Hello world....another run around the sun... #AriesNation

 Hello World....

I've got a new age!  I'm now 51!  Aries nation and all of that however...This year is a little different though.  If you know me, you know I roll with TLA tough!  ONe of the ladies that was close with, that encouraged me passed away on her birthday!  My friend Sonta - 3/17/72 to 3/17/23 - she'd just turned 51, we are 4 days apart.

I've only lost one other friend and it's been awhile but this one hit me hard.  So this birthday was dampened in spirit. I did have a party at a karaoke spot and planned on my house warming this past Saturday but cancelled it due to my friend's funeral service.

I will say this...take care of your health folks....age ain't nothing but a number...and you can ben here today and gone tomorrow.  Take care of yourself.

C'est la vie....

~~nissa k ~~

Hello World....The post-move crisis/other side of through

 Hello World!

My last post spoke of the move and showed the damage to my car.  I spoke wanting to get on the other side of through.  Well, I was on my way to the new house, I ended up in Stockbridge.  I would've never thought to move this far south.  I do like the new place and the area BUT about a week after moving here i noticed some health issues.  the first thought "MOLD"... O_O tha fuk??? i'm doing my medical due diligence as well as making sure I can take remedy steps in the house to fix it.  I went from being 100% to WTF waking up with swollen face, hands, stiff knees.  I'm in talks with my current "landlord" as well.  We gone fix this shit immediately!!

I'm working on it.....OH BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE!!

it's good news no worries.....I GOT A MAAAAAN y'all.....LOL....long story short:

I'm at the old spot, working on something in my office area, i get a phone call, he's still saved in my phone so I answered it friendly-like.  we have a real cool convo about this movie he's watching and the woman's eyes reminded him of me. He asks what i've been up to and I tell him everything, not because I'm looking for help but because as previously posted, I was tired y'all. (see 1/26 post)  Fast forward, he ends up assisting big time in my move in the old spot and new spot.  So we've decided to give it a new try, 10 years later.  we're both different folks with different lives/personalities.  I'm excited. ;-).

I've been meaning to update everything but I keep forgetting to put my laptop in a convenient spot.  I'll do better with updating.

Oh yes 1 more thing!  I have a podcast now with my 3rd coast friend (Kwana King) called "The Ladies Den" - We stream live every Thursday at 7p EST.  You can follow on YouTube and Facebook.

That's about it for now.  Life ain't bad these days....I'm getting some stuff fixed pronto!

See you soon!

~~Nissa K~~

On the other side of through....

 Hello World....

With all of the craziness going on, I just want to get to the "other side of through".  I'm 90% sure that I have a new place to live.  It's a lot of money going out with the move and then my car but I think I'm almost to the other side of this...I can feel it happening.

I'll just thank the ancestors right now and continue working/packing.

Peace and love...love and peace...I'm out!

Hello World....It's a new year....2023

 Hello World!

Who knew that the next time I would journal would be a whole year later!  Wow!  I've had aLOT going on in 2022.  The job is ok, I will say that.  On a personal level:

My health is still "ok".  No more reproductive issues, the procedure that I had in January took care of that. I am in menopause tho and that's not fun at all.  Especially trying to sleep at night and sometimes when moving around during the day.  I do still have the hyperthyroid issue, it's making my hair thin out.....like REALLY thin out.  It's crazy when I look back at pictures to see who much it's currently thinned out.  Presently, I wear more wigs to cover versus any braids or pony tail/puff ball attachments.  I have used several hair growth products and at first they seemed to be working but I don't think so.  There is this one process that I had looked into that measure the hormones or something. I stopped the process but I'd like to look into it again.  It may open up some doors.

Secondly, our townhome building got sold and the new owner originally said he wouldn't do anything for the year, then November 2022 he gave all of the residents a notice to vacate.  All of us had been here for YEARS so giving us 60 days to 1. pack all of our belongings 2. Find somewhere to live.  That's not a fair thing to do.  Now he did say that he would give us the month of January if needed, we'd have to pay rent BUT we'd have that extra time.  So I said to myself "self, we are going to buy a house." here's the kicker, I was planning to buy one later, like start June 2023 but it got pushed up waaay early.  So I'd already contacted my realtor friend who has a brokerage and she immediately put me in contact with her team.  So I contacted her once we got the notice to vacate and we started into action.  My credit score was NOT where I wanted it to be to handle THIS, so I had to do some quick tricks to get it to a certain point.  I ended up going through this lease to own program.  I'd heard about them but hadn't REALLY looked into it.  I teamed up with my realtor team and we looked for houses.  Mostly doing online searches and picking the ones that fit my budget and the qualifications of the program.  I finally found one and just recently put an offer in and TODAY 1.4.23 it was accepted.  Now the next steps are for the company (Divvy Homes) to do all of their due diligence and with every box checked, I will close on 1.20.23.  It will be a move to a different county, a little further south but not too far from the office AND it's about the same distance to the airport, maybe 5 minutes more.

I am excited!  I will be a first time home owner! At 50....a 1st time home buyer.  To be honest, I didn't WANT to buy a house until now.  This time around because of the way that this building got bought I said that I NEVER want to be put into this situation again where I was at the mercy of another individual to tell me to get out.  So I said this time, I'm buying....and I am.

I celebrate in advance!  I thank the Universe in advance!  I'd already reached out to my interior design friends to be on the lookout for me.  Lord, now I have to order more curtains. Geesh!  I'm going to wait until we get closer to closing to make any major moves.  Thank you Jesus!

I'll actually come back and do an update.  Lemme get my housewarming list together on Amazon. :-D

that is it for now...

Thank you for reading.

Lookie lookie who's 50....

 Hello World!!

Wow it has been a minute!  Since my last post I have finally started my zydeco festival in Atlanta.  It happened March 23rd at Kat's Cafe

Yep.  I finally did it.  Finally started the event like I always wanted.  First one down, 2nd one coming up.  The first one was a bit rough but I am getting a planning committee together for 2023.  I still need to get all of the name stuff on record and next year I want a different location, a live band and some horses.  And this year I will have a DJ who knows what a zydeco festival  is.  This year I chose the RMT Cancer Network as the non-profit to give to, next year it'll be a different organization.

Hello World - My body is slowing breaking down...

 Hello World:

So...i was born with pain.  The doctor delivered me with forceps and fucked up my spine and right hip.  My growing pains were excruciating and for a long time my right hip could pop out at any given time.  It was not pretty.

Fast forward - in my early 20s while in the USAF, I develop RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) quickly and soon have to leave the job that I had planned to be a career.

Dealt with the pain throughout my life, realized environment and stress were my triggers so I moved away to a less humid place.  And the RA flare ups stopped.  Love it.

Well NOW....2020 - we have a lovely virus reeking havoc called Covid.  I ended up developing the lovely virus and have some lovely lingering issues as a parting gift.  At first it was just getting used to the craziness of my taste buds and NOW some sort of rash is hitting me up.  Slowly developing under my armpits.  Went to the doctor she said "oh it's nothing, just some inflamed sweat glands." gave me an ointment (Mupirocin) but then due to a contract issue with UHC, my doctor is no longer my doctor because my insurance will not pay her.

ooooh wait - i forgot the best part - I'd been having some weird bleeding with cramping that wasn't tied to my monthly fun times.  Went in for a slightly painful ultrasound and some other test to find out I have something that needs to be removed PLUS I have 3 fibroids (or 4) i can't remember.  The fibroids are not going to be touched right now but the bleeding is coming from the other thing.  I'm still having some mild cramping and some bleeding but nothing I can do but be prepared with herbal (lavender) infused pads.  They do help alot.  I also have several pair of the new undies that someone designed for us during those fun monthly times, I still wear a pad with mine tho.  My outpatient procedure will be handled next month since I need to wait until I have a new bucket of money because my insurance only pays for a portion of the procedure.

ok so back to this rash.  It was mild, i was using the Mupirocin but then my doctor stopped strangely, refilling my prescription so it got worse.  I have to get a new doctor so I can get some more Mupirocin at least because now this rash is flaring up in the nether regions.  Skin looks ugly and lots of itching.

NOW one more thing, I have had a bad tooth for quite some time that needs oral surgery but my dentist's office closed and the only other option they could give me is a location that is an hour away.  Yeah not happening.  So the other day (12/5/2021) I was eating and agitated the tooth and NOW I had to run and buy orajel (maximum strength) plus part of my face is swollen under my eye, even though it's not hurting.  Some parts of my nose is sore if I move it but other than that I have an ice pack to keep the swelling down.

So uuuum yeah....from head to the middle section (LOL) I'm dealing with some stuff!  I hope I make it to my next birthday!  The Universe has allowed me to get things together for the event and I plan on making it an annual thing so I hope I'm good.

Oh yeah - almost forgot - my thyroid levels are too low and my hair was leaving me...in the front, very thin and my edges grew back from a braid incident but the area that my hair used to be has changed in the front.  The same doctor that I'm no longer seeing was handling it with meds so now I'm going the herbal route.  I use the stuff in my smoothies.  I'm hoping to see a change.

I do have a new doctor selected but I haven't setup an appointment yet - I know I should ASAP especially after ALL of the shit I just listed that I'm dealing with.

Crazy how I'll write on this blog more than I've verbalize to another human.  I guess cuz I'm not a fan of the response "oh nooooo...what can i do? are you ok?"  You can't do anything, I was just telling you.  I know people mean well and I should hide anything.  I'll let my cousin Yolanda know what's happening if anything gets too crazy.  She's my emergency contact.

ok.  I'm going to get back to my work stuff.  I just had a weird bleeding incident which made me think to blog what's been happening.  So, I'm done.

Hope your life is going great.

Hello World: 50 is approaching

 Hello World...

It's October 2021 and in 6 months, I'll be 50.  I feel like one HUGE liability, i haven't really accomplished shit.  My life is one big stuck hamster wheel.  Don't own anything, my energy for being in a relationship is gone.  I'm convinced that I am officially stuck in my way and i'll be the childless woman with nothing to show for life. 

My sadness is overwhelming these days.  All of these crazy medical issues are starting to pop up including some female issues.  I feel like we are put here to complete something in this life.  I'm not sure (hell nobody is sure) the whole creation part.  

Basically i feel like a big failure...damaged goods.  I'm wondering if I'll be here March 21, 2022....I'm not sure.  I'm really not sure.

Do I have a plan? Nope.  Honestly, I was happy when I started planning for my 50th.  I have friends around me celebrating their 50th.  My original plan was to go home and have a country girl type celebration but then I started thinking about the money that would go into that.  I'd have to go home and then possibly rent a house and then decorate and get food.  THEN I started thinking about "WHO would come?"  I don't have THAT many folks back home that would be there.  THEN i started thinking about doing something here....I don't want a sit down dinner (boring), I want a party space but not one that I need to rent out and get food and decorations.   I don't know...i just don't.  

But i do know i'm tired.  i'm real real tired.

Fuck Covid, Fuck a vaccine, fuck everything else....my mental is not where it needs to be.  Period.  Covid fucked up my body chemistry and now ya got folks going around pushing this vaccine....like seriously...i'm so sick of the world...i promise.

I can be done and be ok.  If i could figure out a sure fire, not too painful way...i think i would.

...I'm done.

Hello/Goodbye World.