Hello World....
I hope your year/month/week/day is going well. This weekend is bittersweet. I am heading to celebrate the life of a cousin who was more like a big brother to me and my other cousins. He "is" part of our village and I use present tense because he will always be a part of our memories and our lives. There is a saying "It takes a village to raise a child"...and see the way our family is setup we were born into a village. My Granny, Clara Elliott, ended up having her children in sets of two and my aunt Bennie Mae was the only daughter in that first group and she got married and started having her own family which ironically coincided with my Granny's 2nd set of kids. So Aunt Bennie Mae became mom, big sister and aunt all in one and so her children became sons, daughter, niece, nephews, cousins AND surrogate big brothers and sister. (oooo lawd I'm trying to write this blog and the rush of memories are causing my eyes to uuum water....uuugh no not right now...who cries in the middle of the airport??) So I was part of the group that was born to a daughter in the second set of Elliott kiddos and even though my mom didn't have anymore babies I came into the world with big brothers and sisters thanks to our village.
(unfinished...this was started in 2016 and i never came back to finish it..it's 2020 now...)
i miss my cousin.
Love on your friends and family...always...
peace and blessings.
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
You must be this tall....
Hello World...
I was just speaking with a friend about blogging and they asked "you haven't posted anything, why?" and my response was that I hadn't been motivated to write about anything. And THEN I saw this hilarious kermit meme (you know we love Kermy) about wives really know where their husbands are and of course he drinks tea at the end. I shared it on my wall, not because I really and truly believe it BUT watching my male cousins grow up and other male figures do their thing I can say that uuuh yes part of me totally understands the statement. It's life.
I was just speaking with a friend about blogging and they asked "you haven't posted anything, why?" and my response was that I hadn't been motivated to write about anything. And THEN I saw this hilarious kermit meme (you know we love Kermy) about wives really know where their husbands are and of course he drinks tea at the end. I shared it on my wall, not because I really and truly believe it BUT watching my male cousins grow up and other male figures do their thing I can say that uuuh yes part of me totally understands the statement. It's life.
I'm sorry ladies it is what it is. We want to think that we automatically get the same level of love and respect back that we give out but it's not always true. And then I saw a web site or a FB profile name (or something) that was entitled "you have to be this tall to ride this ride". I was immediately motivated to write something.
You probably think this is in reference to height...naw not really. Now a few years ago...lol..probably. I was convinced "him" towering over (or not) was a deal breaker..but uuh....ya get older, you get a little wiser and you realize what's important. So the context of "you must be this tall" has to do with wisdom. Any man coming in my direction talking that slick, fast stuff that works for ANY youngster has to keep it moving. And these days you'd think that the older men are coming at you with wisdom but since the young ladies (using the term loosely) seem to be going after the seasoned ones these day the older men are brushing up on their "game" and sadly making the assumption that what worked on the 20 year olds can work on the 35 and up! (i probably didn't use enough punctuation in that thought.) And the grown ladies have to stop them and say "uuum no sweetie, you're speaking to the wrong generation. let's chit chat about your life plan. let's chit chat about your gift to the next generation. let's chit chat about music. let's chit chat about some hobbies, about how many passport stamps to get. let's talk about something with substance. I'm not the one to turnup 24/7."
Fellas.....respect your ladies the same way we respect YOU! You must be THIS tall to ride this ride. I need your wisdom, your respect, your leadership, your humbleness, your heart. If you constanly down us the reaction is to do the same to you or just to ignore you so that we avoid being disrespectful to our kings. I love my kings TOO much to count you out....so just be good to us and we'll be good to you. You scratch our backs and we got yours!
We are in a Crisis...
Hello World....
I've been thinking about a new blog post but my mind was not still enough to put thoughts to screen. We are currently in a crisis across the world. There is a virus spreading being coined the "corona virus" or "Covid19". It's an off the charts upper respiratory virus. It was first being considered an extreme flu-type bug, who knows what it really is. The government decided to give us a lil change one-time. The entire bill is work $2Trillion i think. They could easily give us all about $100K maybe even $200K, there are about 325M people in the US, it would be a drop in the bucket. But hey, too much power to the little people, right?
I think it's man-made from several viruses and it was either released on purpose or stolen and spilled on accident.
I know of one person that I personally know who has passed away from Covid19 complications, very sad. Who knew that the last time I saw him during the holidays would have been the last time. This motivates me even more to continue with connecting with my friends and family when I can.
Im definitely contacting the parentals AND my sisters. Both of them are not in 100% health.
As I said in a previous post, I am enjoying the moment in my private life. This guy is the coolest, breath of fresh air that I've encountered in a long time. We laugh about silly stuff, discuss sci fi and fantasy like it's real world...lol...and the intimacy is O_O yes gawd!! HA!!
Definitely protected...my lady parts are still working somewhat so I don't need any late pregnancy scares NOR do I need any medical complications if my body attempted to go through the process and it didn't work well.
Anyway, the state of Georgia is still in a sort of quarantine lockdown. Only essential businesses are open. Those that have to move about only have from 7a to 9p. Our liquor stores in East Point are closed but our corner store does have beer and wine and some "rock gut" liquor. The stuff that we used to buy as naive youngsters because it was cheap...i'm talking madd dog 20/20, strawberry hill boonesfarm, thunderbird....ooo...i get a headache just typing the names.
So yeah well...everyone that can is working from home. I'm able to work from home...thank God. I go into the office when I need to if someone needs something notarized.
Welp...I need to get back to work...just one thing I need to say though.....to be perfectly honest, if i developed the virus and was no longer here...i really wouldn't mind. I have a DNR in place so if I flat line they can't bring me back. I'm tired anyway, I keep fucking up simple shit almost like self-sabotage on a regular basis. It's like I don't want to see myself happy as if I don't deserve it. I don't know where this self-loathing comes from but it's there and I can't hide from it. I think I'd be better off gone honestly. No longer a bother to anyone. Hell I couldn't even give my mom and dad offspring to carry their DNA....once i'm gone their DNA connection through me is gone for good.
ok well...lemme get back to work. I pray that everything goes ok.
p.s.
my birthday was a few weeks ago....i did my best to celebrate...baked a cake...celebrated at the house...my new like interest was here..we had a good time. I'll never forget "48". for sure.
I've been thinking about a new blog post but my mind was not still enough to put thoughts to screen. We are currently in a crisis across the world. There is a virus spreading being coined the "corona virus" or "Covid19". It's an off the charts upper respiratory virus. It was first being considered an extreme flu-type bug, who knows what it really is. The government decided to give us a lil change one-time. The entire bill is work $2Trillion i think. They could easily give us all about $100K maybe even $200K, there are about 325M people in the US, it would be a drop in the bucket. But hey, too much power to the little people, right?
I think it's man-made from several viruses and it was either released on purpose or stolen and spilled on accident.
I know of one person that I personally know who has passed away from Covid19 complications, very sad. Who knew that the last time I saw him during the holidays would have been the last time. This motivates me even more to continue with connecting with my friends and family when I can.
Im definitely contacting the parentals AND my sisters. Both of them are not in 100% health.
As I said in a previous post, I am enjoying the moment in my private life. This guy is the coolest, breath of fresh air that I've encountered in a long time. We laugh about silly stuff, discuss sci fi and fantasy like it's real world...lol...and the intimacy is O_O yes gawd!! HA!!
Definitely protected...my lady parts are still working somewhat so I don't need any late pregnancy scares NOR do I need any medical complications if my body attempted to go through the process and it didn't work well.
Anyway, the state of Georgia is still in a sort of quarantine lockdown. Only essential businesses are open. Those that have to move about only have from 7a to 9p. Our liquor stores in East Point are closed but our corner store does have beer and wine and some "rock gut" liquor. The stuff that we used to buy as naive youngsters because it was cheap...i'm talking madd dog 20/20, strawberry hill boonesfarm, thunderbird....ooo...i get a headache just typing the names.
So yeah well...everyone that can is working from home. I'm able to work from home...thank God. I go into the office when I need to if someone needs something notarized.
Welp...I need to get back to work...just one thing I need to say though.....to be perfectly honest, if i developed the virus and was no longer here...i really wouldn't mind. I have a DNR in place so if I flat line they can't bring me back. I'm tired anyway, I keep fucking up simple shit almost like self-sabotage on a regular basis. It's like I don't want to see myself happy as if I don't deserve it. I don't know where this self-loathing comes from but it's there and I can't hide from it. I think I'd be better off gone honestly. No longer a bother to anyone. Hell I couldn't even give my mom and dad offspring to carry their DNA....once i'm gone their DNA connection through me is gone for good.
ok well...lemme get back to work. I pray that everything goes ok.
p.s.
my birthday was a few weeks ago....i did my best to celebrate...baked a cake...celebrated at the house...my new like interest was here..we had a good time. I'll never forget "48". for sure.
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