, barely breathing.  I finally took myself to the Urgent Care on Thursday.  The doctor did a chest x-ray and put me on a regiment of steroids and a few other allergy deterrent.  I'm currently on day 4 of the steroids and the side effects are crazy.  I go from sleepy to hyper.  I'm definitely feeling better, the swelling is pretty much gone.

The air quality tech came to test this past Friday.  I should get results by this Tuesday (4.18.23) at the latest.  I pray we get answers because i can't go through the swelling again and I can't live off of steroids.

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I got the lab results back today!  There is mold present in this home as I have been saying.  I have just forwarded the results as well as invoices to have my rent adjusted less the additional monies that I have had to pay to troubleshoot the issues in here.  My health has been affected!  Thank goodness I do not have to go into the office otherwise, I would be SOL.  I'm now waiting for a response from Divvy Homes.  Next up is the legal path if common sense doesn't prevail.

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I think Divvy Homes is trying to take me out of here.  If you've followed me, you know from Nov 2022, the landlord of my previous home decided to do something else with the property and I was forced to move.  I decided to buy a home but my credit status veered me to the path of lease to own.  My realtor connected me with Divvy Homes which is a company that assists with buying a property OR they already own a property ready to move in.  

The way that everything happened with me, I ended up buying a property they already owned.  Upon seeing the home with my realtor, everything looked above board.  Their process of due diligence they test for EVERYthing.  I moved into this new spot the first week of Feb 2023 and by the 2nd week, i noticed my face being swollen in the mornings.   I have asked them to do a mold test to clean my air ducts and they threw all of that back on me.  Saying I am responsible for that.  I've now paid for a mold test and now I've purchased two air purifiers.  I'm visiting doctors to get tests run to figure out what my body is going through, my fair, my hands, my legs.  Now I'm dealing with dizziness, with headaches.  It's a shame.  I just wanna be in my own space and relax but now I went from having to stressfully move from a place to a place that is making me ill.

I'm going to see about getting the air ducts cleaned and then the next step is an attorney.  I am possibly breathing in black mold everyday/every night and Divvy Homes doesn't give not one good damn.

stay tuned for more...

4.07.2023

Hello world....another run around the sun... #AriesNation

 Hello World....

I've got a new age!  I'm now 51!  Aries nation and all of that however...This year is a little different though.  If you know me, you know I roll with TLA tough!  ONe of the ladies that was close with, that encouraged me passed away on her birthday!  My friend Sonta - 3/17/72 to 3/17/23 - she'd just turned 51, we are 4 days apart.

I've only lost one other friend and it's been awhile but this one hit me hard.  So this birthday was dampened in spirit. I did have a party at a karaoke spot and planned on my house warming this past Saturday but cancelled it due to my friend's funeral service.

I will say this...take care of your health folks....age ain't nothing but a number...and you can ben here today and gone tomorrow.  Take care of yourself.

C'est la vie....

~~nissa k ~~

Hello World....The post-move crisis/other side of through

 Hello World!

My last post spoke of the move and showed the damage to my car.  I spoke wanting to get on the other side of through.  Well, I was on my way to the new house, I ended up in Stockbridge.  I would've never thought to move this far south.  I do like the new place and the area BUT about a week after moving here i noticed some health issues.  the first thought "MOLD"... O_O tha fuk??? i'm doing my medical due diligence as well as making sure I can take remedy steps in the house to fix it.  I went from being 100% to WTF waking up with swollen face, hands, stiff knees.  I'm in talks with my current "landlord" as well.  We gone fix this shit immediately!!

I'm working on it.....OH BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE!!

it's good news no worries.....I GOT A MAAAAAN y'all.....LOL....long story short:

I'm at the old spot, working on something in my office area, i get a phone call, he's still saved in my phone so I answered it friendly-like.  we have a real cool convo about this movie he's watching and the woman's eyes reminded him of me. He asks what i've been up to and I tell him everything, not because I'm looking for help but because as previously posted, I was tired y'all. (see 1/26 post)  Fast forward, he ends up assisting big time in my move in the old spot and new spot.  So we've decided to give it a new try, 10 years later.  we're both different folks with different lives/personalities.  I'm excited. ;-).

I've been meaning to update everything but I keep forgetting to put my laptop in a convenient spot.  I'll do better with updating.

Oh yes 1 more thing!  I have a podcast now with my 3rd coast friend (Kwana King) called "The Ladies Den" - We stream live every Thursday at 7p EST.  You can follow on YouTube and Facebook.

That's about it for now.  Life ain't bad these days....I'm getting some stuff fixed pronto!

See you soon!

~~Nissa K~~

On the other side of through....

 Hello World....

With all of the craziness going on, I just want to get to the "other side of through".  I'm 90% sure that I have a new place to live.  It's a lot of money going out with the move and then my car but I think I'm almost to the other side of this...I can feel it happening.

I'll just thank the ancestors right now and continue working/packing.

Peace and love...love and peace...I'm out!

Hello World....It's a new year....2023

 Hello World!

Who knew that the next time I would journal would be a whole year later!  Wow!  I've had aLOT going on in 2022.  The job is ok, I will say that.  On a personal level:

My health is still "ok".  No more reproductive issues, the procedure that I had in January took care of that. I am in menopause tho and that's not fun at all.  Especially trying to sleep at night and sometimes when moving around during the day.  I do still have the hyperthyroid issue, it's making my hair thin out.....like REALLY thin out.  It's crazy when I look back at pictures to see who much it's currently thinned out.  Presently, I wear more wigs to cover versus any braids or pony tail/puff ball attachments.  I have used several hair growth products and at first they seemed to be working but I don't think so.  There is this one process that I had looked into that measure the hormones or something. I stopped the process but I'd like to look into it again.  It may open up some doors.

Secondly, our townhome building got sold and the new owner originally said he wouldn't do anything for the year, then November 2022 he gave all of the residents a notice to vacate.  All of us had been here for YEARS so giving us 60 days to 1. pack all of our belongings 2. Find somewhere to live.  That's not a fair thing to do.  Now he did say that he would give us the month of January if needed, we'd have to pay rent BUT we'd have that extra time.  So I said to myself "self, we are going to buy a house." here's the kicker, I was planning to buy one later, like start June 2023 but it got pushed up waaay early.  So I'd already contacted my realtor friend who has a brokerage and she immediately put me in contact with her team.  So I contacted her once we got the notice to vacate and we started into action.  My credit score was NOT where I wanted it to be to handle THIS, so I had to do some quick tricks to get it to a certain point.  I ended up going through this lease to own program.  I'd heard about them but hadn't REALLY looked into it.  I teamed up with my realtor team and we looked for houses.  Mostly doing online searches and picking the ones that fit my budget and the qualifications of the program.  I finally found one and just recently put an offer in and TODAY 1.4.23 it was accepted.  Now the next steps are for the company (Divvy Homes) to do all of their due diligence and with every box checked, I will close on 1.20.23.  It will be a move to a different county, a little further south but not too far from the office AND it's about the same distance to the airport, maybe 5 minutes more.

I am excited!  I will be a first time home owner! At 50....a 1st time home buyer.  To be honest, I didn't WANT to buy a house until now.  This time around because of the way that this building got bought I said that I NEVER want to be put into this situation again where I was at the mercy of another individual to tell me to get out.  So I said this time, I'm buying....and I am.

I celebrate in advance!  I thank the Universe in advance!  I'd already reached out to my interior design friends to be on the lookout for me.  Lord, now I have to order more curtains. Geesh!  I'm going to wait until we get closer to closing to make any major moves.  Thank you Jesus!

I'll actually come back and do an update.  Lemme get my housewarming list together on Amazon. :-D

that is it for now...

Thank you for reading.