Let's Get It Started....

Hello World...

2014 was not as grand as I'd liked it.  I had some things to happen but not as many objectives met as I'd liked.  Totally my fault.  But there were some awesome events that I can smile about.  I became MORE active in modeling, I even have a new website which showcases some past photoshoots as well as modeling gigs I participated in you can view that here.  My singing...aaaah not some much.  I'm back in touch with my vocal coach but I need to reactivate everything.  One of my sisters got married..it was a BE-autiful ceremony!  Everything else has gone o-kay.  Not fabulous but o-kay.  I have learned how to walk in 3 inch heels (kinda) LOL.  Thanks to the Tina Bridges monthly class, not only can I walk in them but I'm learning to walk like a model should.  This year will be better than last year. LOL!

So for 2015...heeey in my MC Hammer voice "Let's Get It Started"....

The Christmas/New Year holidays were interesting.  I spent Christmas Day in the hospital with my mom, she had a planned procedure that had complications which prolonged her stay.  Thankfully I left her at home today (1/1/15) and feeling fine! Praise God!

I had some meaningful convesations with girlfriends and came out of it with a renewed mindset.  What is a friend?  You know, a real friend, I mean a real real friend doesn't need to be coddled and stroked everyday, that is the definition/description of someone that needs attention or an attention seeker.  Apparently my personality doesn't support those types so they excuse themselves..which is good because even though i'm a GREAT listener and can give input if wanted, I don't have time for back to back negativity and whining.  It's very very draining.  So...yeah..as one of my younger cousins said in a FB post "Not every person you lose is a loss." So true, so true indeed!

For 2015...more social media marketing.  EADWM is taking off, I have several new projects underway, I'm very very excited about my food review company.  AND of course getting ready for the SHE Created iT annual February event, be on the lookout for flyers and information for this awesome event.  One other organization that I'm part of as Women With Gifts, headed up by Lanette Kincaid.  This entails uplifting women and their gifts (hence the name).  I'm doing some social media marketing for an upcoming event in March called "I survived". This event is to support those that are survivors of sexual abuse, domestic violence and breast cancer; you can purchase your tickets here.  I will be in Texas for that event. So not only do I plan on doing more online events but also more traveling, domestic and international.  I plan on staying involved in whatever is going on.

There is a LOT on the plate but I have created my vision wall and will be checking off items on a regular basis.  And OMG one of my friends brought back some memories of my entrepreneural days!  NO details right now but let's just say that some business ideas that were tucked away in the drawer have been pulled out.  I'm excited!  More to come soon!!

The motivational part of this blog entry is this:
Continue forward, 2014 may have included some backwards AND forwards movement.  That's okay, Don't beat yourself up about it because there's NOthing you can do about it.  The only thing you can do is figure out the next step and that should be easy with Universal guidance.  If you meditate and pay attention, you'll hear the answer.  That's one thing I plan on adding into my daily routine is meditation.  I've never done it before but I know it would help calm my mind and keep me grounded.

In the words of a witty flight attendant:  For those that paid attention to the safety instructions, "thank you"; to those that chose not to pay attention "Good luck".

Peace and Blessings....

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Happy New Year!!!

Hello World...

Happy New Year!!!

The sermon at our celebration service was "How can I get you to stretch?", Bishop preached out of Isaiah 55:15-20.    Bottom line, instead of living life in the mediocre...stretch out your faith and live life in the supernatural overflow.  Let that be your normal way of living.  I had been praying about just this! Nothing like getting confirmation!!

I ran across a sign on FB that says something about having 365 pages to write a new story. I brought it in celebrating life and then my day one started with me cooking a meal and taking it to "Mr. Man" at work and sat down and chit chatted with him at his store. :-) Yep, my first time cooking for Mr. Man...going into 8 months...he ate it all...pages 3-365 will be off tha chain!  Page 2: I launched my website last night, annissakaye.wix.com/eatandrinkwithme - honest food reviews only. I'll tell ya if I like it or not.  Service AND food. Check out the blog too - eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com.

I vow to stretch...starting with tithing with no thought....and trusting God to do the rest. that's it.  Bishop mentioned how simple it was to receive blessings when we were either broke with no job or getting paid very little. Our faith was SOOOO BIG!  Then when we get blessed, we forget and start doing stuff our way and then wonder why things go wrong.

I vow to physically stretch too.  I've actually stopped and I can FEEL the difference!  My poor muscles are all bunched up!  I will definitely do better!

No longer living in the mediocre - Not anymore...not over here!

Moral of this story:  Happy New Year - S-T-R-E-T-C-H out your faith....don't question the Universer/God/Allah...just do it!!

Peace and Blessings...

~Are you a female blogger? Are you a female working in the arts? Check out these two support organizations: Women With Gifts   SHECreatediT ~

We gon' see...

Hello World:

Well it's the new year! And i know people always come out with resolutions and stuff! Weight loss, better attitude or just the "This is my year" statement! LOL!

I always pop up with the "better attitude" statement.  I usually make a HUGE statement about what i'm going to do and be positive and a WHOLE bunch of stuff.  You don't believe me? Checkout my early 2013 posts. LOL!  Yep I was determined to be positive all throughout the year I was determined...yup but still making not so smart decisions....and by the latter part of 2013, I could tell shit might not be good at some point.

WELL guess what?  2014 is around the corner and to my naked eye, shit ain't looking good!!  Now on one side, I have recorded a couple of songs...but i didn't do ANY open mic performances. I never got the courage. At one point, i took a few voice lessons but couldn't continue them due to lack of $$.  I even did a few audio engineer type sessions but it was an hour away and so due to distance that didn't continue.  I'm sure dude will contact me again soon, I have his microphone. He let me use it to record songs. I even did a voice workshop with one of the industry's baddest vocalist, Keisha Jackson. Yup daughter of Millie Jackson and a sanging beast in her own right. Yup, I did but uuuh that didn't go anywhere.  I did join a church and celebrated a year there. I'm part of the Media Ministry.  I don't study the equipment like I need to since I'm no longer at school...oh yes, I didn't mention that part.  I found out that I no longer have student loan $$ available for school, so my journey at Ga State in the Film and Video program is definitely on pause, could be permanent pause.  I'm not sure but i DO know that I now have to start paying back loans..for me it's waaaay ahead of schedule.  On top of that the 9 to 5 that has been part of Atlanta life since my move here is starting to bore me.  Have I told 'em yet? Yep, kinda. So 2014 may also include a job change.  I'm slipping on taking care of my vehicle. And it's not even major stuff, just need to get the front brakes done and get a couple of new tires.  I did some research this last week and front & back brakes (with a mechanic putting own) plus two tires would cost me about $200.  An amount I'd easily have had I not gotten back into the payday loan rat race.  Oh I didn't mention that yet did I? Yep, like I said shit ain't looking good for me.

One good thing, I took my love for food review to a different level.  I now have a logo and food blog for my company Eat and Drink With Me.  Consumers can get to it via social media (FB, Twitter, Instagram) and I'm launching the official website 1-1-14.  I'm still working out how to get paid for reviewing food. LOL. Paying for it out of the pocket isn't going to work for too much longer.  So I do have at least one ray of sunshine in my life..something that I haven't messed up.

I often wonder if I'd had a kid by now, if that would have forced me to do better since someone else's life was depending on me.  I'm not sure. Sometimes I think "yes" sometimes "no". Since I haven't one yet (at 41) I couldn't tell ya.  I do know one thing, at 41, $$ definitely ain't like it should be. Hell my life isn't anything like I'd planned. I used to dream in color and literally I was singing with some group that I could never figure out who they were, but the harmony was so beautiful....I haven't had that type of dream in a long time!  I think it's finally too late.

You see the title of my post?  Yep that's where I am now.  I'm going to keep pushing forward but to my naked eye shit don't look good.  But because there is still a part of me that has mustard seed faith, I don't think I'll ever "end it all" and that little part of me also just keeps pushing forward.  Hope resides there.  Faith resides there.  Just that lil glimmer is there.  And that part of me is saying "We gon' see".  We gon' see, we gon' see, oh wait that's some country slang. We are going to see what happens, we are going to see what happens, we are going to see what happens.  There is still a special someone in my life but uuuuh with my decision-making skills being the way that they are, it's very possible that he'll back away slowly.  It's been 7 months and now comes the getting to see the real person part of it.  He may not like the real me...hell I may not like what I find out about him.  But as the title of my post says We gon' see!

Normally I have a positive ending to inspire YOU (the reader) but that's not going to happen this time.  I can tell you Happy Kwanzaa and that today's celebration point is:

Ujamaa (Cooperative Economics): To build and maintain our own stores, shops, and other businesses and to profit from them together.

Hmmmmm maybe I did just uplift.  If not you, definitely myself.  I am going to try my damndest to keep it together for 2014.  To make the right decisions and be a better Me. (oops i did it!) LOL!  But I'm serious though.  Do you ever have those moments where you see yourself making a decision and part of you is saying "uuuh you're going to regret this later..." and then you do regret it later. Yup. Those moments...I've had them a lot!  

I need you Father, I need you in my life, in my spiritual ear at all times! Lord I need you to guide me in the right direction! In Jesus name, amen!

Ok this is it! Oh speaking of "This Is It" - I will be doing a food review at This Is It BBQ and Seafood - Campcreek location for New Years!  Feel free to join me on that #dineandreview adventure!  ;-)  (see how quick i came out of that funk?)  LOL! And that's what I'm talking about. I think about all of the crazy ass decisions I've made and start getting depressed and then I remind myself of the positive decisions I've made and life looks better.  I don't know.  I do know that I've set some things in motion that may not have the greatest turn out so uuum just stay tuned to what the hayal is about to happen in my world. LOL..but not really if you know what I mean.  Oh I didn't even get started on my crazy family and what they are doing or should I say not doing about the land that my grandparents left "us".  I tell ya what, money or the lack thereof, brings out the best in people.  Geesh! O_o

Thank you for entertaining "Hello World".

What is 2014 going to be like?

Hello World....

I'm really really really psyched about some new things that are under way in my life...Totally new mindset, new attitude, new actions...no more fear, no more failure due to "what-if I don't..."what-if I can't" - it's crazy because if I never do it I'll never know! I'll be 42 in a few months and I feel like I am in a repeated vicious cycle.  Yep, it's like I've been here before.  Making some crazy azz decisions leading to some crazy azz events..some have happened, some have not...i don't even wanna know what's about to happen!!

HAA!! Well the other day as I was listening to one of my fave line dancing/happy-go-lucky songs by Ne-yo "Champagne Life" I heard part of the lyrics in a different light for the first time ever "addicted to life, where dreams and reality are one-in-the same.." I realized that I'd lost my zeal, my addiction for life, my light was starting to fade and to be real about it, I was starting to look for a way out.  A permanent one.  This is going to be a new transition, a good pace though, nothing too fast and nothing slow.

I have my "Hello World" blog(which you are reading now) that i try to log into on a somewhat consistent basis just as an outlet to verbalize thoughts.  Sometimes to help me, sometimes to help others.  I also NOW have a new dining blog which you can check out at http://eatandrinkwithme.blogspot.com - I also have a FB page of the same name.  Feel free to check me out..i hope to take this blog to the next level.  Two things i love to do, eat and then write about it! LOL!

I am still  entertaining "Mr. Man" but I'm still playing this by ear.  You know how it is when you've dealt with stupidity in past relationships?  This wall goes up and then you either turn bitter or take a break and then jump back in with your fingers crossed and hope for the best.  Well I'm the latter, my fingers are crossed and I'm hoping that I don't overlook signs and end up staying in something that needs to end.  I think i'm just hoping that my meter isn't broken when it comes to my own relationship.  I'm hoping that a part of me isn't just desperate to be with someone.  I'd honestly rather be alone than bored and/or miserable.  We all know what happens when you hold onto something past expiration...it gets ugly.

So my question is "What is 2014 going to be like" for me?  *sigh* I don't know but I am again excited to find out!  No more looking at the successes of my friends and associates and being exasperated NO it will now be a push for me in a positive manner to continue with my dreams.  I'd lost my drive a few years ago and have been struggling to get it back and I think I finally got it....YES...i think i finally got it back.  It's going to take a while to get away from the sarcastic response that I'm so used to automatically going to in my mind, but i am truly truly trying and I need to REALLY get a feel for jumping into my ambitions again.

No more being bored....no more hiding in the laughter...no more not letting people in...although I am going to still keep it playing safe on the romance side.  So we'll see if 2014 comes in with the same Mr. Man or heck maybe no Mr. Man at all. LOL! We shall see...

My lesson today:
Stay confident and don't talk yourself out of your own blessing!! YOU are the only one stopping YOU!

~Peace and Blessings~