Push forward it is....

 Hello World...

In The Ladies Den last night - 5/29/25 - it was our last week of discussing "Mental Health Awareness".  We talked about how we are affected mentally by our upbringing.  How it shows up in our adulthood...it opened up alot for me.  Last night's show was almost a personal therapy session.  I still feel like folks don't always want to hear what you have to say BUT i'll keep on pushing.

I hope your 2025 is looking up, we are almost in June which means half of the year is already gone.  Our political environment is shyttey, the people are wondering why our community isn't in an uproar.  Personally, I can say that I am just numb to everything.  I'm sitting back watching.  It's crazy right now.

Anyway, I'm back on the east coast for now (GA) and just doing what I do.  Paying my mortgage and hopefully getting my storage shed to be able to move some stuff out of the hallway. Ugh!

Alright - in conclusion....

In the words of the late Curtis Mayfield - Keep On Pushing!

Peace and Blessing....

Hope it is.....

 Hello World.....

My time is almost up on the west coast and I have to tell you, I am going to miss the west coast.  Back in September, I was led to find a church home, something I did not EVER would do.  I was obedient and found Saint Paul Church of Sacramento.  I've told this story before I literally started googling "churches in sacramento".  I found this church's FB page and watched them online and then went to service in-person.  I thought they were non-denominational, it didn't matter to me really.  I was raised in the AME church but I have been a member at baptist churches.  I was just looking for a good vibe, the right spirit and I found it.  I completed my "new member" classes December 2024 and had to go home for the holidays (yep had to it was a mandatory rotation) and got back January 2025 to find out we were having an MLK program where the community choir would be ministering.  Guess what!  Community Choir is open to everyone! :-)  Yours truly got a chance to sing in the choir.  I had a time last night!  Yes 1/20/25 will always be an awesome memory for me.

I'm looking forward to what the future looks like.  As of 1/20/25 - our government makeup is cray, delusional and any other.  This next 4 years are about to be VERY interesting.  As for our community, it's best that we support each other and mind the business that pays us and us only.  I'm working really hard to shut down my petty and be quiet and not respond to ignorant stuff but it's HARD...but i'm definitely working on it.

Anyway...happy new year...if you're looking for a church to visit or need a church home, I definitely recomment Saint Paul! 

Going forward, I plan to stay focused and mind my muhfuggn business!

Hello World.....Happy New Year 2025

 Hello world!

Well our project sent us on a mandatory rotation I'll be heading back tomorrow to the west coast.  I got a chance to see my family and some of my friends, however at home in GA, my car isn't working and rideshare adds up. (oh boy)

I did get a chance to team up with some nightlife homies, a time was had!

2024 was the year of the Universe pushing me onto my new path.  From struggling to pay rent to a homeowner to seeing the world a little bit via corporate.  Guess who is not complaining...me??

I thank the Lord and my ancestors for my new path and I promise not to waste ANY time or talent.

Shouts out to The Ladies Den - we were nominated for an ATL's Hottest Award and we'll be celebrating our 2nd year this year.  Be on the lookout for more from the den!

OK world, the runway calls....LOL...it's the first #TLA runway class of 2025 and ya girl hasn't been on a runway in a good long time.  Let's get it!!

Keep your head up and keep it pushing!

Happy New YEAR!

p.s. be on the lookout for "53 and I'm outside" celebration! Aries in the building!

West Coast - they not like us - turn up it is....

 so listen - hey people....

my last post was talking about me turning 52 on the west coast.  So what ended up happening is..my training colleague ended up going over to a different project because our projects were being completed so a good amount of our TACs were sent home.

So now I'm the point of contact.  I've been learning alot across the board.  This project should last at least until October, possibly February.  We'll see how it goes.

I'm having a great adulting time.  I got a chance to see my folks at the Turknett Reunion, I'm happy.

Keke has officially moved in the mobile home.  This may work out great because I'm not there everyday and my social awkwardness won't mess it up.

We'll see!

Until further notice....peace and love....love and peace...

p.s. enjoy the family video that I put together for our reunion.

West Coast turn up it is..... #Aries party

Hello World..... 

it's 2024 - it's March - you already knoooow.....the turnup started on March 1st.....

today is 3.20...yes ya girl is hitting 52.....but oh my GAWD....

quick recap - 2023 was all a shit show, i moved into a #DivvyHomes property which had not been properly inspected and it had mold and I got severely ill!  They paid to clean the mold from the property and repair everything that hadn't been done before I moved in but refused (still refuse) to reimburse me for the $$$$$ i had to pay for specialist as I fought to find out WHY suddenly my face was fukked up and I couldn't breathe!

ok..present-day - I got the hell up outta there and tapped into my 401K and bought a mobile home.  While I was getting the hell up outta there I got a call from some colleagues about an opportunity in Cali for a project set to last one year!

Yes, ya girl is in Cali...right now....typing!!  It's 8:34am PST and I'll be turning a year older in a new land.  I'll get back with you on the update.  just know ....that God/Universe and the Ancestors have my back. I'm good and I'm gettin a haircut today! so I can be fly tomorrow.....

BUT....I had a slight panic attack at 1:30a....I promise I will get myself together but there is a part of me that is slowly getting acclimated.

More to come.....Stay tuned!!♈♈♈

Hello world....Well lookie here....

 Hello World.....

Well lookie lookie here!!  It's 2024 and I made it!  Ya'll listen I am tearing up while typing this...why?  because I honestly wasn't sure if I was going to be here to see the new year.  One of my good friends died on her birthday last year, my cousin-brother two weeks older than me passed on his mother's birthday...I just knew I would be part of the number.  I swear...but the Universe had other plans and my ancestors continue to assist me on my journey.  Seems like 52 will be my magic number...i tell you what 51 was a summabytch.  I almost died y'all my decisions to make some moves kept me alive.  But my new living situation had me in a financial jam for real for real.  This year is already looking up.  I have some new revenue streams happening right now with more lined up.  2024 will be on the up and up...let's get it!!

This shit is for the birds...

 Hello World.....

If I had the guts....I would....

If I had the guts.... I could....

But I don't... I'm a coward...

There i said it ...I fukkd up my life....

And Im too old to fix it...I'm half of 100....

No kids...no career aspirations....

No great idea or skill .... back single again....

I mean what's better... being single? OR being someone's after thought?

I was stressing for a minute but then I thought..."girl why are you stressing to hurry and be an after thought? To be an option? Saddown."

So I sat my azz down 🤣🙄

I'm still having health issues from the mold but can't find the right legal representation.  I owe people...I'm scraping to pay rent every month. It's crazy!! I'm depressed and"broke " but don't have the capacity to leave this world.... voluntarily.  I had to cut my hair because it was literally coming out in my hands.  Lucky for me talking to my chiropractor, I have it narrowed down to low adrenal and thyroid gland levels. There is a plan in place to handle that. #fingerscrossed 

In the meantime, I'm not a fan of Nissa.....I fukkd up and there's no way to fix it...I made wrong choices. I don't like it here...at all.

In conclusion.....

This shit is for the birds....

hello world.....Divvy Homes

 Hello world....

Update:

08/18/2023

At this point, Divvy Homes have sent the HVAC vendor back to update the AC systems by adding a sensor so that the upstairs was properly ventilated.  So basically because they didn't do the proper inspections, they didn't realize that the AC system was not setup correctly for two-story property.  in my Khaled voice (AND ANOTHER ONE).  They refunded me for the air purifiers by applying the amount to my rent BUT i need to be refunded for all of the extra money that I've had to pay by going to specialists.  I now have a new bronchial issue too?  oh yeah, i'm trying to figure out what attorney to contact.  It's going to happen.  I'ma need to get my whole life back together, i will not forever have to take theraflu and eat cough drops and take puffs of albuteral to survive outside and not cough my damn food up.  Tha FUK????

my face looks back to normal but my hair literally started falling out even more....it's not over.

Update:

6/01/2023

Divvy Homes is so wrong for this. I now have a crazy breathing issue. My throat is always tight, my breathing is always labored and my voice is still not right. I can't do anything without going into a whole breathing attack.  I've NEVER had breathing issues...so whatever this crap is that I inhaled at 122 Hudson bridge court has fukkd me up!!! I gotta make sure I let the allergist know at my follow-up appointment.  This is nuts but they want my $1800 every month though!! I damn near died in that townhouse.  They still need to send someone to clear the AC Vents. I'm so mad right now....every time I take a labored breath I'm mad!  I need to get an attorney to handle everything quick!

Ok... gotta go "make the donuts".

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Update:

4/17/2023 update:

So I was feeling crazy this past week, face still swollen, light headed, coughing, barely breathing.  I finally took myself to the Urgent Care on Thursday.  The doctor did a chest x-ray and put me on a regiment of steroids and a few other allergy deterrent.  I'm currently on day 4 of the steroids and the side effects are crazy.  I go from sleepy to hyper.  I'm definitely feeling better, the swelling is pretty much gone.

The air quality tech came to test this past Friday.  I should get results by this Tuesday (4.18.23) at the latest.  I pray we get answers because i can't go through the swelling again and I can't live off of steroids.

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I got the lab results back today!  There is mold present in this home as I have been saying.  I have just forwarded the results as well as invoices to have my rent adjusted less the additional monies that I have had to pay to troubleshoot the issues in here.  My health has been affected!  Thank goodness I do not have to go into the office otherwise, I would be SOL.  I'm now waiting for a response from Divvy Homes.  Next up is the legal path if common sense doesn't prevail.

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I think Divvy Homes is trying to take me out of here.  If you've followed me, you know from Nov 2022, the landlord of my previous home decided to do something else with the property and I was forced to move.  I decided to buy a home but my credit status veered me to the path of lease to own.  My realtor connected me with Divvy Homes which is a company that assists with buying a property OR they already own a property ready to move in.  

The way that everything happened with me, I ended up buying a property they already owned.  Upon seeing the home with my realtor, everything looked above board.  Their process of due diligence they test for EVERYthing.  I moved into this new spot the first week of Feb 2023 and by the 2nd week, i noticed my face being swollen in the mornings.   I have asked them to do a mold test to clean my air ducts and they threw all of that back on me.  Saying I am responsible for that.  I've now paid for a mold test and now I've purchased two air purifiers.  I'm visiting doctors to get tests run to figure out what my body is going through, my fair, my hands, my legs.  Now I'm dealing with dizziness, with headaches.  It's a shame.  I just wanna be in my own space and relax but now I went from having to stressfully move from a place to a place that is making me ill.

I'm going to see about getting the air ducts cleaned and then the next step is an attorney.  I am possibly breathing in black mold everyday/every night and Divvy Homes doesn't give not one good damn.

stay tuned for more...

4.07.2023

Hello world....another run around the sun... #AriesNation

 Hello World....

I've got a new age!  I'm now 51!  Aries nation and all of that however...This year is a little different though.  If you know me, you know I roll with TLA tough!  ONe of the ladies that was close with, that encouraged me passed away on her birthday!  My friend Sonta - 3/17/72 to 3/17/23 - she'd just turned 51, we are 4 days apart.

I've only lost one other friend and it's been awhile but this one hit me hard.  So this birthday was dampened in spirit. I did have a party at a karaoke spot and planned on my house warming this past Saturday but cancelled it due to my friend's funeral service.

I will say this...take care of your health folks....age ain't nothing but a number...and you can ben here today and gone tomorrow.  Take care of yourself.

C'est la vie....

~~nissa k ~~

Hello World....The post-move crisis/other side of through

 Hello World!

My last post spoke of the move and showed the damage to my car.  I spoke wanting to get on the other side of through.  Well, I was on my way to the new house, I ended up in Stockbridge.  I would've never thought to move this far south.  I do like the new place and the area BUT about a week after moving here i noticed some health issues.  the first thought "MOLD"... O_O tha fuk??? i'm doing my medical due diligence as well as making sure I can take remedy steps in the house to fix it.  I went from being 100% to WTF waking up with swollen face, hands, stiff knees.  I'm in talks with my current "landlord" as well.  We gone fix this shit immediately!!

I'm working on it.....OH BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE!!

it's good news no worries.....I GOT A MAAAAAN y'all.....LOL....long story short:

I'm at the old spot, working on something in my office area, i get a phone call, he's still saved in my phone so I answered it friendly-like.  we have a real cool convo about this movie he's watching and the woman's eyes reminded him of me. He asks what i've been up to and I tell him everything, not because I'm looking for help but because as previously posted, I was tired y'all. (see 1/26 post)  Fast forward, he ends up assisting big time in my move in the old spot and new spot.  So we've decided to give it a new try, 10 years later.  we're both different folks with different lives/personalities.  I'm excited. ;-).

I've been meaning to update everything but I keep forgetting to put my laptop in a convenient spot.  I'll do better with updating.

Oh yes 1 more thing!  I have a podcast now with my 3rd coast friend (Kwana King) called "The Ladies Den" - We stream live every Thursday at 7p EST.  You can follow on YouTube and Facebook.

That's about it for now.  Life ain't bad these days....I'm getting some stuff fixed pronto!

See you soon!

~~Nissa K~~

On the other side of through....

 Hello World....

With all of the craziness going on, I just want to get to the "other side of through".  I'm 90% sure that I have a new place to live.  It's a lot of money going out with the move and then my car but I think I'm almost to the other side of this...I can feel it happening.

I'll just thank the ancestors right now and continue working/packing.

Peace and love...love and peace...I'm out!

Hello World....It's a new year....2023

 Hello World!

Who knew that the next time I would journal would be a whole year later!  Wow!  I've had aLOT going on in 2022.  The job is ok, I will say that.  On a personal level:

My health is still "ok".  No more reproductive issues, the procedure that I had in January took care of that. I am in menopause tho and that's not fun at all.  Especially trying to sleep at night and sometimes when moving around during the day.  I do still have the hyperthyroid issue, it's making my hair thin out.....like REALLY thin out.  It's crazy when I look back at pictures to see who much it's currently thinned out.  Presently, I wear more wigs to cover versus any braids or pony tail/puff ball attachments.  I have used several hair growth products and at first they seemed to be working but I don't think so.  There is this one process that I had looked into that measure the hormones or something. I stopped the process but I'd like to look into it again.  It may open up some doors.

Secondly, our townhome building got sold and the new owner originally said he wouldn't do anything for the year, then November 2022 he gave all of the residents a notice to vacate.  All of us had been here for YEARS so giving us 60 days to 1. pack all of our belongings 2. Find somewhere to live.  That's not a fair thing to do.  Now he did say that he would give us the month of January if needed, we'd have to pay rent BUT we'd have that extra time.  So I said to myself "self, we are going to buy a house." here's the kicker, I was planning to buy one later, like start June 2023 but it got pushed up waaay early.  So I'd already contacted my realtor friend who has a brokerage and she immediately put me in contact with her team.  So I contacted her once we got the notice to vacate and we started into action.  My credit score was NOT where I wanted it to be to handle THIS, so I had to do some quick tricks to get it to a certain point.  I ended up going through this lease to own program.  I'd heard about them but hadn't REALLY looked into it.  I teamed up with my realtor team and we looked for houses.  Mostly doing online searches and picking the ones that fit my budget and the qualifications of the program.  I finally found one and just recently put an offer in and TODAY 1.4.23 it was accepted.  Now the next steps are for the company (Divvy Homes) to do all of their due diligence and with every box checked, I will close on 1.20.23.  It will be a move to a different county, a little further south but not too far from the office AND it's about the same distance to the airport, maybe 5 minutes more.

I am excited!  I will be a first time home owner! At 50....a 1st time home buyer.  To be honest, I didn't WANT to buy a house until now.  This time around because of the way that this building got bought I said that I NEVER want to be put into this situation again where I was at the mercy of another individual to tell me to get out.  So I said this time, I'm buying....and I am.

I celebrate in advance!  I thank the Universe in advance!  I'd already reached out to my interior design friends to be on the lookout for me.  Lord, now I have to order more curtains. Geesh!  I'm going to wait until we get closer to closing to make any major moves.  Thank you Jesus!

I'll actually come back and do an update.  Lemme get my housewarming list together on Amazon. :-D

that is it for now...

Thank you for reading.

Lookie lookie who's 50....

 Hello World!!

Wow it has been a minute!  Since my last post I have finally started my zydeco festival in Atlanta.  It happened March 23rd at Kat's Cafe

Yep.  I finally did it.  Finally started the event like I always wanted.  First one down, 2nd one coming up.  The first one was a bit rough but I am getting a planning committee together for 2023.  I still need to get all of the name stuff on record and next year I want a different location, a live band and some horses.  And this year I will have a DJ who knows what a zydeco festival  is.  This year I chose the RMT Cancer Network as the non-profit to give to, next year it'll be a different organization.

Hello World - My body is slowing breaking down...

 Hello World:

So...i was born with pain.  The doctor delivered me with forceps and fucked up my spine and right hip.  My growing pains were excruciating and for a long time my right hip could pop out at any given time.  It was not pretty.

Fast forward - in my early 20s while in the USAF, I develop RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) quickly and soon have to leave the job that I had planned to be a career.

Dealt with the pain throughout my life, realized environment and stress were my triggers so I moved away to a less humid place.  And the RA flare ups stopped.  Love it.

Well NOW....2020 - we have a lovely virus reeking havoc called Covid.  I ended up developing the lovely virus and have some lovely lingering issues as a parting gift.  At first it was just getting used to the craziness of my taste buds and NOW some sort of rash is hitting me up.  Slowly developing under my armpits.  Went to the doctor she said "oh it's nothing, just some inflamed sweat glands." gave me an ointment (Mupirocin) but then due to a contract issue with UHC, my doctor is no longer my doctor because my insurance will not pay her.

ooooh wait - i forgot the best part - I'd been having some weird bleeding with cramping that wasn't tied to my monthly fun times.  Went in for a slightly painful ultrasound and some other test to find out I have something that needs to be removed PLUS I have 3 fibroids (or 4) i can't remember.  The fibroids are not going to be touched right now but the bleeding is coming from the other thing.  I'm still having some mild cramping and some bleeding but nothing I can do but be prepared with herbal (lavender) infused pads.  They do help alot.  I also have several pair of the new undies that someone designed for us during those fun monthly times, I still wear a pad with mine tho.  My outpatient procedure will be handled next month since I need to wait until I have a new bucket of money because my insurance only pays for a portion of the procedure.

ok so back to this rash.  It was mild, i was using the Mupirocin but then my doctor stopped strangely, refilling my prescription so it got worse.  I have to get a new doctor so I can get some more Mupirocin at least because now this rash is flaring up in the nether regions.  Skin looks ugly and lots of itching.

NOW one more thing, I have had a bad tooth for quite some time that needs oral surgery but my dentist's office closed and the only other option they could give me is a location that is an hour away.  Yeah not happening.  So the other day (12/5/2021) I was eating and agitated the tooth and NOW I had to run and buy orajel (maximum strength) plus part of my face is swollen under my eye, even though it's not hurting.  Some parts of my nose is sore if I move it but other than that I have an ice pack to keep the swelling down.

So uuuum yeah....from head to the middle section (LOL) I'm dealing with some stuff!  I hope I make it to my next birthday!  The Universe has allowed me to get things together for the event and I plan on making it an annual thing so I hope I'm good.

Oh yeah - almost forgot - my thyroid levels are too low and my hair was leaving me...in the front, very thin and my edges grew back from a braid incident but the area that my hair used to be has changed in the front.  The same doctor that I'm no longer seeing was handling it with meds so now I'm going the herbal route.  I use the stuff in my smoothies.  I'm hoping to see a change.

I do have a new doctor selected but I haven't setup an appointment yet - I know I should ASAP especially after ALL of the shit I just listed that I'm dealing with.

Crazy how I'll write on this blog more than I've verbalize to another human.  I guess cuz I'm not a fan of the response "oh nooooo...what can i do? are you ok?"  You can't do anything, I was just telling you.  I know people mean well and I should hide anything.  I'll let my cousin Yolanda know what's happening if anything gets too crazy.  She's my emergency contact.

ok.  I'm going to get back to my work stuff.  I just had a weird bleeding incident which made me think to blog what's been happening.  So, I'm done.

Hope your life is going great.

Hello World: 50 is approaching

 Hello World...

It's October 2021 and in 6 months, I'll be 50.  I feel like one HUGE liability, i haven't really accomplished shit.  My life is one big stuck hamster wheel.  Don't own anything, my energy for being in a relationship is gone.  I'm convinced that I am officially stuck in my way and i'll be the childless woman with nothing to show for life. 

My sadness is overwhelming these days.  All of these crazy medical issues are starting to pop up including some female issues.  I feel like we are put here to complete something in this life.  I'm not sure (hell nobody is sure) the whole creation part.  

Basically i feel like a big failure...damaged goods.  I'm wondering if I'll be here March 21, 2022....I'm not sure.  I'm really not sure.

Do I have a plan? Nope.  Honestly, I was happy when I started planning for my 50th.  I have friends around me celebrating their 50th.  My original plan was to go home and have a country girl type celebration but then I started thinking about the money that would go into that.  I'd have to go home and then possibly rent a house and then decorate and get food.  THEN I started thinking about "WHO would come?"  I don't have THAT many folks back home that would be there.  THEN i started thinking about doing something here....I don't want a sit down dinner (boring), I want a party space but not one that I need to rent out and get food and decorations.   I don't know...i just don't.  

But i do know i'm tired.  i'm real real tired.

Fuck Covid, Fuck a vaccine, fuck everything else....my mental is not where it needs to be.  Period.  Covid fucked up my body chemistry and now ya got folks going around pushing this vaccine....like seriously...i'm so sick of the world...i promise.

I can be done and be ok.  If i could figure out a sure fire, not too painful way...i think i would.

...I'm done.

Hello/Goodbye World.

Hello World......Baby Nissa/Toddler Nissa....I'm sorry

 dear little baby nissa and toddler nissa....

i apologize for fukkn up. We came in the world in some confusion...wanted...not wanted...it was up in the air...lots of conflict. Health issues out of the womb...kinda pushed to side...the lil girl by herself in the country...nature and her pets became he friends....the subject of bullying just cuz we were a little skinny kid...part of a BIG family but no real backup...thank God for church and the fact that music became our friend....reading music/piano playing from age 3 (hey toddler) you did well...it was our church friends that kept us safe to a certain extent...got to watch my cousins receive that extra love and support from their parents...and then I got the leftover love from their parents....invisible until it was time to clean up the kitchen after a BIG family function. How did we function? we just remember and focus on the good times. Everybody else seems to be born with a guaranteed goal in life...they already KNEW what adults they wanted to be. Not us. I knew USAF...cuz my uncles made it look sooooo cool....bring the health issues back in 1000% and had to get out. So then hmmm....what to do? Get married? have kids? everybody else is doing it...yeah...BIG #fail in that too...he was a con man....a controlling man...fukked us up even more emotionally....the kid that was looking for that extra love and support from her parents is still there. Our trust level of people is just different because the foundation that we were supposed to get just didn't happen. I'm sorry I didn't do better...we are a BIG sister now...which was hard watching others get the love and support from our parent that we didn't get. Oh don't front now...we had cute clothes and hairstyles growing up but NEVER that emotional attachment...and it's still kinda strange. I apologize that I didn't get it right. We are now damn near 50 and we left the marriage idea alone...no kiddos but an awesome aunt. We still have some other plans...maybe in the works...but NOTHING close to the life we could've had. I made some bad choices for us. The therapists we've seen worked to a degree but THEN they ask "hey do you think your family can join a session?" that's my cue to exit..cuz they don't think they did anything wrong to you. Apparently you didn't deserve any hugs and love and extra support about what you wanted to do when you grew up. The clothes and hairstyles should have sufficed. We still hurt...are still hurt...

Here is the thing......other than Us...Adult Nissa...nobody really gives a damn. Oh yeah the adult men out here are all about emotional abuse...our assets...oh yeah now we finally gained weight....u know we were the 85 pound lil brown girl forever it seemed...around mid twenties the DNA kicked in the hips and thighs and even tho the lil boom boom was already there it kinda meshed with everything else. LOL....but adult men have just drained us emotionally and we're done. No time for games at damn near 50.

Everything is up in the air.....although sometimes I wish we were gone...it's true....

baby Nissa/Toddler Nissa - I apologize......I fukked it all up for us.

Hello World....Pandemic x2

 Hello World... (listen to this while u read.)

So the 2020 pandemic is STILL going on.  Vaccines are out and about, people have died from it.  It's a mess!

It's black history month....i do like that the narrative of recognizing the same 5 good African Americans for the month.  This younger generation is looking for information and getting it.

NOW there is a crazy ass "day after tomorrow" storm that has hit the Gulfcoast areas and the state of Texas has no constant power and/or running water with temperatures in the teens and lower.

People have died from the weather as well as attempting to use outdoor grills and generators in the house....sitting in their closed garage in their running cars and dying of carbon monoxide poisoning.  It's crazy!  

Our utility bills are up and up...gas and electricity.  Just crazy!

I'm not sure when we'll get back to our new normal.  I'm grateful to work from home but I wouldn't mind some office interaction with my colleagues.

We now have a new President, Joe Biden we got 45 out of office thank God!  His followers are pissed! Their racist claws are out.

Rush Limbaugh died yesterday.  Talk about the mouth of the racist.  They loved him! oh well, i hope he found the Lord. (side eye)

Today is a friday eve that is great for re-watching all of the "house of cards" seasons on Netflix.  Political drama is awesome.

And to my family....in the words of Diana and the Supremes "somedaaaay we'll be togeeeeetheeer..."

Love ya like I love ya.....

peace and love....love and peace.

NissaK

It's a pandemic...it's a protest....it's craziness going on...

Hello World....

So as of late February/March the US has been under a crazy epidemic.  First it was the "Covid 19" quarantine which became official the weekend of my birthday (i was sad).  :-(

So we've all been under some sort of quarantine.  There is the separation of essential and non-essential employees.  Some companies have closed down, some companies have converted to 100% tele-working status.  Luckily I'm still able to work from home.  I still have my setup from my FL project so I'm good to go.

Crazy as it sounds i'm doing better financially NOW than I was when everything was side open.  Things have happened that opened up some normally closed financial doors and I'm good to go.

A few weeks ago we lost some folks in the african american community....

Breonna Taylor - March 2020 - ER Tech who was at home and was killed as a result of a no knock warrant.  Police shot and killed her...no reason, she wasn't guilty of anything.  Just being at home.

Ahmaud Arbery -  Feb 2020 - The rest of the world didn't find out about this Glynn County Georgia tragedy until months AFTER it happened.  Mr. Arbery was jogging in his neighborhood and these white men followed him in trucks and shot him like an animal in the middle of the street.

George Floyd - May 2020 - the world watched this man via video be strangled by a Minnesota Policeman.  The scenario?  Floyd went to a neighborhood store that he frequented and it's alleged that he paid for his purchases with a counterfeit bill.  Cops were called and somehow he ended up on the ground, handcuffed with 3 cops standing on his back and one cop with his knee on his neck.  The world saw/heard him yell "i can't breathe" and then yell for his mom.  We found out later that his mom is no longer living so perhaps he was calling out to her because she was there to get him once his soul left.

NOW the world is protesting for the unjust treatment that African Americans have been receiving forever.  There are professional folks losing jobs, businesses losing contracts, LOTS of folks who are used to being slick at the mouth about how they feel about blacks and the entire community.  We, again, get to see the racists coming out of their corners front and center.

I can honestly say that I've reacted online and choose to share any negative vibes that I see and make sure their employers know all about them.  I'm sending continuous prayers and positive vibes to ALL that are affected by all of this madness.  It is a blanket of sadness and anger right now.  Lots of people are getting educated on black history...black wall street, systemic racism, civil rights movement.

OAN:

Our agency (TLA) often connects with a really cool spiritual medium - Cathy Burroughs and I finally was brave enough to ask about my maternal grandmother.  Everytime I asked a question it was about finance, love life type stuff but I never asked the really hard question.  I got my answer...that she is proud of me and that she also wishes that we would've been able to have a better relationship.

Well this is the synopsis of what's happening in my world...there's world craziness happening and I've found a sliver of peace within the craziness.

I pray that your life is going well and that you are sane.

Peace and Blessings....

It takes a Village....Hello World

Hello World....

I hope your year/month/week/day is going well.  This weekend is bittersweet.  I am heading to celebrate the life of a cousin who was more like a big brother to me and my other cousins.  He "is" part of our village and I use present tense because he will always be a part of our memories and our lives.  There is a saying "It takes a village to raise a child"...and see the way our family is setup we were born into a village.  My Granny, Clara Elliott,  ended up having her children in sets of two and my aunt Bennie Mae was the only daughter in that first group and she got married and started having her own family which ironically coincided with my Granny's 2nd set of kids.  So Aunt Bennie Mae became mom, big sister and aunt all in one and so her children became sons, daughter, niece, nephews, cousins AND surrogate big brothers and sister.  (oooo lawd I'm trying to write this blog and the rush of memories are causing my eyes to uuum water....uuugh no not right now...who cries in the middle of the airport??) So I was part of the group that was born to a daughter in the second set of Elliott kiddos and even though my mom didn't have anymore babies I came into the world with big brothers and sisters thanks to our village.

(unfinished...this was started in 2016 and i never came back to finish it..it's 2020 now...)
i miss my cousin.

Love on your friends and family...always...

peace and blessings.

You must be this tall....

Hello World...

I was just speaking with a friend about blogging and they asked "you haven't posted anything, why?" and my response was that I hadn't been motivated to write about anything.  And THEN I saw this hilarious kermit meme (you know we love Kermy) about wives really know where their husbands are and of course he drinks tea at the end.  I shared it on my wall, not because I really and truly believe it BUT watching my male cousins grow up and other male figures do their thing I can say that uuuh yes part of me totally understands the statement.  It's life.

I'm sorry ladies it is what it is.  We want to think that we automatically get the same level of love and respect back that we give out but it's not always true.  And then I saw a web site or a FB profile name (or something) that was entitled "you have to be this tall to ride this ride".  I was immediately motivated to write something.

You probably think this is in reference to height...naw not really.  Now a few years ago...lol..probably.  I was convinced "him" towering over (or not) was a deal breaker..but uuh....ya get older, you get a little wiser and you realize what's important.  So the context of "you must be this tall" has to do with wisdom.  Any man coming in my direction talking that slick, fast stuff that works for ANY youngster has to keep it moving.  And these days you'd think that the older men are coming at you with wisdom but since the young ladies (using the term loosely) seem to be going after the seasoned ones these day the older men are brushing up on their "game" and sadly making the assumption that what worked on the 20 year olds can work on the 35 and up! (i probably didn't use enough punctuation in that thought.)  And the grown ladies have to stop them and say "uuum no sweetie, you're speaking to the wrong generation.  let's chit chat about your life plan.  let's chit chat about your gift to the next generation.  let's chit chat about music.  let's chit chat about some hobbies, about how many passport  stamps to get.  let's talk about something with substance. I'm not the one to turnup 24/7."

Fellas.....respect your ladies the same way we respect YOU!  You must be THIS tall to ride this ride.  I need your wisdom, your respect, your leadership, your humbleness, your heart.  If you constanly down us the reaction is to do the same to you or just to ignore you so that we avoid being disrespectful to our kings.  I love my kings TOO much to count you out....so just be good to us and we'll be good to you.  You scratch our backs and we got yours!